for you and me

2006-09-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

2006-06-03T11:22:00.000+08:00

haiz...This morning, I still sleeping then my mother don there nagging at me, I only roughly remember she say what can eat, after I come back from work ba.. Yeap! yesterday, my friends came to look for me while I was working, Jerry, Ronnie and Teck Yong... yeap. Is teck yong used Jerry hp msg me de, then I didn't expect they'll show up, gosh! they ordered red wine.. heex. Then I down there abit di siao them loh. wahahah.hey the 3 shuai ges, really thanks alot wor. if not my friday evening very sian.. free must come more often. Then Teckyong "bully" me keep on asked me to tkae the peanuts then help him open the peanut shells.. argh.. bully. hehe. He siao one, asked me to tell people say family member come support, then he so bhb he sid the other sentence " if you wanna say boyfriend also can la, I won't mind wan" haha, the 3 shuai ges left at around 11 something, then teck yong msg me again , this time he say this : " thanks ar, really bf come got discount 3 cent. thanks sweetie"

haiz.. yesterday learn to key in things like orders etc etc.. I abit neverous then got key wrongly bout once or twice. Then I got my pay for my first day of work, cos end of the month is pay day so I happen to work end of may like that, so I got my pay,the manager said wanna pay me 7 bucks per hour for the time beig but then I didn't expect he paid me 7.50 per hour, cos the manager told me, other staffs get paid 7.50 and I still not experience so he'll pay me 7 per hour, then i didn't expect he pay me 7.50.The first thing I do when I report to wrok, I faster claim my taxi fare.

last night, work till 1am like that but left the palce much later cos still got customers haven't leave yet. hmm.. Glad to get a cab in time. not waiting for so long then got no cab. hmm.. later going out with ice man, ling, cheryl, qing tian , royston. haha.. long itme never get together le, btw, bout another guy liking me besides gabriel the answer is there, you guys can guess who is that person among the 3 shuai ges.. haha.. signing off le.. sayonara

2006-06-01T12:24:00.000+08:00

Argh... what the hell? stupid ITE don't want me, keep on rejecting my application then always say may intake full liao.. Nnb.. I went to school, walked around after chekcing my results thingy then I see some students the pattern like don't wanna study, then still stuck inside the school, I down there bu gan xin, bu gan xin because they don't wanna study then don't wanna quite.. argh.. I wlaked around cafeteria, then royston saw me, he say he having his break time, then asked me where I going I say go walk around the school lo, then he accompaanied me, yeap then brought me to one part of school where the students played pool de.. ahhhaha

Stroll finish liao, we went to CS long john silver sat down drink something and talk cock. Talk till around 2 plus like that, then we went to NTUC to buy some sweets to share with our TKD friends. Bought le, we went back to interchange to take bus, I went back home first as I need to call the gas service to deliver a new cylinder of gas, hmm.. at last! done with the gas thingy.

yeap, can get ready for TKd liao, so long never train, due to my operation. Now recover le, so should be ok for me bah, heex. so sad suyu not around heard that she is sick. suyu, you must get well soon, don't get so stress up till you fall sick wor. I went back to TKD then I heard must pay grading fee liao, next grading is July. woo.. so fast, after blue tip is blue belt liao.. wahahaha.. so fast.

Training is kinda tough and very chuan sia.. then got sparring, I went for my first round I sparred with Pei wen, then second time is HuiPing and me sparred with Daphne.. gosh! she very poweful sia, kicked my back, tummy, my leg got bruised then my wrist got hurt too.. argh I keep on use front or side kick, when Jason coach countdown I keep on kick lo, she down there like du lan liao.. ar haha.. finished liao, everybody clapped. lolx.

finished around 2110hrs.. not bad, so I went out with Justin, Pei wen, Daniel,Candy, Royston, Elson and Eddie to bedok Hawker centre to eat.. then chatted about my higher NITEC application,I decided and confirm follow Justin method by talking to MP about my this problem, Justin say his family also go see MP, then his father and brother's stuffs settle in a much better way, his friend went to see MP about going into poly, in the end, his friend got place in the polytechnic, hopefully after go and meet the MP, then I got place in simei ITE bah.

Then tuesday, after work, my mum and me got some problem lo, she say when I knocked off form work le, must msg her tell her I in which taxi plus the taxi license plate number she say just in case I sway sway bump into a bad taxi drvier wait drive me to don't konw where and sell me away. she think too much liao, then because of this like kpkb lo. yeah, I know I don't look like 18, but I know what is going on, she say I not smart enough, maybe bah, she say if I smart I shouldn't be in ITE, knn, INSULT MAN, she not only insult me, but insult those clever ones studying in ITE. Then she say IF i don't msg her after work, then don't work asked me to quit.. Nnb, I'm 18 le pls stop treating me like 14 or 15 year old though I look like one, what to do? cna't help it, Only have to dress up a little bit more mature loh, like style hair in a little bit more mature way, ok back to the study thingy and clever part, she say I clever is rely on tuition and without tuition I won't pass.. I only tuition for maths ma, she say unitl like I in life is act smart like that. what the fuck, I very buay song, the reason why I work night shift or what is proper reason no lame reasons.

1) The rate is fine with me, 7bucks per hour

2) cos at night, I can't sleep so I tend to do other things till very late night and those things I do, is waste of time and useless.

3)Since I don't like to go home, I can't find a proper way to stay out late at night

4) go home also nothing to do, face the stupid 4 walls and one old celling which has so many hair line cracks

5) keep myself busy, don't need to think about so many things, especially facing my mother, her lian se make me fuck up

6) the company very good, say if I take the cab home, must get the receipt then can claim the cab fare money

ARGH.. verys tress stress like don't konw what, me like my buddy xin xin le, she so stress like wad like that never see her like that de only now then know. haiz.. hope evryone will be alright soon, especially suyu.

2006-05-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm..tomorrow then Ill know whether I confirm can get into higher NITEC anot.. HOpefully I can.. faster go back to school, study.. rot enough le, brain wanna rusty liao, screw must tighten up le, hopfeully I don't get rejected again bah. yesterday the stupid letter say my application rejected, don't tell me I confirm rejected again.. maybe, ITE forgot to send me letter so send again.. don't know lah, once my senior Justin told me to seek help from MP around my place de, cos his friend went to asked MP for help end up, his friend got place to study liao..

Oh ya, tomorrow june le, then this June got a few events coming up for me, 1st and 8th June no piano class for me, cos the school holiday, followed by 10th June I got my sec 4 class BBQ gathering, oh ya guys I forgot to let you know that I am going for an audition, for some contest, the contest is called New Paper new face organised by new paper,so call sponsore is by female magazine. hmm.. then my mum think I can win $10k. She says, IF i win 10k I pay for her trip to Shanghai, haha then like that I shun bian pay for myself too bah.. ahahaha....I not putting so much hopes lah.. win then win, never win nevermind, the most is i become popular only bah.. ahahaha

Btw, my brain not yet rusty cos, on mondays I've been attending this workshop call toastmasters, this word sounds familiar and interesting right? yeap, is about communication skills etc etc, yesterday was my first presentation with the other toastmaster members, I did my speech gotta write on a piece of paper first then roughly summarize them verbally, I cracked my brain on how to write , what to write.. yeap, later going to work liao. hopefully I won't screw up. I must jia you, best thing is tomorrow hopefully can really go back to school to study.

OH ya, those who tend to go bar/pubs or what, can look for me, location, timing, I can let you guys know, I'll be working on tuesday and friday other details I can msg you guys

2006-05-27T13:51:00.000+08:00

Back to update my blog liao.. hmm past few days, ok let's talk about 2 days ago which is thursday yeap. Gabriel agreed with my idea liao, then he asked me alot of questions like will there be a place for him in my heart and guarantee after 2 years, he say he'll wait lo.. hmm.. then wait bah, cos I think 2 years is long enough for me to take a break liao.. I told him that, for my past r/s is really like torturing and wasting my time on those useless and hopeless guys.

hmm. Heaven is still fair to me bah at least got good guys around not alot lah, but at least 1 or 2 only. but the problem is I'm still confused who I like more leh.yeap, Fishy said the right thing bah, cos, I don't wanna go into another r/s that fast, I need a break, if I don't have a long break, I will break down and go crazy. Then for Eddie he tagged my board and told me what to do lo, if I think his point of view is correct. hmm. maybe Im still afarid of my past bah, then my past still somehow haunts me bah not everyday but once in a long while it'll kinda haunt me by putting those irritating stuffs in my dreams lo. whatever it is lah, IF i gave up on someone like that, then I don't in the end blame heaven that I never get those good guys. Is me who is stupid, choosy lo. Is my loss lo..

Then talking back about how those things grow in my body that I gotta go for an operation, hmm.. I named out those things caused.

i) my diet
ii) my own problems like stress, not sharing out anything
iii) technology, environment

Then when touched on the psychological part, me and my mum had a tiff, she said that I feel with hatred for my parents etc etc, I admit last time I hate, I yuan. but now, I don't whatever it is it is already in the past, I learn to let go, learn to forgive and forget. Yet my mum still claim that whatever thing it is is forever there, example when I hate about last time or what, means I hate it last time but now I don't.

SHe insisted about other things, she is wronged about me yet she don't admit.. argh.. then she say maybe I quarrel with friends or what. but I from don't know when until now, never quarrel with my good friends liao leh.. only small misunderstandings then after a while apologise, then talk about what happen then ok le, like that only. The reason why I don't like to share with her my things is because last time,whenever she not in the good mood, or what, then Iwanna open my mouth and tlak she'll say I tlak back. what is this? that's why I don't like to tlak to her till now.

Facing four walls and a celling at home sucks she say that my sentence facing 4 walls and a celling means I bear grudges, full of hatred. WHat for? hate takes alot of energy

Here is a story being told by my school teacher when I was in secondary school, I think it might be familiar with some of you people.

A teacher told her students to gather potatoes, the teacher told the students to bring the potatoes everywhere they go, The next day, the students gather back at school for lessons, some had 1 to2 potatoes and the other students had at least more than 5 potatoes, indeed the students followed their teacher's instructions by carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the students did this for quite a few days, slowly, the potatoes, starting to smell bad, rot.

Those who had at least more than 5 potatoes, started to complained even more, saying that the bag of potatoes they carreid are heavy, while the other students who had less than 5 potatoes started to find it a hassle to carry the potatoes eveywhere they go, it seems inconvenient. SO the students gave those feedback to their teacher, the teacher listened carefully and asked them. " do you know why I asked you guys to gather those potatoes and carry them with you everywhere you go?" the students had no idea why, so the teacher told them " this is beacuse the number of potaotes you had means the number of person you hate, hate takes alot of energy, it is like carrying heavy stuffs you need alot of strength to carry heavy stuffs. Slowly, when you carry those potatoes aorund, slowly, itll smelled bad and start to rot, that is how when you hate someone, you are hating to the core and there will be lots of unhappy things coming in like bitterness, hard hearted and many many more."

The students listened carefully , one of the students voiced out and asked the teacher can they stop carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the teacher told them " you can do it, provided you stop hating someone, by forgivng and forgetting what your enemy has done to you. The students did. Those who had more than 5 potatoes slowly, reduce the number of potaotes they had by throwing it away, it reduce and all the potatoes were gone. This means those students who had hatred for someone, slowly, they forgive and forget.

when the potatoes issued were settled the taeacher asked the students how they feel without the potatoes around, the students answered they feel, more relax, relieve without any trouble with those potatoes they had to bring it around.

Hmm.. am i a good story teller.. haha... k lah, talked about yesterday, I went for interview, actually wanna interviewed a few places de. but then I didn't expect one bar, willing to let me start work immediately which is next week.. haha the workplace very good, asked me which day available then can come down and work.. haha one hour 7 bucks leh.. Don't worry I'm not ppole dancer or what, down there no pole, only got pool table big plasma tv so customers can come in watched football. haha, Just a waitress there. can wear any clothes I like, no uniform, heex.. next time wanna go new place and drink, enjoy life can come my work place, the location is at far east square. The name of the place is Mama Africa.

I went back to my workplace at metro.. I missed the place very much, especially some of those people I got to know there.. heex. I took bus 969 back to tam0pines interchange, while walking to east link mall, I walked past the waiting area for bus 67 I saw some one bei ying very familiar .. Hmm.. I think is Wei x.. HAha. I wanna confirm so I went infront of him, then we chatted.. he just finished work.. i see... hmmm.. he seems much better liao la, but still like very thin leh.. haha..

about Suyu tag board thingy, this reminds me of my tag board being flooded and my gang went to tagged Iisabell's tag board plus xin xin whose tag board was flooded before.. haiz.. idoit, how dare they bully suyu.. hmm.. mouth so smelly, don't tlak so much cock lah, don't know how to zip your mouth, I help you ok? help you freshen your breath, if not one thing, I cut off your tongue see whether you dare to talked so much rubbish anot.. hmm.. bloody hell.. ling followed what I say liao. last time I say ppl puberty abnormal etc etc.. ya loh, quite true, if is a girl she watched out, careful she like me, got lumps in her breast, then the lumps is cancerous then the whole breast gotta be remove, not only that, scarly her womb also got thing then whole womb remove. see whether got ppl want her anot.. freak
hmm. but mine is harmless will not turn to cancerous de.. haha

Then if it is a guy, hope he become eunuch ba.. haha.. ok lah, I don't wanna so bad curse ppl lah, I must go freshen my breath liao.. I like very fierece hor? my mum called me Lady cui from da chang jin this is because lady cui is fierce and wicked however I'm fierce but not wicked.. haha. but at the later part, lady cui died in a tragic death. ya, wicked people will die in a tragic death.. but not really, good people die in tragic death is beacuse is happen bad luck ma.

2006-05-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

hoho. Monday went to watched a movie with ling, suyu, royston and cheryl, we went to watch over the hedge. Yeap. indeed a nice and interesting movie with all those cute animals, hmm.. hurry up 31st may so I can know whether I confirm can get into higher NITEC anot.. heex.

Today Gabriel msg me, then he suddenly asked me about my higher NITEC thingy.. hmm.. this Gabriel still the same, sometimes still address me, in a sweet sweet manner, sometimes he'll call me sweetie or babe, haha then one shocking thing he told me was to be mentally prepared as he'll be asking me some question, haha I hit the nail on the head, indeed he asked me to be his gf, that is the question he asked me, I got shocked, was kinda speechless for a while, then he asked me is it he pop that question out too early, I said ya, not only I said ya, I told him I need a long break for r/s, followed by he's now serving his NS, the last sentence I told him was when he finish his NS le, then come and pop that question out ba.

Hopefully, I say this to him, he won't feel what bah. I don't wish to make things worse and get people hurt however telling tons of white lies won't help a lie, is still a lie I suppose, I did told a white lie in the first place le bah, maybe I did, maybe I did not.. argh.. so confused, all I remembered was he stepped into my life at a little later stage, enjoyed the times chatting and poking fun at each other then slowly I realised I liked him bah,to think back, now, I'm in a terrible mess, I liked 2 guys at the same time, how am I suppose to tell him, that I've fallen for someone else too. I know people might think he is a good guy and yet I didn't choose him, yet I gave him up.. haiz..

I just don't understand why I made a mess in life, I hate screwing up in whatever I do.

I'm glad you stepped into my life, we got lots of things in common and can chat alot of stuffs under the sun.

You and I made a shocking discovery, probably is heaven giving you the chance to let your feelings for me in the past came back.

For my past few r/s and those other guys trying to woo me, I asked myself why was heaven so unfair , throwing those rotten guys to me and yet let those sluts outside grab those good guys, where have all the good guys gone to?

I asked myself this question many many times , however you appeared and I told myself
heaven isn't that cruel at least there are still good guys around you are one of those good guys.

I ever told myself if the time comes,I'll rather choose you, this is because we have so many things in common, in the same boat in certain things, and since we have so many things in common,

we can understand each other better, but now, I think I can't bring myself to do it. I rather we be friends, just like how me and one of my soulmate is, though we are not an item, but we are still best friends for life.

I'm sorry for not being frank with you, not being able to tell you that I've liked someone else besides you.Just hope that, you'll find your another half, no matter what, I'm always here for you, whenever you need me, thanks for being so good to me,

I'm touched and happy. really thanks alot for being with me, I never regret knowing you

2006-05-21T13:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. last friday and saturday was busy enjoying life, Yeap. Last friday went to Sentosa with my TKD club, I did pulled my cheryl, Joel and Xin Xin, Joel pulled his hao borther samuel to join us, Jun jie pulled his other friends and royston A.K.A Wei Hao join us too. he's from my tkd club too.. yeap!

Many people left, only left, samuel, Joel, xin xin, Cheryl, Royston and me. Then justin a.k.a Chua hee hee very lame and bo liao, say he very boring want me to continue telling him my whatever story. The 6 of us left at around 6 something.. yeap. that's early and not so crowded. haha went to habour front had our dinner, Cheryl, royston and me went to suntec city courts as Cheryl was looking for the 9.90 speaker, for her mp3 however the promotion starts on saturday which is yesterday. sian diao, still very bored so we went to the esplanade roof terrace, sat down, tell stories and chit chat. Sast downt here till about 9 plus. We walked to boat quay area and took the train , Cheryl and I got down at Eunos to take any bus that pass and goes to tampines safra. Gosh! i GOT A BIT OF SUNBURN.. HEEX. hopefully xin xin is ok, cos her stomach like not feeling well, joel says its appendix. hmm.. that night xin xin msged me say she is sorry for not spending time with me and cheryl then always with Joel if not , she'll keep to herself.. hmm.. xinx in, is ok, cheryl and me won't blame or say you de.. ya? at least you still got talk to us.

Ok, back to yesterday. went to singapore indoor stadium as there is some event and 5566 is there, can say a so call 5566 concert.. woo hoo, taufik came and perform and sang a few songs.. haha. 5566 sang the most songs. wahaha. I downt here screaming like nobody's business, Kym Ng and Gurmit Singh was the host for this event, then when they were talking bout 5566. I was the only one screaming within my seat and one lady infront of me, kinda stared at me, jis lat, the whole event finished le, I went to looked for my cousin, she borugh her friend along for this event and I borught my friend along too.. My dad came to tong pang us, we went to Bedok and ate our dinner or supper whatever you wanna call it, for me is my late dinner. wahahaha. screamed until no voice liao, there is one part Xie zhi say his pants is kinda lose, the fans were asking him to strip, I was there busy singing the song tuo diao. haha. lame right? I seems to be wild, hyperactive, mad, noisy when it comes to pop star concert, that's ME...I very careful cos, wait some people don't like, t will throw their shoes at me or whatever shit lah.. haha..so happy can't stop thinking about yesterday

2006-05-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Faster tomorrow. cos tomorrow I'll be going to sentosa with my TKD club, I pulled cheryl, xin xin and Joel along too.. haha. Cheryl is bringing her friend too .. About today. I went out with Xin Xin.. wow hao jiu bu jian wor, heard she yesterday suddenly stomach pain glad she's alright liao.. haha, Yeap we went to Marina Square walk walk, she went to eat, then we sat down there talked crap from Colin and kero stuffs, to wedding plans, birthday parties, romance and many many more lah.. haha

talked and listen to each other point of veiw and whatever things lo.. haha then one of my friend, Ben called me, his voice abit sounds like my TKD senior Justin chua hee hee.. lolx. he asked me what am I doing I told him I having high tea with my friend.. haiz.. marina square still seems quiet, so we went to Bugis for a walk, took neoprint. while decorating that time, the pointer xin xin was using seems to be lacking and can't work, she down there feeing buay tahan and very qi bah.. haiyo.. haha.. hopefully the day will be bright and sunny, weeeeeeeeee... so excited. can't wait glad that pei wen decided to gather us to meet at habourfront at a earlier time then can play longer at sentosa. Don't know what to wirte liao, I signing off, gotta use my eye mask liao, let my eyes relax and sleep much early today.. good night.. sweet dreams to everyone

2006-05-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was tuesday I was busy running around from one place to another. yeah, in the morning, I went back to CGH for my appointment and the test results of my operation was out, thank god, it is 100% harmless, the best part is the lumps and whatever thing I remove will not turn to cancerous.. woooooo. so happy till cannot talk liao. But still I gotta watch my diet as I've not completly recovered and beware that though I had done my operation, the lumps might come back, however I have 4 remaining small lumps not being remove, these small ones might not grow and I have to monitor them.

Too happy le. then I went back to school Customer and visitor centre asked about my application stuffs, thank god again, I still have the chance to get into Higher NITEC but I have to wait till 31st may then I'll know the result,then went to tour around the school, I really miss my school. haiz. then bumped into yun mama, pearl, my junior Nick and that sway person my ex.. haiz. whatever lah! I just recovered I don't wanna grow anything again inside my body, then bumped into some other people like candy my "twin" haha. Then I called wei X and msg Ling, I told them I was at school. I went to wait for Ling at the bus stop, haha there she is, with Suyu. hmm.. ling and suyu reached school le, have to go for their lesson le, I saw Wei X so I went up to him, he siad he was about to call me de.. haha he is having his break, he so good, went to haven cafe or campus haven( I confused with the name of the cafe liao) the one which is near the library, he treat me drank orange juice and there is a coupon which you can get a free ice cream, he also got one for me too.. so kind of him. thanks alot wei X, I agree with you that we very long never sit down, chat alot. But this kind of sit down and chat feeling is very good, and it is always still inside me.. haha.

Finish with everything le, he send me back to the bus stop, I took a train to Orchard as i need to help my mum get her stuffs at TANGS plaza. I got for her,then I went to far east and Taka for a short walk and decided to go back home as I wokep up quite early yesterday morning. I slept in the train slept almost like a log.

In the evening I went to catch a movie with a friend, we went to watch " when a stranger calls". yeap. watched finish liao, I decided to go to esplanade to admire the night scenery, anyway, I also so long never went there le.My mum nagged at me to come home. argh.. so fed up. I don't like to go home, facing 4 walls and a celling. this sucks and I'm legally 18 liao so if I stay up late at night, and the police are patrolling around the area, the police can't do anything wad, then bought a can of beer, drink loh, my xing qing is mostly happy but there is one not happy part which is that jian ren, sway person msg me, asked me I went back to school is it, then say me never say hi to him, then the last part of his msg he say this " dao sia". argh.. bloody kuku, you shut up lah! ping she mo zhe mo shuo wo, ni zhe ge, jian huo, suai ren, see you I wanna puke liao.

I down there say about this thing lo, then suddenly, i got headache, then keep on cough like that, then my friend down there, say rest a while, then he lend me his shoulder, I never throw myself to him de, is he just pulled me to lean on his shoulder de leh..I down there lean on his shoulder liao, he down there talked alot of things, say what he like me etc etc, argh.. then he asked me to listen carefully, I down there nod my head lah. I feel like wanna scream out something but didn't do that, I wanna say, where have all those good guys gone to? and whatever shit.. I now very daring treat my home like a hotel.. haha.. There is one part, I was abit bad tempered I told him to go away and called him those nasty words I called my ex, then he asked me about him, so I down there asked him not to mention to me about my ex.

He very good, say can give me time to give my answer about going steady with him. I like this kind of ppl, willing to give time and don't like to force people do certain things. I reached home at 0030hrs.. wow! my mum haven't sleep yet she wa watching jewel in the palace, I slept around 2 as I was watching tian duo de jia yi, by cyndi wang and 183 club, nice show. heex.

2006-05-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yeap. today is mother's day. Past few days...hmm... have been going out and enjoying myself.
Last thursday went out with Ling, Li Jie and Fude.. heex. thanks alot ppl and at the same time to celebrate my birthday. yeah, we took neoprint.. haha.. while walking back to tampines interchange, Li jie suddenly asked me about my ex, I down there abit not happy liao. he asked what happen etc etc, then I slowly told him about what happen etc etc, then he told me his story about he and his ex lo.

haiz... ok, not only that,while on bus 291 with Li jie and Ling, we chatted, then I told Li Jie about my ex calling him pervert or what, then I asked my ex, why he called Li Jie a pervert,then he say there is a secret between him and Li Jie, however, Li Jie exposed the secret he said that my ex, kept the NYP sex video stuffs in his thumb drive, then he send to Li Jie, send already, he say Li jie is a pervert, how can he do this? he's too much.Even Ling also not happy when he said Li jie is a pervert. He asked Li jie not to tell me that he had thos e NYP sex video. Now I know liao, not important, cos I NO LONGER his stead le. Is just that, I did open my eyes big and see his true colours bah, don't see him like so naive, childish, innocent, decent etc etc. can say that there is a big question mark on this person lo. cos, we don't know what he is thinking and can't possibly read his mind de. Unless you are someone who can read his mind or xin li yi shen.

At night, suppose to have my dinner at changi airport sakae sushi, however, I'm still at my grandmother's place, around 10 then left my grandmother's place with my mum and aunt, in the end we went to wisma to eat, well, went to eat korean cuisine instead, well that's my favourite too. my aunt ate korean claypot rice, the dish being garnished was very nice just like those you can see in jewel in the palace... after eating we all chatted alot of things, then I told my mum about today what Li jie told me and many many stuffs

ok, friday was vesak day, I went out with Li Ting to orchard, we bumped into our sec school classmate Joeyee, he really changed alot sia. then I bumped into my cousin Gabriel at Far East, he was with 2 of his friends.. haha. He very cute, suddenly appeared in front of me, wah. he cool man, wear until so nice.. heex. Li Ting bought me a present. then we took neoprints twice,went to had our meal, we ate chicken rice.. hee... yeap! so happy we can go out together again. Hopefully, I start school soon..bored.. I shall stop here and wish all the mothers happy mother's day

happy birthday to me today

2006-05-11T11:31:00.000+08:00

wo hoho.. FInally reached my birthday and I'm legally 18. so happy, have been waiting for the time to come, finally it came. yes yes. Hmm.. this morning alot of SMS-es. glad those who came to my chalet they wished me a happy birthday again, then didn't expect my ex msge me too. I deleted his number liao, I looked at the number and find it familiar , indeed it is my ex. hmm. I thought we broked up liao, we won't msg each other or what liao. Just didn't expect this to happen. Well, I say all these doesn't mean I cannot ofrget him or what. heex, no worries. I must Kkd( kan kai dian) that is what ling and her friend wei x said de ma.

Yeap! now I thought my birthday is 30th april but no lah, I never lose my memory, I still remember my actual date of birth is today... hurray! tonight going to eat sakae sushi and one more good news, my MC for one week is over le, yesterday was the last day of my 1 week MC.

2006-05-09T13:11:00.000+08:00

Back! yeap. last saturday my wound swell, don't know why. Then I went back to CGH A&E ( Accident and Emergency) clinic, the nurse took my temperature and said I'm having a slight fever, I'm having a fever I also don't know. haiz. no wonder my wound swell whenI came back it was bruise, then friday it was red, saturday it was still red too. haiz.. waited quite a while, my wound wasn't really pain, is itchy.. aiyo.. itchy leh, make me feel uneasy.

Then when my turn came, the doctor asked me to have my wound the dressing be changed and clean again. he prescirbed me anti-biotic and cream to apply on my wound. Haiz. that day the doctor should presrcibed me anti- biotic, stupid leh. no anti-biotic thats why caused my wound to get swollen and have a slight fever.. aiyo.. wanna nao chu ren ming ar? luckily I faster went back to the hospital in case anything happen again. see my wound, like a bit gross ..

Yesterday, I went back to my workplace for a while to look for my mum's friend, heex. she's so hapy to see me.. then she offered me some ping guo shen yu tang( snakehead soup blend with apple) there is a smell of apple and the soup is taste of some fish thingy.. wow. very nice, no mixture of sweet and salty taste, the cook very pro can cooked this kind of herbal soup with fruits inside, they keep it cold but when u drink it, is hot.wow. I guess I must learn how to cook this. This kind of dishes reminds me of da chang jin( jewel in the palace) those palace maids cooked a simple, healthy meal, but it seems to be expensive food from some high class restaurant..thats cool.

Around 3 something, Ling and Su yu came to my place andvisit me. thanks girls.. I'm much better le, I stil hvae the mood to celebrate my birthday again. my actual birth date is 11th may. yeah, so maybe I might be going out and have fun with my friends.. heex. This friday is vesak day, hopefully, Li Ting is free to come out. Wonder how is she and John.. heex.

so happy I got 5566 concert tickets.. haha my dad gave to me de.. 2 years ago, I won 5566 concert tickets. this year I got the chance to go again.. so happy and excited. Don't know what to write liao. everytime entry to long, people will sleep de lah.. bye bye. anything just msg or contact me bah...

2006-05-06T13:02:00.000+08:00

Got 1 week MC, bored to death liao lah.. argh... IF i never go operation then I won't be rotting at home, then my mum's friend got me bird nest. haha. Haiz.. faster one week over leh.. else I an die.

hmm.. past few days got alot of stuffs happening, is regarding about me and Gabriel(qing tian's army friend), we 2 made a "shocking discovery". orh.. yuan lai, we long time ago know each other liao. I t happen like this, when I was in pri school, I was in a student care centre I left the studnet care centre when I was in sec 1, then Gabriel was in that student care centre too. At that time, I had no idea who is he, cos there are other guys name Gabriel too.He recalled all this only recently and in his dream, I remembered back then, I was a low profile person, then he was still new in that student care centre, he told me, he asked people about me, and gather some information about me, don't worry lah, he is not spying on me or being too much, he said he at that time got a crush on me, then always admire me frome a distant lo, wow! this thing really so dramatic sia.. he said it seems that the feelings he had for me, is already back. haiz.

Then he told me his secret, he said he ever followed me home once, to see I stayed near where, then he regretted one thing, he regretted for not approaching me and get to know me better beofre he left the student care centre, Last time I thought some gabriel guy studied in st. patrick's, or.. I mixed up liao, the guy studied is st. patrick's is his brother.. haiz.. I really mixed up with him and his brother liao. wah really is the fact leh, we can say is fated bah, cos got alot of things in common de leh.

Now, is about another guy that jerry's friend haiz.. I don't know what went wrong with me, I suddenly msg him and say I ever liked him, and about going steady, I'm not ready etc etc. then he msg me said he know what I wrote liao, then he allowed to give me time, What the hell am I doing? I very confused now, I even asked myself whether I got like 2 guys at the same time anot.. if like that means I'm hua xin. then Jerry's friend is yun mama's ex stead, I dont ren xin to go steady with him and hurt yun mama, I dont want that to happen, then he said yun mama will be happy, then assured me alot of things.. haiz.. Well, he and I now not officially steady ma, so no big deal. I think I zou yi bu kan yi bu then see when I should give him an answer lo, I was thinking of one thing, I thought of setting the same date by giving my answer to both guys, then like that, won't be unfair to the both of them ar. argh.. stupid idea really no idea what to do now leh.. so confuse and so hua xin de wo.

then past few days during the chalet period my mum told me stuffs that make me feel disturbed, haiz.. I don't wish to say it here, when I have time I shall tel Ling and the others about it. then one thing she say, she still think ice man still like me, so long liao, impossible de lah. haiz. Well, he and Gabriel know about my operation stuffs liao, is I told them de, anyway, operation only, nothing to hide de ar. This Gabriel ar, sound like very xin tong. haha, then he even willing to donate blood if I ever need blood transfusion. I not that weak lah, but thanks for your concern..

Not only gabriel lah,. plus my sisters too.. heex, I'm ok le, after I fully recover must go out together wor, cos 11th may is my actual birthday, then thought of going out with you girls.. haha

2006-05-04T19:10:00.000+08:00

Haiz... came back from CGH today,. yeap! this morning, woke up early, had a shower and get ready to go to CGH for day surgery..Haiz. my mum very siao , asked me to wear proper clothes to Cgh.. haiz. then I say her loh, I say where got ppl where so nice go into the operatin theatre de, haiz.. nevermind then she say is repsect, respect? ge pi ar. haiz.. then waited for don't know how long, yeap, then gotta change into the operation theatre outfit the shou shu pao.

Yeap, then those doctors and nurses keep on asking me question, I was thinking am I at the wrong place ma? lolx, well they asked cto check whether I'm aware of my name, IC no., what kind of operation I'm going through anot loh, then one doctor came to gave me my anathesia jab, I was put into deep sleep, all I could remeber was, he gave me a jab, attach my hand with a tube and a glucose bag, then when I woke up, I ralised that my operation was already over, the doctor very lame asked me got dream of anything ma? I don't think I remember I got dream or what, I just felt that, I seems to be sleeping for 5 minutes then suddenly I woke up and was being told that the surgery was over, haiz. then I open my eyes, and saw my self attach to some machine, those machine used in ICU .. lolx, I saw the reading meter of every single breath I took I ever thought if the reading show one straight line, means I'm dead, choi I'm not dead, I tried to sit up, but " collapsed" back onto the bed

my anathesia jab was a general one, yeah, I felt like sleeping, head felt heavy, felt like throwing out too, but I didn't puke, just felt that my head is real heavy, I stayed in the hospital till 4 cos, I need to rest some more, GOsh! I the loo, then I pressed the bell, then one missy came, she asked me whether wanna pee into a container anot, I said I don't want, so she removed my glucose thingy and I adjust my clothes properly then I went to the loo, gosh, when I got up, the glucose tube which is attached to my hand, was filled with blood, even the bed sheet was stained with blood.

thank god, my lumps were harmless , the were kinda too big so it has to be removed and send for a test to confirmed that it is 100% harmless. thank god, I'm laright is just that, I'm feeling painful and uncomfortable right now, don't worry friends I'm alright le, very thankful to god that, I am not suffering and I don't have cancerous cells in my body.

I have to get plenty of rest in order to have a seedy recovery, I didn't expect being a patient now is so good is like living a life of a princess. haha then I cannot carry heavy things, then I can " bully " those people who are not sick, cos they are strong ma, lolx. no lah, I not that bad lah.. haha

2006-05-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

back feeling real happy celebrating my 18th birthday in advance. Glad to see my secondary school friends and everyone else who came to my party.. heex. got lots of presents, red packets too.. The best I like is, I took as many pictures as possible for my birthday party and my dad even helped me do a video.

I am busy blowing my whistle when it is cut cake time and sabo time.. haha. yeah, that's my tool.

Really wanna thank gang yuan cos, he helped me pulled some of our sec 4t1 classmates, thanks alot.. then got a lot of pictures with my tkd friends and coolster gang, haha, didn[t expect ice man can come out from his army camp and join in the fun.. hmm.. my lao da, max and his other friends came, ke xi, one of the shuai ge, bernard never come, haha. Hope you guys had a great time too.

That night, almost everyone left already, gang yuan and my other secondary school friends went for a walk, then, left long papa, yun mama, qing tian, rebecca, ice man. Rebecca said that I seems to be quiet , yeah, then the rest of them asked me to say out if got anything in my mind, well, I didn't know what to do, then I went to the other side of the chalet, then long papa followed me, then long papa talked to me for a while, then I couldn't control my emotions, then I cried, he asked me what happen then I told him what am I feeling right now, I told him that very ke xi wei x cannot come, cos whenever anyone birthdya, he is always around, now my birthday he is not around , I can understand but just feel something missing bah, though at midnight, he called and sang happy birthday song, I was touched and happy, then on that sunday night, he called yun mama then yun mama passed me the phone then wei x talked to me for a while.

not only long papa comforted me, ice man was there, then he asked me what happen he even asked me is it my ex bully me, or what,I said no. then thought about what I said to long papa earlier on, I cried then ice mna willing to lend me his shoulder, but I just put my head down and cry..

Yesterday was labour day, I got free tickets to wild wild wet, cheryl, xin xin, joel and me went to wild wild wet, since they have never been before I encouraged and told them to give themselves a chance to have fun at wild wild wet, glad they had fun. THen many of my friends who stayed over, left, then at night, I was alone, well, I just treat my chalet as a hostel in some university.lolx. my mum, called then she took her stuffs and stayed over

Today I checked out quite early, then I send my photos for develpment, in the afternoon, I went out with xin xin, joel and cheryl. at first I thought xin xin and me will be going out, then she said joel dismiss school early, so he'l be joining us, I at first was like oh no, I like disturb ppl dating leh, then wanna asked cheryl accompnay me, but then , she in school, then nevermind, cheryl called me, asked me where am I, then I told her I meeting xin xin, then JOel coming along ma, so asked her to join us, so I won't feel bu zhi zai ba.. yeah,so the four of us went to bugis then to Kovan.

hmm.. really had a great birthday party, I hoped in future my birthday party will be a happy one.

2006-04-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

ar.. want to cry le, my applicatin under may intake for higher NITEC in accounting not successful.. ar.. jia lat, don't tell me, I no qian tu.. ar.. want to cry liao... hopefully, can have a place, and continue my studies real soon. that shall be one of my brithday wish too bah.. haha

Hmm.. so many things to do and happen in my life, I next week thursday must go for a minor operation, read my personal blog and you'll know why. haiz.. then don't know is it I under some tao hua yun, or whatever rubbish lah, cos can say that I'm torn between 2 guys now.. haiz..1 of the guy is qing tian's army friend Gabriel and another one is one of Jerry's friend. haiz..

Then yesterday Jerry's friend wanted me to give him a chance then asked me to consider and tell him my answer, he say will wait. but like that worth it ma? he say worht it.. haiz.. then he happy waiting bah, he asked me whether I got any feelings for him ma. I just told him, I never asked myself that question and don't know my own feelings, I told him I wanted a long break for r/s, and not ready for a new r/s then he allow me to take my time, haiz.. don't know lah. then I very blunt in my speech I say " don't waste time, not worth it de all guys the same say wait or what end up is empty promises and bull shit de.. haiz. I rather have friends", then he say he will wait means he will wait.. argh.. don't know lah.

But now my interest is older guys leh.. haha. There are some things I've discovered if I ever choose either one of them, IF, I choose Gabriel, it should be ok,cos, we have alot of things in common, like where we stay, same religon, almost the same family background. BUt one problem, a year older than me, I have 3 ex who is a year older than me, we always like " ba zhi" bu he, some clash lah.

Then for Jerry's friend. haiz. that one can say is loong papa buay song with de, then, afarid he is some playboy, but don't look like one bah.. don't know lah, though he is ok,.

haiz.. whatever lah, I wanted to tell him say I no confidence liao. but don't know where to start and how to start, He one thing good, never force me. well, just hopefully he will give up bah, is not worth it de, I am not the one. outside got plenty of better girls.

IF i ever set a date and give him an answer on that day, I suppose I know what will be the answer to give lah, haha. ling, how? thought bout your answer to give to wei x liao ma? but one thing I at least about 50- 70% sure which is I am feeling numb when it somes to r/s, I won't feel anything much when anyone say like me loh.

About today, yeah, bump into Eddie and Pearl at TM, then at the interchange waiting for the bus I bumped into my sec 4t1 classmate, gang yuan, haha.. today I msg him then today also bump into him.. haha. then we chatted for a while, he very good helped me jio other sec4t1 ppl come to my party. thanks alot man, then say if on that day need help , he can help, he changed alot sia, more gentleman,mature..haha.

time flies another 4 more days to my birthday. can't wait.. haha..see u guys on that day, preapare to sabo me, I got prepare thing let u all sabo, those wanna ton, confirm with me wor.. haha.. must say early ar. in case anything cock up..

2006-04-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

wow! is another 7 more days to my birthday party. Yesterday I'm really happy that wei x called, well, he is much much better lah, chae, he called me asked me bugis got what good food to eat. haha. he say he work at Bencoolen building bah, then he wanna go have his lunch, so I told him what I remember eating when I was working around there too.. haha, ya loh, he next week confirm never come, then he asked me how I know. I say is Long papa told me de ar..

well, next week I must stay home and be the lead actress of jewel in the palace cos I'll be busy preparing the food for the party, have to do all the frying, chopping, wrapping etc etc and what you see in jewel in the palace. haiz.. I actually thought of next sunday wanna go visit my grandpa, grave in the morning, then mum, asked me alot of questions.. ar.. nevermind lah, the most is I'll go another time, then my mum say can go but don't go alone.

goodness! last night I slept at 3 cos I was chatting with one new friend, qing tian introduce de, alot of thing between us very qiao , cos he stayed at tampines, then his birthday is 11th oct and my birthday is 11th may, then he from a single parent family, so am i.. Tai qiao liao ba.. haha. well, qing tian say i might like.. haiz.. don't know lah. then that guy named gabriel same name as my cousin, he also think there might be chemistry between us.. ar.. then he wanna try to woo me, haha I say not now, must get to know him better first.

he told me stories about he and his ex girlfriend, haha then I also told him my stories. yeah, he say he is not a big mouth, make sure loh, then yesteray I asked some people this question

choices of beverages:

- coffee
- tea
-cappucino
- milk
-fruit juice
-beer
-wine
- vodka
which one will you guys choose, there is a meaning to each choices.

Suyu, cheryl, xin xin chose fruit jucie

gillian mei chose cappucino

then gabriel also chose fruit jucie, he very cute leh, when I send him the meaning liao he down there aw~ then he some more got second choice de, actually he thought of putting wine as his answer then he say he don't drink, so his 2nd choice is milk. haha

here are the meanings

Coffee: just friend
tea: u care
cappucino: u love me
milk : i'm your special person
fruit jucie- we're best friend
beer: you hate me
wine: you like me
vodka: you want me

2006-04-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. glad to hear from wei X that he is much better, hmm.. wei x, you really lost wieght le, remember to eat ok? hmm... ok, talk about yesterday, after work, I went out with my secondary school buddy Li Ting. We went to Bugis, she wanna buy clothes de, then edn up cannot find what she want, haiz.. so choosy, she herself say she is choosy wor.. haha.

Xi qi leh, she patched up with her ex bf John, she stead with him when she was in sec4 they were together for 8 months, then after that they broke up, then last year she got her N levels results she and John were together again, I down there stunned, and say she this type of guy also want, but she said he changed alot, he much more conern about the people around him, she also hope that, he will not take her for granted... then she ask me, what will I do if i'm her, I told her, if i'm her and JOhn wanna patch with me, I 'll tell him to wait long long, wait next life bah, in my point of view, I'll say: It has been a long time, already, I had a hard time trying to forget you, why must you step into my life again, when you wanna break up with me? once, love and confidence is gone, it can never be found back." I'll say that to my ex.

Li ting say she never hated for what john had done, but if he bully her, i will not let him off.. haha.. yeap! well, don't know why whenever I just broke up with my bf or what, I'll just get to know another guy friend, haiz.. it started since nivel and me broke up, there is Wei X and qing tian around, then now is after I broke up with Jeff or whoever, there is jerry's friend, I never give him my number de, is jerry that guy so dua pai gave him my number without asking.. haiz.. then like that loh.. haha.

I'm tired for a new r/s I really need a long break.. I hope Li ting, will be happy with john and john will cherish her, hopefully they'll last as long as possible, Li ting told me true love means even when this couple is always being separated, in the end they'll still be together.. yaya, it seems that now I won't believe this kind of stuffs liao.. argh.. maybe I really no confidence le or what, I also don't know, but whenever any guy is nice to me, I never think that they like me
but I don't know why, my mum will think that those guys whom I go out with like me, or trying to woo me, come on! look at my pattern you all know liao, nobody want de, lelong also worthless, so rough, not smart, not very tall, also got people want.. aiyoh, like that all the guys sure run away liao.. some more so feirce, immature which means I still crazy over idols like those 13 or 14 year old girl.. aiyoh..

if you go ask all my ex, confirm say I sucks de lah... what about them? they sucks too.. ar.. whatever lah, now not important, manage to have the mood to think more about my party stuffs again and glad wei X is better, past few days I cannot let her know that I no mood to think about my party sutffs due to wei x's stuffs in case she say alot of things, haiz.Last time, she anyhow say , say I cry over one guy.. oh my goodness.. no way loh, why would I cry over some sickening asshole? no point.

I having one problem now, it seems that I'm going through my puberty all over again.. I don't know why, but my instincts seems to tell me that, like I began to eat like a dinosaur, then my homones are still imbalance, my period cycles tend to cock up frequently, this sign seems to be those girls who are in their early teens going through all these, don't know why like that, then li ting say maybe I still can grow.. haha hopefully bah.. haha... Then she say I more prettier and more mature liao.. got meh? even my testimonial written by my secondary school friends they also say I more mature liao.. got meh? hai ok lah.. not only that, still got popele calling me mei nu.. haha.. tao yan! heex. wow! 10 more days to my chalet leh.. so excited but sad cos my PTL not coming, haiz.. xiang, you'll be fine. hope to see you around soon..

+_ I suppose all those sadness should b gone__+

2006-04-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

yup. today my PTL wei x his dad was being send off.. haiz.. yesterday was the last night of his dad's wake, I , carol, eddie, ling, yun mama and some others was there, hmm.. feel very sad for him, while I was witnessing the scene of hicoffins getting ready to be burned, it reminds me of my grandfather who passed away 12 years ago, haiz... it was raining, and many of us were walking behind the vehicles, those musics, were being played, a couple of poeple were carrying his dad's coffin carry till they reach around geylang area, then they put the coffin into the vehicle, to think back, 12 years ago, i was 6 and my grandfather died, his wake was held at singapore casket on the last day, the coffin was sealed up, and ready to set off, my family and relatives were pushing the van, however my grandfather's funearal service was a christian one, hmm... his body was send to mt.verner(not sure if the spelling is correct) around joo seng rd, while the coffin was about to move and send for burning, my relative and my family members cried very loud, then the coffin, went in, we cried even harder, after that was done, we went to collect his photo.

haiz... so sad, really make me think of my late grandfather when I saw wei x's dad. Indeed, I cried at home.. haiz... then when I was 8 years old, my great grandmother passed away she was in her 80s if i'm not wrong. her funeral service was a buddhist one, hers was being send to choa chu kang to bury, then some fa shi or who have to throw grain of rice , I wasn't sure what was that for.. Actually not only these 2 loved ones have gone, I still have another uncle( my mum's youngest brother) he died quite early, my mum told me he committed suicide, If i'm not wrong there wasn't any funeral service for him, he committed suicide at kallang river, and I heard that his body wasn't found, but my grandmother and other relatives went to the temple to get the monk or some fa shi to chant. that is all i can remember.

another 12 more days to my birthday party, so ke xi, my PTL (part -time laogong) wei x cannot come, cos long papa say he must wait after 100 days of his dad's death then he can enjoy.. haiz.. whenever got anyone's birthday, he is always aorund de, like ling's birthday celebration at k-box, long papa and kelvin's birthday at marina bay eating steamboat and yun mama's birthday, esp, the marina bay one, he very good play host to me, know what I eat and doesn't eat.. but on the 30th april he can't come, is ok lah, still got my other 7 flowers sisters.. haha and some others like qing tian,long papa and many many more.. don't wanna think too much, cos past few days never bother to think about my birthday stuffs lah.

but I suppose all those unhappy things should come to an end. wei x rmb what I say ok. I'm always here for you whenever you need me.. jia you,i know is a hard blow.. but you must be able to accept the fact,your dad shall rest in peace and the murderer will be nabbed. beware of your mum as the blow is too harsh, make sure she is in good health and remember to take yr meals regularly, I believe your dad doesn't want to see you all in this manner. so be strong, everything will come to an end. you are not able to come to my birthday celebration I can understand I just wanna see you carry on with your life and after 10o days you will be free to enjoy life, ya.. anything, just give me a call or leave a msg..

2006-04-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

Another 14 more days to my birthday party, that's fast, yeap! last friday was good friday, I went out with cheryl, xin xin and joel at ORchard, then cheryl and me left,as we girls will be meeting ling, at paya lebar MRT station to attend wei x's father's wake.

The news even talked about his dad's death, his dad died a tragic death, his dad was at batam on tuesday and on wedenesday the murder happen, Thursday wei x and his family got the news, Friday morning, his father's body was brought back to singapore, his dad was stabbed 24 times, so sad, when we saw Wei X, he is very very down, he didn't ate since morning, hmm... if i'm him, I'll also lose my appetite de.. haiz.. then we kept him accompany till 8pm, then we left, while on the bus, I send him an sms reminding him to eat too..

tomorrow will be the last day of the wake, I'll be there. I know his dad, I seen his dad once, while I was at Wei X's place, his dad seems alright, he is not a fierce person, he's nice lah.. this is all I can remember, same as his mum, and his other family members,

These few days didn't really go and think soo much about my party thingy, due to this news. then yesterday gang yuan asked me before I start school, what other things am I looking forward to, other than my birthday well, I didn't say much lah, I just told him these few days didn't really think so much. hmm.. hopefully all the sadness and sorrows will come to an end , everyone, has to move on with life, and look on the birght side of life, there's always hope.

when disappointment comes, and we don't give up our disappointment will turn into hope. Yeap! yesterday was quite relive cos, I told my mum about my ex( the latest one), I told her alot of stories and other stuffs, she didn't make noise or waht lah, she just listen, hmm.. I don't when this thing happen, It seems that, my puberty and stuffs is starting all over again. I don't know why I feel that, my instincts tell me that, I told my mum and she laughed, cos, I have been eating like a dinosaur, much more like before, though my homones is imbalance, but it seems that everything is starting all over again.. haiz.. whatever lah,now my mum ia about to prepare the food for my party liao, don't worry friends there will be more food de..haha.. can't wait for my party, and hopefully, wei x will be much better... wei x, jia you..don''t forget me, Im always here for you, not only me but coolster is always here for you too

2006-04-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

HMM.. me still not complete with coolster zhuan ji.. yeap! other than pictures I came up with some meaningful phrases and words about our coolster. take a look and give me coments

is all here read carefully

Cool

Out going

Open minded

Lively

Smart

Talkative

Extra-ordinary

Responsible

Here is another one.

A TO Z about our coolster members and personalities

AH LOONG is daring and bold

Bears with each others' nonsense and stuffs

CAROL is Chatty and bubbly, CHARLENE is sweet and pretty

DAVID is sporting and funny

EDDIE is a good singer

Friendly and Fearless

Good at doing stuffs

Helpful and hyperactive

Independent and intelligent

Jovial

KELVIN is caring and strong

Lively and lovable

Mature

Nice and Neat

Out going and open minded

PResentable

Quiet at times

Responsible and respectful

SU YU is well organised, SHI YUN is gentle and cute

Talented and talkative

Understanding and Unique

VANESSA is nice and talkative

WEI HAO is a jokeR, WEI XIANG is havoc

XIN HUI is nice and sweet

YENG Ling is hardworking and loyal

Zany and Zeal

It took me a long time to crack my brains.. haiz..So sad heard bout my PTL wei X his dad passed away.. haiz... Seen his dad before, his dad quite a nice person lah..

Hmm... wei xiang, I understand how you feel, I also ever lost my love ones before, you must be strong ok? you are the youngest in the family, hmm.. must be able to help your mum, I believe your mum can't take the blow, comfort your mum, bah.. whatever it is, I'm here for you whenever u need me.. ya.. be strong.. wor.. u can do it de..

2006-04-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

Now,feeling light with everything in my life now.. cos, Last saturday we 2 broke up. This time, we officialy broke up,confirm guarantee chop, no more thinking of a reconcilation liao
well, deal to so many stuffs. Got '' charges'' against him and some evidence bah. This time for r/s I shall give it a break, I continue to stay single and unavailable for as long as possible.. I mean it!

Yeah, ok the reasons are listed below:
- doesn't even know how to cherish the chances given to him
- like to complaint
- suspect someone he don't like.

- He has a weird personality
- easily jealous
- abit like male chauvinist
- still not mature
- ill mannered

explanations and scenes that happen

Doesn't even know how to cherish the chances given to him
-when we were together, he doesn't sseems to bother to call/msg me he'll only look for me once in a while, is like as if we are not going steady at all, then slowly, things were alright, then when we rreconcield the same thing happen again,he even have the cheek to ask whether do I still want the r/s. How could he? the one who doens't acknowldege the r/s asked me that question, is ridiculous. he even dare to say he is feeling insecure, he never thought of other people's feelings. he is always like that

like to complaint: hmm.. ok, when things weren't working out too well between us at that time, he started to complaint, Then when people did something wrong, unintentionally, he will complaint and somehow, make the matter a big issue.

suspect someone he don't like: He dislike one of his classmates, which is one of my former junior, then whenever anything happen like his stuffs went missing, he will suspect is someone he don't like stole his stuffs away. He never ever thought carefully and kinda pushed the balme to anyone, he even kinda suspected me before, not once but at least 2-3 times.

when I was about to buy our one month anniversary present, I didn't told him what I wanted to buy, just becasue I don't let him accompany me to buy stuffs, then he himself say he suspected me buying girls' stuffs. Then when I say is one month anniversary present, he somewhat told me this : " glad you never bought for another guy"

2. when we broke up, he called and asked whether am I having a new boyfriend.

3. he ever asked me, will I be with him just because of money

Weird personality: whenever, he is not feeling well, in a bad mood, tired etc etc, he just wouldn't talk. He'll just keep quiet and people around him won't know what exactly happen. well, that ever happen, when I was asking him something, he didn't bother to answer or at least show some gesture, just because he is not feeling well or what. He could have at least let the other party know. seems to keep to himself quite often, then once he wrote in his old blog saying having good friends is a trouble, he love money more than anything else.I ever told him off saying about his character he got less friends or no friends.

another case: I was at camp busy doing some stuffs, then he askd me to give him a call ASAP as he is tired and about to sleep, when I say another 5 minutes he was ok, with it. then I was getting more busy, then he kinda asked me when will I call, I say abit later, then he sudden;y flared up and somehow, vent his frustration just because he is tired etc etc...

easily jealous: Whenever I am with other guys talking, going out with them, he will get easily jealous, he ever thought I like wei X.

Abit like male chauvinist: he ever told me to treat him better, then recently before we broke up, he ever asked me to report to him about stuffs like when am I going to sentosa, when I wanna go clubbing must let him know. Even told me that, If I have any problem, I confront him before asking qing tian or whoever, he wants me to think of him first.

Still not mature: the way he talks and expresses himself, notonly that, whenever he msg, there is broken english, then when he speak english, he cannot pronounce properly.

not able to decide in certain stuffs.

Not very street wise.

Ill mannered: When I told him not to read my personal blog without my permission, yet he wnet and read it, he think I don't know, actually I suspected that he read my personal blog, so I questioned him, he said no, then later he confessed. His reason for reading my personal blog is because from there he can know what am I really thinking, not only that, talk bad about people, tell lies.

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sunday was grading, yeah. I got there early as I am suppose to meet Derrick and othe others to eat Mcdonalds breakfast, yummy.. eat until my stomach very full. Then that night, I had a bad headache till monday morning, then in the late afternoon, is much better already then I carry on doing my sutffs, yup, now I'm busy doing Coolster zhuan ji which is collections of pictures of coolster members into one thick album . Yup! busy decorating and adding more pictures and stuffs you guys will get to see it on my birthday celebration. then in the evening went back to california fitness club long time never went backliao. I went for hip hop clas again, then the next class was special was some disco dancing thingy.. cool! I styaed and dance, I realised dancing can relieve my stress too other than yoga/ pilates.. yup! better keep myself busy with stuffs, like decorating coolster album, preparing for my birthday, do the things I like and long time never do. so I won't think of that stupid stuffs and other nonsense.

Thanks friends, esp Ling, I'm alright liao and the others too.. I listened to you all de advice liao

2006-04-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

SO FeD up, so Fed up.. Hate 4 evrything that has happen.. what the f*** is going on? argh...
feel like wanna kill that jerk... argh.. I think I'm going crazy now cos of some MF.. not any ordinary MF.. but someone I know for some time..argh.. what is this going on.? all the denial, lies, betraying, maligning, humilating, insulting where is the love in this world.. No wonder I very stress up since last month till now..

When can I wake up and tell myself if this r/s is hopeless, I should give up and I should say that that jerk has been lying and I can't see that, I'm blind and stupid. What the hell am I waiting and thinking. always day dreaming, forcing myself to do the things I don't like..

Someone so close to me, yet did something which I hate the most.. Argh... I'm going crazy soon..
Yeah, the stuffs happened like this: today he said he not happy with what I wrote on my blog. but this is my freedom to blog and say whatever I want. Is my own blog, own mouth.. Then when he suddenly talked about last wednesday, I felt something is wrong cos IF i did remember correctly I didn't metioned about last wednesday thingy on my noraml blog. So I questioned him asking did he go through my personal blog, he said he never, then at night, he said sorry to me and confessed that he did? why the hell u wanna confess at this time? why must you lie in the first place. Then I questioned him again, then he say he go through my personal blog is the only way to know what am I thinking.

OK, earlier on, he did told me off bout stuffs, asking me what am is he to me? how dare he, still dare to ask this question I should be the one asking it... Then I say this : " I write whatever I wan is my business ma, I never slander can alreadylo. U leh? still dare to ask wad u r to me I supppose to ask that question de leh, sum people r like theif, steal things liao den blame ppl, give excuses or even try to er ren xian gao zhuang. wad a baddie?"

er ren xian gao zhuang means, for example , I did something bad to someone, then I complained to his /her family about he/she doing something bad. this is call er ren xian gao zhuang. Some peole really mei jiao yang( ill bred).. argh.. waste my time and youth on people not worth it.. forget it lah, all I cAn do is just take it as he not my bf liao. argh.. now very confused lah... don't wanna think too much, he is getting on my nerves...

ya, you inexpereince then people ti liang you, symphatise you, side you etc etc.. then now, waht Peoplle asked me not to break your heart. You can act very well hor? then NOw, those who know me may think I'm a bitch, wicked woman lah. you good! know how to act, act unitl so real. Ling said the right thing you ar.. like report king.. do things must report to you. I tell my xing li de hua why I don't wanna go certain places with you like clubbing, is becaused I don't want to be framed for taking drugs, don't want my drink to be spike by someone then end up don't know what happen. But better to be safe than sorry. I know oyu are naive an innocent, but who knows what are you up to? very hard to say. NOw good and bad guys very hard to tell.. My mum said the right thing, don't waste my time on people not worth it..

I still got a long way to go in life, those I might be a loser in love life.. so? big deal? I also don't know why I'm bewitch by you, I'm so stupid.. Is time I should wake up.. argh.. don't wanna let this tupid idoitic thing affect my life, without you also won't die.. the most, I can find better guys out there is whether I want anot only. I'm tired I need a break.

2006-04-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

Talk about yesterday bah, hmmm.. was called up for an interview from Simei ITE, I applied accounting so I went for the interview yesterday, Su Yu also went for the interview, I think I will be starting school around may bah, hopefully.. else, I'll rot man

My day.. hmm... today suppose to wake up early go poly clinic then end up I overslept. I was stucked there for an hour, I went to clinic regarding bout my personal stuffs, only LIng knows, then the doctor asked me go and have a test done, before that, I went to have lunch, as the lab was cloased for lunch break, then I went back there at 2pm. Luckily when I took my queue number for the lab test, the number went real fast, after a while, my test results were out le... thank god my test results were negative.. haha.. cos, I am a good girl.. hahahaha

Then went back to see the doctor, then never gave me medication.. haiz.. what is this? no medicine, only paid for the consultaion fee and lab test fee. altogether $7.40 bah... IF so much money I confirm cannot pay de..

after I'm done, I went to my church to help up with some stuffs, helped till 5pm like that

Wah lau! got a few people organising sentosa outing, then some trying to pull me, then my dear also say wanna organise sentosa outing soon bah, haiz.. I told pei wen and xin xin see first if I can go.. haiz. If I can go, I feel like wanna go with group of friends , if go with my bf, I scared I abit bu zhi zai.. haha.. cos I went sentosa with TKD friend then some more it was my first time wearing bikini. haiz.. of cos, sure shy de. but now, I just pretend no one is aorund loh, anyway, no one will be interested in me de lah..

K lah, don't talk bout this le, hmm.. so far we 7 fl0wers attach liao.. but then, for Ling, haiz. she and edmund break liao, but they're still friends lah... No worries, she very lucky sia cos she can find a guy abit older than her, not those 1-2 years older than her de, but those who have past their 21st birthday le.. but most important is the guy finishes his NS liao.. that's the most important thing ..

Me hope my next bf is much much older than me at least 4 -5 years older de, then must finish NS liao... But, I'm not desperate.. IF my this r/s doesnt last, I shall give myself a break .. I shall stay single and unavailable for a few years bah, just like last time. Enough writing about this .. I stop here for the time being

2006-04-04T16:01:00.000+08:00

zzz... past few days very jia lat, having ulcers on my lower lips. not one but at least 3 ulcers. caused by my braces... argh... damn pain. tried all kinds of way to make my ulcer less painful argh.. end up, the swell and the pain came back..

yesterday and today I had a brilliant idea .. which is my own idea. first scoop out 3-4 spoonful of salt into a rice bowl, then take a few smaller ice cubes , then rub the ice cube so the salt will ''stick'' onto the ice cubes.. NOrmally most people will feel pain by just applying salt onto the ulcer. Obviously you'll feel pain, so in order to reduce the pain, you can add ice to numb the pain.

When the salt, sticks onto the ice, put the ice cube onto the part where you have your ulcer and leave it there for as long as possible, if you think this method is weird there is another common method which is rinse your mouth with salt water.

Ok, enough about ulcers and stuffs, today went for my dental appointment again to extract my another 2 teeth.. argh.. some more having ulcer I still went... Next month onwards I gotta start paying instalment for braces le..

yesterday, got the news bout one of my church friend Ting Ting jie, who is now studying in Australia,Brisbane. met with an accident. She was walking by the road and a car hit her. She was knocked at pedestrain walkway. Thank God, there was no brain injury and face and teeth affected

4/4/06 0922hrs
this morning another update ting ting jie met with an accident at1630 hrs singapore time. she's still depending on the repirator

1410hrs
Ting Ting Jie was awake this morning.. Seems to have No major injuries. However her face and teeth were injured.

Ting Ting jie's parents will be flying to Brisbane tonight..hmm.. Ting Ting jie, glad you're awake lle, hmm... thanks god, that your injuries are not a serious one.. jia you jia you jia you! we will be waiting for you, hope to see you again soon when you come back and visit us

zzz... sianz past few days also raining.. haiz.. shang nao jin.. actually suppose to meet my dear today then go buy things but then, argh.. raining so heavily.. then cannot go out loh... Dear, I missed you.. very happy you send that msg wor.. heex..

2006-04-02T18:15:00.001+08:00

Yipee! today is 2nd april which is my cousin Nicole's birthday. she's 10 this year.

another 28 more days to my birthday party at pasir ris downtown east chalet. Can't wat. gotta save some money, find a proper time to buy my birthday stuffs and do some stuffs for my party.

Then yesterday my bf knew I open party he down there say, I never invite him.. haha.. ya hor, I forgot, I didn't asked him.. hmm.. maybe I have my reasons, haha.. but what a lame excuse.. he want to come I won't mind, anyway, the more the merrier. but just afarid that, I won't have time to entertain him, only got time busy chatting, taking pictures with my friends, like church friends, TKD friends, Coolster gang, my sec school friend and my god brothers/ sisters.

don't worry, me will have 2-3 cameras with me, one is my digital caera, the other one is my video camera and the last one is my mum's normal camera.. very kiasu right? haha.. not really lah, just in case any camera got problem or picture never take enough etc etc.. haha..

wah piang! he lame leh, asked me what's my wish then asked me write on my blog. at first I was like huh? then I told him, if my wish say out, it won't come true and another reason I said was even if he know what's my wish, he can't help me.. yeah, only ling knows my wish. heex. well, curous? you guys can go to my personal blog one day and guess what is my birthday wish, even if you think you guys guess correctly, i won't say out and don't asked me.

Today after my church, I went out with Ling, we went to makan and talk cock. she and I busy telling stories, then we went to century square took neoprint,, ling very funny, she said today all those shots we took very nice.. but then, the timer for decorating, went kinda fast. then I told her picture too nice, then the machine kan jiong.. heex.

Recently, I have been listening to project super star winner kelvin tan's song, I'm not sure what is the title but the song can be heard from the previous channel 8 9 pm drama , the shinning stars. the lyrics of the song, very meaningful and damn nice.

Other than the song is nice, the drama is very inspiring and nice too.

In the darkness, stars twinkle... even for a visually handicapped girl with too many troubles on her young shoulders.

Stars newcomers Dawn Yeoh and Sebastian Leong (from Project SuperStar), Pierre Png, Hong Huifang, Zheng Geping, Huang Shinan, May Phua, Eelyn Kok, Constance Song, Adam Chen, Zzen, Wang Yuqing and Jason Oh. Project SuperStar contestants Leon Lim, Lai Lijun and Wendy Toh guest-stars.

A-Li (Dawn Yeoh) is a young pretty girl who was born visually handicapped. Despite never having seen how she looks like, her surroundings and the happenings around her, she remains optimistic and strives to be as independent as possible in her daily life, sometimes even going out of her way to help others. Her birth father Jiang Hai (Wang Yuqing) abandoned her from young and she followed her mother Pei Pei (Hong Huifang) when she remarried a sloppy and lazy man Jin Tian (Huang Shinan). The family depends on the declining trade of hand puppetry for a living. Due to this, A-Li has no choice but to search for more jobs to earn enough to send her half-brother Xiao Feng (Sebastian Leong) to university.

A pair of new occupants moves into the block which A-Li is staying in. The young father refuses to tell others his name so A-Li calls him ‘Nameless’ (Pierre Png). He has a mischievous eight-year-old daughter Anqi, who together with him, turns the block topsy-turvy with their antics. As time goes by, A-Li comes to know the pair better and finds out that Nameless was actually born into a wealthy family and subsequently fell out with his father when he insisted on pursuing music studies in Vienna. Later, he met a girl named Xu Ling (Eelyn Kok) and had Anqi with her. Nameless fell into depression when he was not able to make any progress in his music studies and when he found out Xu Ling was having an affair. In anger, he took his month-old . daughter and left

Anqi’s school results have been extremely disappointing and she is always getting into trouble, garnering many complaints from parents and classmates alike. In the end, she even gives up going to school. When A-Li finds out about this, she decides to help Anqi find a new school, even promising to help Anqi realise her potential so she can prove wrong the teachers and classmates who look down on her.

Anqi makes great progress under her tutelage. Nameless also begins to respect A-Li’s ‘handicapped but able’ spirit. Gradually A-Li also develops a positive impression towards Nameless. She hopes that he will eventually pick himself up and start afresh, but Nameless has not even finished playing an entire music piece for a long time. A-Li throws herself into thinking of ways to help him regain his confidence.

A-Li is suddenly sent to hospital where the doctor discovers many scratches and bites on her. Suspected to be a victim of abuse, the police is notified immediately and the help of a social worker Yin Qi (May Phua) is called in. A-Li’s trusting nature makes her very vulnerable but despite Yin Qi’s repeated questioning, A-Li refuses to tell the truth of how she got hurt.

Yin Qi, facing a bottleneck at work as well as her husband’s extramarital affair, closes A-Li’s case shoddily under pressure. It is not till A-Li is once again sent to hospital that she remorsefully takes it upon herself to find out the truth. Through investigations, Yin Qi finds out many untold truths and hidden facts and in the process learns to face her husband and his infidelity with magnanimity. She also decides to stay on her job to continue and help the lost youths in our society…

Dawn yeoh as A-li

Pierre Png as Wu ming/ Wu Zhi Qing

Zhen Geping as HUang Feilong

Hong Huifang as Peipei

Sebestian Leong as Xiaofeng

Zzen zhang as Ah Pao

Adam Chen as Ah B

Lai Lijun as Coco

2006-03-30T10:09:00.000+08:00

Argh... stress Stress Stress...STrEss... like hell.. I this month confirm stress only Ling know why. Other girls might know why.then I kept on drink pineapple juice, one day drink at least 3 cups of it

hmm.. tuesday, went for my dental appointment to extract 2 of my teeth. Next week extract another 2... wah. the feeling is really numb then cannot tlak too much. after my dental appointment I went to Orchard to meet xin xin, joel and cheryl. yeah, the whole day I must type wad I wanna say on my hp to communicate. We went to catch a movie titled Yours, mine and ours.. really funny. is about a big family with 18 kids, at first they couldn't really get along then slowly, they begain to like each other's company.. After watching movie, me ad cheryl went home, before that, we went to our home coffeshop to eat, we shared a big plate of okkien mee

Yesterday, went for TKD training haiz. luckily no running, then done other physical training like push ups, sit ups, star jump... then after that practise pattern, jason coach say got mistake then must do push up. then end up got 23 mistakes times 10 = 230 push ups. we girls jia lat, knees must off the ground then after do don't know how many he let we ladies rest first.. then we owe him 170 push ups training over le, he never asked us to do back those push ups.. phew!

haha managed to asked a few of my TKD friend to come for my birthday party. then I asked Daniel( the malay guy who is one of the tkd senior) he suddenly asked for my number, then zhi xiang(we call him susu) asked me: " so you prefer malay to chinese?" I was like huh, then I think I did give him so comments like don't be lame lah..

that night, chatted alot with Ling, heex. Ling is sooooooooooo damn lucky to have a bf who is a little bit older than her and complete his NS.. so xian mu, ling, don't worry I won't snatch yr bf away de...hope my next Bf is much older leh.. haha fat hope.. think after my current bf , I'm gonna give it a break just like how I never got attach for 2 years, I want the same thing to happen, haha...don't know lah, good guys are very hard to find, my mum said before find guys who are a few years older than me at least 5-6 years older than me, but where to find? haiz don't know of guys years older than me...

nevermind lah, that one slowly know la no hurry..I must say at times I'm still acting like some young teenage girls around 13 or 14 always thinking bout handosme guys like pop star etc etc, no wonder my homones really got problem .. I confirm homone inbalance de.. ar.. go eat medicine lah... haha..

me and my Bf ok liao. ya, I admit I'm bad and hard hearted but whatever it is let bygones be bygones bah, I warned him liao, I say if there's no improvement, there's no point continuing this r/s . make sure he knows what to do and keep his promise

2006-03-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

my day, yesterday, haiz.... yeah, when I was on my way home, I bumped into Gang Yuan, and Haresh my seondary school classmates on bus 65, then gang yuan saw me he noticed I wore braces, haha when he was in sec 3, he wore braces too. Now his teeth quite nice le. Then I invited them to come to my party on 30th april, hopefully they confrim can come.. As I will be asking my other secondary school friends to come too.

When i GOt home, he( that cheap stock) messaged me sking me whether wanna meet him anot? He's nuts . Then I told him off saying he got nothing better to do then he said he is almost reaching my place, I don't are him lah, I just go and had a good shower, then a few messages and a missed call came from him, he said actually wanna get me flowers but didn't. bo liao ar. who want him to come ? I never asked or hope for him to come, then I asked where exactly is he liao, he say outside my home, At first, I can't see him, then i saw him opposite my home standing at the coffeshop back door, then I went out to meet him, then I asked him why he come etc etc, then I told him if he don't say what he wanna say I'l go back home, then he suddenly say he didn't lie to me etc etc, then tried to hold my hand, but I somehow pushed him away, then we walked and wanna cross the road where he take bus 22, then he said the 3 words, I can't be bothered then again, he tried to hold my hand he even asked whether have I forgiven him , I just ignore him and say I'm going home then, in the end he LL then he let me go home, while I was walking home, he reminded me to sleep early.

very surprise he will come, at first I thought of wanna teach him a lesson by bringing out my water bottle and getting ready to splash him and then make a nuisance by saying all kinds of stuffs, i remembered there's one message he said he will wait for me, can be with me a while matters more, I don't know what exactly does he wants. WHile having my dinner, he messaged me this:" you will never forgive me right?" I replied him in a crude manner saying that Till i'm satisfied then I will forgive then asked him " why you ask so much?

I sound mean right, people come all the way to explain and apologised yet, I still very hard hearted.. haiz what to do? I'm like this.. I cannot be soft hearted .. He say he next month might be in overseas.. haiz..go lah go lah, take yr time to come back. I don't give a damn is better that we 2 be alone for the time being can say we are now having a cold war,

wah lau! nod again round 11pm, he called then I ws thnking whether wanna answer anot, so I answer, then he asked me to chatted with him he asked me to treat him as someone else and then chatted with him, Hello! can't u understand what is cold war and being angry? haiz.. nevermind, brainless people don't understand de.. yeah, think is itme I shall wirte another story in my personal blog le, I wrote another entry already the most recent date stated.

don't wanna think so much lah, think so much for what? I rather enojoy my life, take it as he is not aorund and never in my life, just like what he did.. an eye for an eye

2006-03-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

lots of stuffs to talk about, yeah tuesday went back to school to re-apply higher NITEC.
hmm... then tour round the school with my gang. actually suppose to watch movie then in the end can't get to watch as all the timings are not suitable for us. so we went to pasa malam and walk then we went home..

talked about yesterday me and that jerk having a tiff, he complained saying that he felt unsafe between us, oh my goodness!please think carefully, all this while I tolerate you, I never complained only you complain what is this? this is unfair to me, then I read his blog he say he scared of getting hurt and will be shattered if he love me to deep.. yaya, since the day we patch, he doesn't seems to acknowledge this r/s and even me. treat me as transparent, my wound is much more deeper than yours you still have the cheek to say that you are afarid of getting hurt, my previous r/s really scarred me though the wound is already heal but sometimes the trauma is still around. haiz, you say will treat me better. stop saying that sentence, i've heard enough of your pack of lies, you big fat liar,whateveR I do, i'm just a someone helping you the someone is not important to you instead I become yr maid, servant doing or helping you with your stuffs, frankly speaking at times i'm quiet is beacuse i dislike talking to you, don't ever treat me as a doormat or a spare tyre, thinking back about stuffs between us, I really hate myself for being stupid to fall for you, fall for someone who doesn't seems to cherish the chances given to him.

ask yourself, are you fit to be my boyfriend or any girls' boyfriend? I bet those girls will detest you to the core,what kind of attitude you have? only know how to complain, malign people, having a weird attitude no wonder you have so little friends. You are old enough to know what to do and to decide for whatever stuffs, no need me to tell you, why must heaven be so unfair to me, let me get hurt once, now giving me problems and having such a useless boyfriend, why can't I have a mature, much older guys, those who are understanding ones to be my boyfriend.

How I wish you have half of my guys' friend personality and character. If I could, I rather swop with someone else for a better guy. Scared of getting hurt? then might as well, don't go into a r/s get a pet lah,though I have no confidence in r/s but I pulled through and leave my past behind, asked me to be your girlfriend is you, asked for a reconcilation is also from you, what else do you want? is very torturing to face someone who doesn't bother about you how you feel? can you please put yourself in my shoes? you ever called me a self-fish I think you are the one who is being self-fish

I should have listen to Ling, she ever said if he doesn't care about me then there is no point and I should forget about him, I don't want to break up so fast is because of this stupid stuffs then initiate the break up . Talked to Joel bout these then joel said maybe his feelings fade already or he's trying to think of ways to leave me fine!Joel so lame say is beacuse I wore braces then that jerk don't want me. nonsense lah! I don't need you to walk on me, I can walk out anytime, haiz talked to joel bout this then I cried, today chatted with Nick bout this stuff then Nick say he feel unsafe is because I too pretty, then have scores of admirers , that's not true I this year till now no one ever want to woo me,haiz... I this kind of pattern who want? even I go do plastic surgery or what still no one will want.

Nevermind, there are plenty of better guys out there. If I ever end this r/s I just wanna give myself a long break by staying single and unavailable, but getting into a r/s also gives you an experience and helps one self to grow

2006-03-19T22:32:00.000+08:00

This weekend, I had a great time though my teeth still pain.. haiz. yesterday
went out with cheryl, xin xin to bishan for some carnival. Joel pulled me to the carnival thingy de. we walked aorund the place for don't know how long.. haiz. then that Joel such a bully asked we 3 girls to wait for him then I asked him to give 10 good reasons.. haha.

We had lunch at Mcdonalds, ate finish already we sat down and talk crap then happen I wore my birthday present Joel gave me. haha he notice le...yeah then we headed to city hall to meet qing tian, he's quite lucky to leave his army camp early. When David saw me, he said I got a nice braces haha..he gave us a treat at Haagen Dazs. haha.. Then having my treat le, I need to go off as I need to get ready for my cousin, gillian mei's birthday celebration.When I got there most peole were surprised to see me in braces.. WEEEEE.. SO HAPPY GILLIAN MEI LIKED MY PRESENT...

about today- Cheryl a.k.a xin hui, joel, xin xin and joel's friend Samuel and me went to sentosa today.. haiz. suppose to meet 1130hrs then tardy queen( xin xin ) late lo.. haiz.. then We reached sentosa at about 1330hrs.. the sun not hot and bright enoughleh sian 1/2 played till 6 plus, first round of photo taking only cheryl and me were busy roaming round Palawan beach and taking our cameras along busy taking pictures for each toher and taking together, then the others joined in taking pictures, but still not enough actually qing tian suppose to come today but end up, never come.. haiz.. so sad.. never mind still got next time. I wanna go to the photo lab and print out the pictures i took yesterday and today.

haha can't wait to print out... haha

2006-03-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

lalala... I'm back with a different smile.. haha.. yesterday went for my dental appointment now I'm wearing braces le.. argh, is not that bad after all cos opposite my house dental clinic the dentist not rough de wor.. haha, then there is this part he have to put the mirror thingy into the side of my muth that was real painful he stretched my mouth.. ar.. wo de ma.. pain lor.. then I was thinking if he keep on doing that my mouth confrim give him si lan( tear) already.. I told my mum bout this and she laughed..

then went to school wtih my dear, cos I going to TKD to pay my grading fee and collect my present from Joel.. haha.. I stepped in there, I don't dare to open my mouth and show my teeth then my say I talked like I'm biting osmething at the same time.. go there give people sorta suan then my senior daniel( the chinese guy) suddenly call me mei nu, then I call him shuai ge.. then he say I wanna talk can do hand sign.. Joel down there tell the others try not to make me talk cos I just had my braces on.. Argh, today woke up got a little headache around 2 something in the afternoon my headache came back then my teeth starting to be painful le.. haiz.. what to do like what Joel said must get worse then can get better..indeed is true no pain no gain... haha

back to yesterday.
after paying my grading fee, my coach asked me what happen then asked is it I wore braces.. ya
pay le, I went off cos me and dear catching movie titled shaggy dog.. haha.. hope he enjoy himself.. dear, rmb update yr blog leh. cobwebs growing le..

2006-03-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

back to update.. ya, another 2 more days I;'ll be wearing my braces .. wonder how will it be like.. ya, today bought a few packets of coloured sand and a mini glass bottle to do some art work as my cousin's birthday celebration is this saturday.. haiz.. so sad, after I done with the art work le, then I wrapped the present then wrapped finish already I dropped the present on the floor.. then I opened up to check whether the bottle broke anot.. so sad.. it broke...

Ar..careles me, I was thinking of buying a box then inside the box I shall put a few stuffs inside as her 3 in 1 present or stuffs I ever gave such a present to my cousin Gabriel Di, nevermind,I have other plans in ind of what to give her.. hmm.. maybe inside the box I shall give her few items like a mug, silver coated photo album cum photo frame, magnet, birhtday egg, which is she have to follow instructions on how to let the egg ''hatched''..hmm...maybe these few items inside the big box will do.. hope she will like my idea and my presents.

last saturday had a great time at BBQ I asked my friend to pei me go BBQ.. I had a great time, still manage to eat my favourite chicken wings, but I got to cut into smaller pieces to bite them.. these are the few best pictures taken at ice man's birthday party..

there are soft copies of ice man's birthday party pictures with me

DO you think we are the next 7f/ 4 in love.. heex

the guests at his birthday party

the big eater... long papa..hahaha

the happy family

these are the few for the time being.. The others I will load them ASAP

2006-03-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

my week,.. hmm.. tuesday 7th march was my dental appointment, yeah, the released of my x-ray thingy results and stuffs, then the dentist will have to put 8 rubber bands. 4 for my 2 bottom teeth and another 4 for my 2 top teeth, cos, those teethwith rubber bands, will be plucked off soon, then next week I'll be wearing my braces...

wow, my teeth damn pain cannot bite when i'm eating, must eat porridge, first day even much much more painful the feeling is like my whole mouth is swollen.. 8th march was ice man's birthday. yeah, got the chance to go out with my dear dear liao. since the day we patch, we never got the chance to out together.. ya loh, gave him the box I found so he can put whatever stuffs i give it to him inside that box, i believe he will like it and keep it properly.. haha. then we went to tampines interchange small mac to sit down and pei him wait for bus 331, then he suddenly keep on asked me to look behind me, chae! is li jie.. haiyo... then that li jie come only, ar, make my head... then we chatted lo, when the bus came liao, then dear still sit down there, i told him faster lah, then he say wait then suddenly, he stood up then walked to another direction then gently gave me a goodbye kiss,, si qi wor.. haha.. k lah, then I tok the train down to orchard to meet xin xin and her another friend also call xin hui de. didn't expect she stayed at tampines and is just a few blocks away from me de..haha. yeah, then after shopping orchard, heeren, PS then we took the train back to eunos, we took a bus down to ice man's place... wow, by the time we got there most people have alraeady arrived.. took pictures of his birthday event

then last night, I got night cycling with xin xin's church till this morning, my legs are like jelly le... argh.. so i quckly went back to ''freeze'' my jelly as later in the evening I got BBQ ma... haha.... for now, I shall stop here first but one thing, i can't enjoy the bbqalot cos of my teeth got rubber band... argh.. sianz

2006-03-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

yo! i'm back to update my blog.. firstly wanna wish xin xin a happy 18th birthday.. may all your wishes and reams come true.. yeah, yesterday went to buy ice man's present with carol, and ling.. had a hard time and a big headache finding and choosing his present in the end we bought a wallet chain for him, so he can clip onto his trousers.. the price is around 15-18 bucks.. hope he'll like it. Then took neoprint twice with ling and carol..heex..

in the evening, I got ready for some family gathering.. yeah, my little cousin so cute, called me twice at first I thought it was my aut calling me, little did i expect it was my little cousin calling me.. she know how to chui ren leh... so cute and clever...

ya, at last! found a box for my dear liao.. haha.. hopefully the box will be a great help to him bah then he can have no worries bout hiding his stuffs.. thinking back bout lighting candles or stuffs, this reminds me of a lame but sweet dream... haha.. the dream goes like this.. me and dear was at some particular apartment( it could be his place, my place or helping to design someone's house).. yeha, we were in this room.. the room was filled with some sweet things, then there were lots of candles, I was sitting on the bed, watching him lighting up the candles, however, the few candles on my right wasn't being light up, so I told him to light up the candles on my right, he did.. then the flame went off, then I asked him to passed me the lighter and I'll do it myself... I was holdingthe lighter and getting ready to light up the candles then I kinda fainted.. fainted due to lack of sleep for a few days as we were both busy ''renovating'' someone's apartment... then I just fell asleep on the bed, then I woked up, i saw him admiring the beautiful candles all by himself.. ar.. what a lame dream... hehee...

reading sunday papers i believe most of you know bout the toddler girl who was being raped and killed... the toddler stepdad was really a beast.. the girl's grandmother saw her nude body and was really devastated.. yeah, it was said that the toddler went missing for a few days and on the 4th march 2006, her body was found. a sad thing is whenever girls are missing is either the are found dead or still unknown whether they are alreday dead or still alive, most people say girls could be sold to other countires like batam or thailand to become prostitute, if boys are missing they can be sold to thailand, have thier hands,tongue and limps amputated then be a beggar not only being a beggar they are even becoming a labourer.

The world is getting terrible, we must keep a lookout for ourselves and for each other... that's what my mum always telling me to let her know my whereabouts in case anything happen to me.. I suppose I shall stop here for the time being..

2006-03-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

wow time flies and it is a brand new month.. yeah, this month Is xin xin, ice man and my cousin's birthday.. heex.. hmm... past few days I just lead my life, in a normal way, though he and I already patch up, but I realised things can never be the same like before just hoping for the best. past few weeks and days have been watching my idol drams this time I'm watching the champion as this is my current blog skin.. yeah, one thing I quite like is this drama has 2 ending.

the flying fish team consists of 7 girls..heex.. reminds me of my coolster sisters.. haha, joyce(7f) suppose to be in the team too.. however, her sister took over her place

the seagull team

the hot chicks was made to run wearing a bikini in orchard

the hunks in the champion left to right: yan xingshu, qi yuwu and toro

the handsome life gurad jinxiang played by julian hee

wow.. so cool.. wonder what shall be my next idol dramas.. other than work, go home, sleep, eat, wtach tv, online I also watch my idol drams.. another 1 more month till my party is up... hopefully, those I've invited will be able turn up, gotta ask someone to do a video on my birthday celebration makeit a memorable one my friend went back to australia already. gonna see her at the end of the year she'sone of my sister too.. a big sister to me indeed.. had alot of stuffs to talked to her about, wedensday went for training it seems that I've no energy to train... kinda slow down and lack behind.. I very long never went for training due to my leg... doctor says my ligament torn, cannot move about too much, my ligament torn was on the day I went for my grading ( jan 2006 grading) was practising my pattern then I forgot to do warm up ..

The manager of the swimming complex and his family, his wife is selling food and drinks at the swimming pool, the son, lu kaiwei(qi yuwu) a swimming coach cum life guard, the daughter, lu kaixin(fiona xie) a swimmer in flying fish team
argh.. is over.. my leg is alright le, but just worried that my injury will come back, then past few days don't kow why my running nose kinda came back, i'm currently on medication this mdeication is to help my running nose, cos iin the past whenever i get up I will blow my nose using lots of tissues and the mucus is as if flowing out like a pipe being burst and water keeps flowing non stop.

past few days I was busy visting this shop, it sells lots of stuffs or even all kinds of stuffs, i say a few candles, tlike those I gave to ling and xin xin but those candles I've seen are quite special and the price is reasonable hope to buy a few so I can light up my room.. haha.. can't wait to go ice man's place this wednesday on 8 march as he is gonna celebrate his birthdya and I suppose I gonna do some filming.. too.. as I never touched my video cam for quite some time le..

since the day i rboke up with him and IA pacth with him, i realised that outside my doorstep, there are lots of stars in the sky, whenever i see them, i'll make a wish, hmm.. friends i wonder if you all have notice lots of stars out there lately?

2006-02-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

I guess is time I should have a ''press conference'' on my blog. yeap, readers might be curious why all this while I have not write and talk about my boyfriend on my blog. well, the answer is very simple, we broke upp.. I broke up with him when he told me he wanted a one week break at first I thought it was aright for him to have a one week break, however, the next day my conscience was telling me something was amiss.. my firend qing tian, told me that this kind of thing ever kinda happen to him once, my boyfriend reason for a week vacation was he said he wanna test whether our feelings for each other is true anot.. qing tian and xin xin told me that his reason is an excuse..

well, after we broke up, he still calls and sms-ed me.. then one night, he called then he suddenly blurted out that question asking hether do I have a new boyfriend, i was shocked and asked him why he asked that question... whenever he calls me, he seems to be so hurry to hang up on me, i told myself though we are still friends, but there is a limit to friendship.. yeah, but few days later, I didn't kow what has coame into my mind I started telling him that I still love him, so does he still feel the same for me, days later he asked for a reconcilation. I told him I wanted to consider bout his request... in the end, I still gave in to his ocnsent as I realised that everyone deserves a second chance and our love, confidence, feelings for each other is still there.

since we patched up, frankly speaking I MUST SAY that he doesn't seems to acknowledge this r/s and myexistence.. I managed to talked to him about it yeah, I even told him this '' ask me to be your girlfriend is you, now you asked for a reconcilation is also from you again" he had one condition which is if I have any problem, I have to confront him first before asking qing tian( sunny) and he claims that whenever I have problems I will always loook for qing tian. he wants me to think of him first.

I tell myself if this r/s still ocntinues to be like this, I guess this time I'll break off with him and will have nothing to do with him... I hope to see changes

2006-02-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. how i spent my friday.. yeah, me went to MOE bulding to collect my N levels certificate.. then went down to Bugis to meet my friend, on 2nd march she will be going back to australia,we went to Billy Bombers and had ou lunch, then we walked around bugis and went to the new national library.. the biggest library... read bout some stuffs like decorating of homes, etcetc.. then I took the train down to city hall to meet xin xin.. yup. went to esplanade.. haiz.. qing tian suppose to joined us but end up, he didn't. only xin xin and me, comb the whole esplanade le, we took the bus to orchard.. heex.. went to eat KFC then talked alot, then went to Heeren..

yeah, this was how I spent my friday.. hmm.. ling, don't worry i'm alright lah, is ok that u never pei me, as long as you have me in yr heart can le.. ya, i'm fine le, got qing tian who is willing to chat with me can le.. hmm.. really wanna thank qing tian...

hmm.. don't know what to say now.. cos my mind ar, normally can crack what to say de.. now like cannot crack..haha.. i think i stop here for the time being first.. friends anything, just tag my board or contact me on my mobile.

2006-02-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

tian ying gai liang le, ni ying gai shui le, shou yi zhen ye de ta, ying gai zou le
ni ying gai ku le,ta ying gai xing le. xiang yi zhen ye de wo gai si xin le
wo men dou mei you cuo, zhi shi ai shang tong yi ge
zhi guai ai shi du zhi zhan you fei yao ping de ni si wo hou

*hao ai ta, hao xiang ta, zai zhe yang xia qu wo zhi hui gen qian hua
ai dao zui hou wo men hai shi gai bian bu liao ho~
zhu fu ta, yong you ta, shou you de you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu le
ni gei guo de mei hao liu zai mei you ren dao de le de di fang kan ni wei xiao
v2- shou you de mei hao, liu zai mei ren dao de liao shi zhe ba ni, man man yuan wang
v3-liu zai mei ren ddao de liao, shi zhe ba ni, man man wang diao

this song is by 7f and 183 club.. very touching and nice.. if you guys get yo watch the MTV, is really touching and can make you cry.. hee... the titled is hao ai ta, hao xing ta..( love her, think about him)

ok, time to update my blog.. hmm.. past few days lots of stuffs is oging on.. last saturday is we 3rd month anniversary, then very bored, sian day for me... then.. hmm.. worte a story in my own personal blog... write le, also make me wanna cry..haha.. then always find people to chat, that person is that hao meng shuai ge qing tian a.k.a daivd ho.. hehehe yeah, life still have to continue no matter what, still have to move on... whatever we wanna say, we must think properly before we talk.. cos, once you say certain things, you cannnot expect nothing to happen or what... words cannot be taken back.. in chinese there is a pahrase, it goes like this:

puo chu qu de shui, jiang chu qu de hua shi shou bu hui lai de... it means that, if you splashed/ spill water, you can't take it back, then another phrase means word whatever you've spoken out from your mouth, the words can never be taken back.

yeah, thought bout my late grandpa. ( my father side grandpa), I thought of going to his cemetry.. not the one located at choa chu kang, but the one located around joo seng rd, his is some tablet kind bah.. the last time I went there was bout 8 years ago.. hee, really thought of going.. but my dad doesn't know where exactly is that place located at.. so me gonna asked my grandma and some of my other relatives bah.. really hope to go.. but don't know what kind of fkower to buy..

2006-02-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

hee.. 14th feb was V day.. however, I can't celebrate with dear.. but I went to school in the morning to apply for hihger nitec, then dear came le, after I left the school, I accompany dear go TP.. Then went to eat.. he so good.. bought me my japanese food.. heex.. then gave me my present.. too Bad.. I didn't got him a present as I didn't know what to give and was busy with other stuffs.. Then tomorrow we 3 months anniversaary le, also cannot celebrate.. haiz.. next time then make up for him bah..

this week, we meet up at least 3 times leh.. cos monday he fetched me home, tuesday we accompany each other here and there.. then wedensday I went back for TKD training, he came down and wat fr me to finish training. He very caring , thoughtful, bought me H20 packet drink and durian cake.. hehe.. Wah paing! training damn jia lat.. cos, my leg cannot squat and sit.. then take stairs very pain , legs feel like jelly bah. then he piggyback me.. xin ku ta le bah.. what to do? bones heavy most guys sure cannot take it sure will complain bodyache de.. see, monday, and wedensday see me home.. ar.. tai hao le..

some more what to say leh? then before he send me home, we went to sat at some bench near my home, sit down and rest for a while. haiz.. legs damn aching till today. then when I want to go off le, he gently hugged me, then gave me a kiss on my cheek.. hehe.. eh, his hand damn warm de..

ok, talk bout today, argh... what a torture my ahem! cause my stomach to feel damn bloody pain.. then have to go toilet a few times.. so pain... argh.. sometimes I think be nu ren very xin ku, caused nu ren are weak, vulnerable, fragile, emotional, they need special treatment de, need to be pampered... Other than that, nu ren will chi kui more than man, then some men no good treat their wives like maid/ servants... then men leh, always wanted to be served and treated like an emperor.. gosh! nevermind I wanna prove to people that women are not weak they are independent, not easily bullied, intelligent, not useless...

hmm.. as i was thinking bout what to do to make up for my dear, I roughly hd an idea what to do le bah.. but haven't really go and confrimed bout it lah... Time flies, hope to see my coolster gang/buddies again... hope my chlaet got more people come.. hehe....

Lastly, I wanna say this.. hmm dear, I know you think that i treat my friends better.. but pls, I've tried my best to treat u and my friends fairly... There is limit de.. ysz/ Must balance cannot always all my time for you then I throw my friends away.. just wanna let you get this picture clearly.. ok, other than that, I appreiciate for what you've done.. I'll not be so ungrateful to those who have help me before.. you asked me whether am I ahppy whenever I[m with you.. the answer is yes,.... yes doesn't means today only, means yesterday, today and the times we are together always... I believe you have the same answer too.. i'm glad you did not sorta pity me then take me as your gf.. cos, I don't want because people pity me then do that..Other than my previous ex, I realise you are much much more caring to that extent.. I'm not comparing.. I just hope our r/s will last.. I'm always here for you whenever you need me de...

2006-02-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

last thursday was yun mama's birthday. wow she look beautiful..wow peole say when a girl turns 18 she is a nice, beautiful flower.. indeed she really bloom into a beautiful flower.. haha can't wait to turn 18..hehe.. hopefully can confrim gurantee chop boy chalet then some of you guys can stay over night wor.. haha.. anyway, ya.. ws busy entertaining long papa and the rest Wei x and I kinda do some acting.. he act as some sissy and me acted as some seductive, bitchy woman trying to flirt with him.. then the rest busy watching our show..haha..

aiyoh.. then took the same bus back with wei x... hehe had a great chat.. really missed the times we had together... past few days had my perosnal acitivities then the whole week never meet my dear loh.. then what to say ar... eh.. ya, suppose to joing sg idol audition but then i didn't print out the form so end up I never go loh.. haha..

bored..dont know what to write le.. must think what to write.. ya, today very funny, cos right, my dear sy want fetche me from work. then aorund 5 in the afternoon he say cannot le. cos he need to rush to other polytechninc... he might be quitting his current course in simei ite and go poly liao.. so he went to NYP ply and temasek poly only.. at frist he say fter he go TP , he will rush to SP and Np.. eh, end up never leh.. when he say cannnot fetch me le, i say nvm, i go home by myself.. then after work, he called, then asked me where am I ... I told him I just left my workplace.. then walked and talked then eh.. sudden;y saw someone very familiar leh.. then I hang up the phone then I say him loh. anyhow call.. play this kind of thing. that scene really reminds me odf some tv dramas.. haha.. then he so good, he bouhg t me my ken ken cuttlefish.. haha.. coos, i always eat that infront of him ma.. haha.... tai ai si ta liao... sy cannot fetch me, end up can fetch me, some more buy my ken ken cuttlefish..

so happy leh.. of all my so many ex, no one did that loh, then honestly speaking tomorrow is my very first time celebrate v-day with boyfriend leh.. believe it or not.. yaya, enought bout all these tomorrow me going to register my higher nitec course hope can be in the same class with some of my coolster buddies.. then in the afternoon, I got dental appint met.. me must do x-ray for my teeth cos, I werng braces real soon.. then.. the chalet on 30th april is already confrimed le, hope those friends I've know can make it as I'm celebrating my birthday and the next day is labour day, no school, no owrk ba.. then hope firends can go wild wild wet on 1st may too.. hee

2006-02-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Back! to update my blog. ya, tuesday was my grandmother's birthday celebration . the celebration held at one of my uncle's place, a club house in his condominium.. lots of poeple came like her friends many many relativ3es some are distant relatives. they came too didn't expect got lots of kids.. running, playing aorund, throwing balloons, blowing balloons etc etc.

Me did a little video.. then my other cousins played black jack.. all my elder cousin i cal her da jie, she wanted to play with money de.. aiyoh.. me never play lah, just watch loh, then me share with my cousin a can of carlsberg.. I drank a few sips only..haha. then the rest he drink himself lah.. hmm.. ya, manged to asked one of my aunt for help in booking the chalet for my birthday celebration. I might be putting a chalet BBQ on 30th april to celebrate my birthday. I'll confirm with you guys again.. Then those wanna stay over also can.. not all hor.. only a few, cos I was thinking 1st may can go wild wild wet mah. If stay over at the chalet, the next day just take some of your stuffs and go wildwild wet and play..haha Hopeffully can book the chalet by now then 30th can come and enjoy all you want.

I will be inviting lots of poele, if the chalet is confrim on.. haha. Talked about today, After work, I went to meet my good friend she is also like a jie jie to me.. she came back from australia, but she will be going back soon. This is her last year studying in australia, end of the year, she will be graduating.. yeah went to TM, Phin's and eat.. at first somebody for the past few days insisted to follow de.. so kpo.. I say ladies thing that kuku don't believe then still hope can follow then say bring ear pluck can le.. luckily I managed to shake that kuku off..haiyo.. Think back bout that incident really stupid loh. me and my jie jie talk alot, bout r/s stuffs,sch stuffs, friends, teachers etc etc..

she suggested I should tell my mu that i currently seeing someone leh.. but not the right time lah, in case my mum say." wah.. so fast! '' I can say after more than 6 months is ok to find a new bf/gf loh.. not days later then find new one ma... I not a bitch or a whatever woman loh... I always say find new bf must have proper timing, just like do hair, eg; touch up roots, tocuh up rebonding.. must more than 6 months than can re-do rebonding or touch up the hair colour ma.. if keep on doing, hair will spoil de ma.. logic wad..not 2-3 months later find new one. that one ar like chagning tyres or repairing air con ... haha.. yeah, I worte a story on my another blog.. THos who have my pesonal blog add, can feel free to read. or if you ppl got aything just tag my board and I'll get back to you ASAP..ya..

SO sorry, if you guys can't find that link to my personal blog.. I removed it due to some reasons. haha... then, after that, I went east coast... alone...so boring.. so i called a few people, called qing tian, wei x and my dear.. wow.. lots of stars leh.. heex.. then I made a wish,,. shh.. i not gonna say is not related to r/s de la.. haha.. anyway, yun mama's birthday is here.. just wanna wish her a happy birthday..

2006-02-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

just came back home. heex..today went to church 2nd service which starts at 1130hrs..
Then saw my hao sister at church, she came back to sg for her holiday. Around march she will be going back to australia liao.. end of this year she's graduating.. wow time flies and she studies in australia for 3 years.. hmm.. yesterday discussed with my mum about having a BBQ during my birthday at first we thought of asking friends/ relatives who live in condominuim to help us book BBQ pit.. but then, condo got time limit.. so our plan change. we decided to book chalet. then some of you guys can ton overnight..haha.

Yesterday, my ''lao ta'' max, called me asked me wanna go watch I not stupid 2 ma?? I say I watch le.. he and ice man went to watch.. then I asked him he watch fearless le ma. he said he watched liao.. sian 1/2. Then I asked him why never call his gang( that bernard, wei cong and some others..) ar.. don't care him lah.. anyway, thanks for inviting.. Hope my friends/cousins can come for my BBQ.. haha.. especially lao ta and gang so long never see them le.. really miss them sia..

hmm.. ok bout today, after church service, went to my mum's cell group members da house bai nian.. then after that, I took the train to city hall and meet xin xin.. wah liew, then that Qing tian called.. he sick, then say we never jio him go out.. haha.. distrub lah. sick le still wanna go out.. ya, we went to wtach Fearless.. show damn nice, but damn violent, sorta exaggerating.. this character huo yuan jia( Jet Li) is a famous so call kungfu fighter. he beat the angmohs( german, french, english) and a japanese.. It was said that, he didn't got the chance to learn wushu/kungfu but he tou xue from his dad. as his dad was a shifu himself.. the rest of the story you guys go and find out yourself...

ya , after movie, went bugis, walk walk, take neoprint.. today that neoprint machine we took, really gave us alot of time to decorate wah liew.. sit till our ass damn pain..lolx. Ya, we decorate until like wanna sleep like that. ya, 14th feb is valentine's day. I got dental appointment in the afternoon.. haiyo.. at this special day.. wonder what will I be doing, will he and me celebrate ma?? or will I go out with friends..haha.. no lah, still long way, when the date is nearer then say.. ya, if I'm not wrong, this tuesday my grandma's birthday.. haha celebration will be held at my uncle's condominium. can't wait man, can't wait to jump into the swimming pool and swim.. then can't wait to video and take lots of pictures..aiyah, everything can't wait lah..

2006-02-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

wow.. time flies and a new month is here..hehe.. ok, talk about wednesday.
yeah,went out to watch I not stupid too at TM with my dear..haha.. before that, while queue-ing up, to buy tickets the queue damn long, luckily we manage to get the earliest time slot...haha.. the show damn funny. more of ''action'', more about life of being a teengaer etc etc...

I already banked in my hongbao money le, I also bought my wang zi bian qing wa VCD le...haha yesterday went to deposit my cash at the deposit machine, the queue also damn long.. when my turn came, I notice the prevous person who queue, forgot to take his ATM card..at that time, I was hesitating whether to give to the bank or to chase after him as he wasn't away from the machine that far.. So i went to chase him and gave him back his atm card.he was with his friends then end up I re-queue again..luckily managed to be at the theatres on time..

after watching the show, me went to tampines mrt to look for ling, as we are going to city hall to meet qing tian, xin xin and ice man.. dear, pei me go city hall. after that, he went home liao..wah piang, whole day got flu.. then at night, can't sleep tried to sleep but can't then dear pei me talk through msg loh.. haiyo.. hope he able to wake up early for school leh.. I was thinking of putting lots of candles in my room.. wow! damn romantic leh.. haha.. cos in idol drama zjzd, they shown this part where xiaoying and tian xie was locked in a storeroom.. once the door is close, the whole place is pitch black.. so tian xie, used lots of different kinds of candles to light up the whole store room.. wah.. damn romantic leh... me wanna watch the next movie, titled fearless//. hope to be able to watch it soon..

ok lah, bout today.. wah same thing, damn xin ku, and happy cos, i also get hongbao... toal for today only eh, 18 bucks ok lah better than nothing..hmm.. i knocked off at 6 today, went to bugis to buy my magazine featured J stars like 7f,5566, 183 club, lala, typhoon, k one, tai ji.. i bought 2 different issues.. then I bought january issue got free CD installation of this game thingy. the website is this http://sos.digicell.com.tw/ then also have 2 free magnet..hehe one featured zax wang ren fu and kone/typhoon Darren..haha.. darren getting very shuai dai le.. haha... then I alos bought love miracle, J star CD, inside got free box of pokka cards and a red packet with their photo..haha.. then at night, went to see doctor.. due to my bad bad flu.. haiz.. hope it will be ok soon...ya hor, this month, is valentine's day 14th feb then 4 days later is he and me the special day..haha..

lastly, dear, don't blame yourself for not taking good care of me ok?? not your fault wor.. hmm.Since our that east coast trip I find we are much much closer leh..haha hmm.. dear, must take care of yourself too..ya, always loving you and will not forget what you've done for me de..

2006-01-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday is the second day of CNY...HAHA...haiz...time flies.. I really had a great time playing with my video cam since chinese new year's eve.. tlaking back bout last saturday I was abit no mood to celebrate as someone lah, make me kinda fucked up at that time haiz.. some more he dare to put words in my mouth saying that I like Wei X.. Absolute rubbish lah.. but I no mood to angry lah, cos I had a bad stomach pain since that morning till yesterday... and also wanna be happy on CNY.. don't like to scold people some more..after new year, I a year older liao.. angry some more I old faster

OK lah. I was busy being a big director doing filming, and other stuffs with my videocam..yeah, then playback what I've recorded/ then everyone was busy laughing...

bout today, me went to my grandmother's place again... haha.. but too bad today no hongbao to take.. yesterday and xhinese new year's ever I got hongbao altogether got 210..haha.. still not enough leh,.. cos, some wanna buy stuffs some wanna keep in bank de.... Then went to river hongbao at cityhall with my mum..she's my director and camera crew.. and I kinda did some hosting.. lolx.. I talked like kinda nervous loh...haiyo.. hate screwing up man.. after filming I went back to my grand mother's place and played the video.. letting my relatives watch... haha.. Watched finished le, I was looking at some VCDS which belongs t my uncle.. then I came across this VCD called Anaconda.. I last time wanted to watch that movie in theatres then didn't got the chance to watch.. so end up, I watched that movie on VCD.. WOW.. THE SHOW IS REAL NICE..

The movie talks about, a particular team were at the jungle, ..hmm..not really a jungle is a place called the amazon river which is located at south america. didn't expected was there were mostly all kinds of snakes.. besides snakes, there were other animals. The team stayed on a old ship, and there is this particular guy who is a so call villager in this amazon river. Anaconda is indeed a giant snake where the people worship to.. This giant snake is extremely big, long and it can even eat big animals and humans.. is nice, exciting, scary.. Hmm.. I wonder if there such a giant snake in real life.. hmm.. if i'm not wrong other country has it.. some says, that giant snake is made up by using computer..haha.. hmm.. interesting moive, there were not only one giant snake, instead there were 2.. The giant snake had already eaten a few people from the team.

what i realised is the whole movie is filled with lots of snakes.. eek... this anaconda can live on land and water, it grabs the prey and holds them real tightly till their bones break. lastly, it'll open its mouth, and begin to eat the mouthful of its prey, and somehow takes a long time to digest due to its length, size of its mouth..

2006-01-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

hmm....haha got lotsa things to say.. heex.. ya, starting from wednesday, I went to see a doctor due to my eye infection even asked the doctor about homone injections haha.. but homone jabs only specially recommended for kids below 10 years old. then I went home, sleep, watch tv then get ready to go out and meet my dear.. we went to east coast.. heex. then brought him to that place where qing tian, me suyu, xin xin used to hang out that so called jetty.. ya, stayed there till 2130hrs...

then yesterday, wei x came to my house to do treatment... he came round 2200hrs.. glad he is satisfied with his hair now.. ya, before he came to my place, he asked me to chatted with him.. haha.. then he came to my place liao we talked alot .. haiz.. wei x wei x, my special friend and soulmate always.. sometimes, really think back about how he sorta stepped into my life...

today, after work went to bedok to meet my mum as she wanted to buy flowers before buying flowers went to eat, then talked alot of stuffs.. then I finally say my secrets out ... like how many ex I have etc etc.. I told her about me and Nivel's stuffs. at first she keep on ask then after that, I slowly told her... heng ah.. she didn't say anything sso mean or what.. I'm already 18 she also cannot scold or beat me wad... ya, at least feel much more relieved.. better to say out rather than she find out herself...

haiyo, that day my dear say he lose his ring.. haiz... I never blamed him for that lah.. really... anyway, I also never wear my ring le.. at first I was like what?? ha, gone liao ar.... like that only... I never make noise or got angry about it.. I hope he doesn't blame himself bout it till now.. dear, anything goes wrong, as long as you honest can le.. ya... always loving you no matter what...

Hurray! another 2 more days to chinese new year.. can't wait.. I bought my high heel plattforms le.. before buying, I tried it on, then i ''parade'' around the departmental store as if doing cat
walk or auditioning for America's next top model ...lolx..heex.... After CNY me going to x-ray for my teeth cos I going to wear braces le.. then mum say she will help me asked chinese sinseh about accupunture to see whether I can grow tall anot..cos, she said her friend slim down due to accupunture.. haiya, slim down and gain height is a different thing lah.. hmmm... wanna wish everyone a happy new eyar.. may you people get more hongbao this year too.. and also wanna faster go back to school....

2006-01-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

rewind back.. hmm.. wednesday was me and him 2nd month anniversary liao.. too bad.. didn't get for each other anything.. aiya.. doesn't matter whether have presents anot.. heex.. yeah, we went to watched a movie.. watched The Dark. then after that he pulled me go take neoprint.. haha to bad can't get to see it now cos, I trying to scan them... After spending time with each other, I went to macpherson to meet yun mama, long papa, eddie and the others as we are celebrating wei x's birthday.. wei x treated us.. haiz.. so bored short of ling, xin xin,carol, su yu, charlene, kelvin... wow I got home bout 11 something

yesterday, ling came to rebond her hair.. sorry ling, cos i accidentally make you say ouch.. wah lau her inner hair damn short very hard to do sia.. but glad she like it.. hehe... hmm.. another 9 more days to chinese new year.. and I'm really glad thati really made it through andhang on to this r/s and gain back my confidence le bah, I hope this will be my lst r/s for my teenhood.. just hoping this will last.. I wanna prove to myself and to my ex that I can make it.. and without him around I'm not a useless person..

what to say now?? hmm.. I gotta know of this couple named alan and shu hui( they are nivel's friends) really envy them.. they like so perfect, never quarrel at all like that.. so en ai, they next month one year already wor... hmm.. how I wished I can be like alan and shu hui.. I really pei fu shu hui, she's a bei ai de nu ren with a good bf by her side. they from the same polytechnic,same age... not say I not satisfied with what I have.. but shu hui told me that a r/s is not perfect.. ya quite true from my point of view, no one and nothing is perfect on earth...

anyway, just wanna tell my dear that once he read this he won't get mad or what... I just wanna say, I'm glad that I gained back my confidence.. though he wasn't the one who helped me forget my ex.. but he helped me to forget my past.. he already stepped into my heart for a long long time liao wor..I never ever treated him as a substitue..

yaya, ok lah,.. looking forwrd to chinese new year man.. reallly hope I can get more hongbao this year, was thinking of opening my house to people who wanna come, take hongbao then pai pai pi ku zou ren..hoho.. i'll so the same thing too...

2006-01-15T13:58:00.000+08:00

haha time to update.. yaya, wednesday,11th jan is my grad ceremony.. hex, me and ling really like twins cos from top to bottom we are wearing the same thing.. haha.. then friday suppose to be night cycling with xinxin's church youth group in the end the envent was postponed to 10th march haiz.. so boring so I went out with her and qing tian, we walked from the esplandae to boat quay then from boat quay back to the esplanade and took a train home..

yesterday, went to chinese sinseh at PS my aunt and cousin took me there... my leg pain happen after my grading the sinseh say i got ligament tear then he have to bandage my leg and have to take medicine,... cannot move about alot then at night, went to chinatown..wah.. at first damn stress loh my mum keep on bug me asked whether got any clothing i like anot.. went to a few shops and couldn't find a single piece at last still got find lah..haiz.. wah lau chinatown damn crowded then got one shop I really buay song with one uncle, my aunt and mum asked the person whether got my cousin sized foor one paritcular vietnamese costume they say don't have.... then just wanna take a look and see can fit my cousin anot..the uncle damn lazy say wait must fold back if we don't buy then my mum say she will help him fold back wah at that time i really du lan, I thought of wanna wreck his shop and say like that might as well don't make business fold back the clothes will die is it?? his other helper also got fold back the clothes and keep into the plastic bag what... realy loh..wanna find his trouble leh.. but cannot lah, i pai ka...

then after shopping at chinatown my mum and I took the train back.. wah lau when reached tampines right, I was about to tAP my EZ-link card got one stupid indian guy just jumped my queue..nnb, bully pai ka.. haiz... then I told my mum bout this incident she asked me whther I got scold that guy anot I say don't have lah.. wait people think this pai ka is mad one..

wah being a pia ka got advantages and disadvantages
advantages: being treated like an empress, don't need to do work( example; housework)

disadvantages: get bullied, but too bad cannot fight back lah
then cannot bath so many times a day, the bandage part cannot touch water

argh.... my mum say my leg caused by my TKD if like that hor, must give up my hip hop, yoga, tkd, pilates liao lah.. i don't want that to happen.. i wanna complete my tkd.

wah lau next few days must bath once a day i buay tahan ar.. cos, ogf my bandage ma, must put plastic bag.. i at least bath 3-4 times a day de leh.. haiz... by wednesday then can removed my bandage.. sian tomorrow can't work.. must rot at home liao. if anyone of you damn free wanna find me pls give me a call first, but too bad can;t ocme out with you guys..

2006-01-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my grading.. yeah, bout that matter is done already.. ya, thanks ling and suyu for being there for me.. today got a shocked when I go and see his blog and quite surprised to see suyu tagged his tag board... haiyo....

after grading we 2 were much better with each other.. at that time after grading I went to eat with debbie, nick , rebecca and him.. ya, then it was still raining loh.. haiyo.. then while walking down the stairs, he slipped and fell and hurted his bums bah.. gosh.. my shoulder damn pian at that time, cos when he fell right, his hand pressed on my shoulder real hard.. ouch!!!! but now ok le lah..

then after that, had our lunch, then we like nothing to talk end up I say I wanna go for a walk.. then nick and rebecca accompanied me walked around toa pyoh central.. then went to the library.. kept on thinking what went wrong between us then I ran to the loo and locked myself up in the cubicle and cried.. was really surprised that rebecca came into the loo then she asked me to open and let her in... she down there comforted me... then nick say wanna treat me eat something.. but don't want lah.. my mind kep on wondering around and then feel like wanna cry again like that..

then went back to the library... he asked me to followed him to one part of the library and wanted to talked to me...then he talked and talked and talked. I down there speechless... then I just walked away. then he asked me not to go.. I don't care but I still walked off... I was walking off to the loo.. came back from the loo, i wnet back to that corner where he was there, at first, I hid the other side then I peeped and saw him on the phone talking to his friend.. then the thing I can't stand guy crying.. wah lau, he cried sia.. aiyoh, don't know what to do whether to hug him or slaped him and say you kaobei, kaobu what?? but I didn't do anything.. then he typed on his phone asking me this question :'' do you still want this r/s?" then I used my HP and typed back.. then after that, he asked me where is the loo, i pointed to him the directon then he asked me to accompany him.. so i did.... while waiting, my stomach suddenly very pain don't know why

haiz.. ok bout today, went out with ling and c arol as ling wanted to buy blazer for the graduation ceremony..bought her blazer, we went to long john and makan then carol went off liao left me and ling, we went to watch movie titled wallace and gromit... oh ya, die very headache don't know what to wear.friends help me vote ok.. there are a few choices here

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2006-01-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

haiz.. bout today kinda fed up with my dear loh.. first he tag my board then complaint bout me luckily Ling told him off.. good loh.. complaint complaint complaint.. only know how to complaint to your girl's friends.. think people will side you this outsider is it?? then I complaint to nick, debbie and marcus want anot.. You find my ma fan.. I find back loh.. you this kind of male chauvinist( da nan ren zu yi).. argh.. so fucked up man.. come on this year 19 liao loh.. still cannot think act like secondary one kid haven't reach puberty like that.. compaint here and there so childish.. I think is true leh asian guys are not independent than ang moh guys.. in my life my previous boyfriends won't anyhow tell people bout me loh... chinese got one saying dong xi ke yi luan chi hua bu neng luan jiang.. watch what you say.. got nothing better to say just shut your fucking mouth loh.....

want to talk bad bout me right?? just tell me in the face no need to talk behind my back you jerk, idoit, backstabber...mei jia jiao.. i wonder what you learnt all this while during your schooling for the past 10 years plus... even you get a PHD ar.. then your attitude sucks no point lah.. your PHD is call Permanent Head Damage ar...

ok lah,enough bout that fucking incident think bout it make my blood boil and is getting me on my nerves.. see lah.. my eyes, forehead got wrinkles le..no point angry with this kind of immature guy... angry le make me old faster.. haiyo.. I don't want to be called a lao char bo loh...

talked bout happy stuffs.. yesterday i went to marina bay to celebrate kelvin's 21st brthday.. haha.. wah.. then the guys long papa, wei x, kelvin's friends, david took 10 eggs and threw at kelvin.. aiyoh.... play with eggs...eh.. egg white very good for hair.. egg yolk good for the face leh..
haha can't wait to go out with ling this monday.. tomorrow my grading le... ya... for my wishes in year 2006 are listed here

wanna be taller than my mum by this year
this year red packet got more money
able to go taiwan cos, one of my mum's cousin wedding at taiwan
able to go study higher nitec and be in the same class with some of my coolster buddies

2006-01-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

wow....a new year 2006 le... lots of things to say.. yeah, haiz.. yesterday went back to school for tkd training then end up bei ka jiao by a few people...one of the senior asked me who is my boyfriend at first I didn't say one.. then end up she asked nick then she go asked my dear loh.. she smart sia.. then for training can't tie my hair cos, I've ust rebonded my hiar,.. haha..

ok lah, forward to today.. haiz..today also went down to hougang for tkd training.. yeah, at first I was being told training at hougang CC but no, is at hougang RC... gosh! i made my dear wait..sorry dear.. then on the bus we talked on the phone suddenly I du lan bout something then I showed attitude.. I should have tell him nicely.. sorry dear... haiz.. he need time to be alone..ok.. I hope it won't be like nivel say he want to be alone then we end up break up.. I don't want the same thing to happen again.. Oh ya, every month on the 9th is not a nice day for me.. cos, that day nivel broked up with me.. I hope my current dear won't say break to me.. I'm very sorry.. hope you can forgive me... me will not stop loving you just like you do.. i'm sorry.. this time is really my fault..

now, don't know how.. feel very loss and confused.. and also afarid of what gonna happen I don't wanna think of that past.. but.. don't know why I have this bad feeling that my past will ocme back and haunt me again.. part of me say I should let go but another part of me say I still love him... I wonder what is he thinking... I really wanna know.. haiz.. ok lah, let nature take its course bah.. hmm.. people, would you mind help me keep a lookout for a form saying about donating organs when you die.. I 'm loooking for that form.. cos, the donor must be 18 and above... so, when I turned 18 I gonna sign the form.. yeah, if i'm not wrong, there must be 2 witnesses...

hope to see this form around cos, I wanna donate my organs when I die..

dear, just wanna tell you.. i'm sorry ok.. bu yao bu li wo....i really don't mean to vent my frustration de.. Whatever I said and hurt you.. i'm sorry.. ya, always loving you..

2005-12-31T19:34:00.000+08:00

hmm....Time to talk.. today is the last day of year 2005..wooo hoo... tomorrow I'll be 17 going on 18 liao.. but a few things I not happy..cos, when I turn 18 I stopped growing any taller liao....wanna cry liao... haiz.. then some more, Me going to do braces soon... Ok, past few days have been a time for me to enjoy..

wednesday went to eat steamboat at marina bay with my TKD members. then after steamboat had a date with my dear..haha... then yesterday went to changi airport with my dear, we went to the garden, sit down, eat snacks, chat chat, play.. haha.. then when time to go home liao.. I very surprised he give me a goodbye hug..haha.. Had a great time with dear, then that day I got a free perfume from Long papa see, i so good asked whether got guy's perfume anot.. haha hope my dear like it lah.. heex.. wah, he so daring liao... yesterday dare to say things he don't dare to say to me all this while.. haha...

HUrry up tomorrow cos, next month 18th jan we 2nd month liao wor.. then today there is a countdown party at my place, carol, wei x, ice man, qing tian, suyu, kelvin and some others will be coming... can't wait... to go crazy for tonight... happy new year to everyone...

note to my dear: hehe, surprised that I write you a note on my blog?? anyway, dear.. I realised I'm much confident liao.. ever since my previous r/s failed... glad that, we talked things out rather than keep it inside our heart..haha.then, you always do things make me smile, even in my sleep and in my dreams.. hohohoho...hope we will last ok?? yong yuan zhi20 yi ge wor.. huggies!!!

+~pictures for you guys to see~_+

2005-12-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

my camp group
( from left to right)

1st row:Joel. Lionel(the one carrry watermelon), wei ren

2nd row:jasmine, me, evon, jessica, amelia, colin and glenn... haiz...short of joanne

my one month present...heex

this picture me and dear one month pic....haha

this picture i make for one of my sisters xin xin..heex... she putted this pic on her friendster profile liao

yesterday went for my aunt's church gathering..my dad pulled me go one... haiz...so long never go then most people couldn't really recognised me because people biggest impression and yin xiang of me is my red hair... but now no more red hair liao.. is there really a difference.. they say i black hair nicer.. then my gang and the others say I red hair look better... hey mind if you guys vote.. i black hiar look better or red hair look better..

2005-12-25T19:37:00.000+08:00

Merry X-mas to all bloggers, readers.... Yeah, yesterday Ling came to my house to download and grab some of my songs to put into her MP3 player.. Then from my home, we went out together, went to cineleisure first we thought of watching movie but end up didn't get what we wanted.. so End up went to eat, shop around and looked for Carol and SHi yun at taka..

Long time no see to most of my coolster gang... Then Yun mama told me that Long papa is working at wisma isetan selling perfume... Gucci perfume leh..don't play play... Then Ling and I got a mini free Gucci ladies perfume. Then I asked long papa for another one this time is guy's de..haha... I shopped for a few christmas present within my budget.. haha.. ling and I went to Heeren take neoprint... Then went back to taka to look for yun mama and lOng papa they are going to their friend Yn ting's place... Then I took a train to Bugis, and meet my mum... went to OG looked for Suyu and get some stuffs for my camp members. and some of the youth advisors... haha. I'm satisfied...

Today I gave out all my presents, sian diao...that colin ran off liao..haiz...then end up I asked uncle charlie to pass it to him... The rest of my group members got their presents.. I wrapped all my presents 2 layers... Thwn that mini prefume i wrappped many layers..haha may the recepient who receive it happy opening.. I rather give presents than received them..ling, hope you like your present...

oh yes, coolster gang memebres. are you guys available cos, I was thinking of having a small party at my place.. is it ok with you guys... the party starts in the evening time... if you guys can, do let me know..

2005-12-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

back from my camp...later will be going to my dad's place to stay till friday.. hmm...I really loved my camp alot...I loved yesterday the best.. Because We gotta prepare our special night by putting up a skit..Then yesterday game was palying water bombs etc etc while doing the water bombs for our own group I was chatting with Colin and Glenn about noodles,..then Glenn say he selling wan tan mee, fishball noodle, all kinds of mee lah... that's why I call him a mee seller...then down there he and I shouted Lelong lelong.. Glenn siao one....say buy 2 get one free slippers..lame leh then the last bomb he took the plastic bag and filled up with water so I purposely asked him, "wah! this time you throw what mee, ban mian ar?" he say laksa..lolx...

By the way, wanna thank my group

The leader of the group: Lionel
Assistant leader: Evon
Members: Camp nurse/ my camp buddy Jasmine
Jessica
Glenn (''mee seller'')
Wei ren
Colin (Mandai zookeper for elephants)
Amelia
Joanne
Joel

Youth advisors: my god brother Xianjie
Xu En

ai si ni men le..heex

heh heh... yeah, the performance putted up 4 groups... we have to pick 2 shows and a few different characters from certain show, songs, phrases and jumble everything together..

left to right: darren, my kor kor, xian jie,marcus and gordon...

I loved the skit..where Marcus and Joseph act as girls putting on make up and using small balls as their boobs..lolx... Then Darren acted 2 roles one is superman one is Phua chu kang's wife Rosie..hahaa... damn funny..popular characters got buzz light year,powerpuffr girls, barney, harry potter, phua chu kang, mojo jojo, donald trump, tyra banks and some others

For my group, our 2 shows are lord of the rings and baywatch we gotta combined these 2 shows man... then one the first scene wei ren, glenn and colin came up..when it was colin's turn to show up, and the narrator read out saying he became a zoological garden zookeeper for the elephants then we sang the elephant song in mandrin..I couldn't remember who suggested singing the elephant song.. is either, glenn, colin or me... then colin and friends talked about going to phuket island, actually we were planning to say sail to phuket island then end up we changed the idea I suggested that colin treat glenn and wei ren to phuket by aeroplane.. yeah, certain things I've suggested, the group just go along with it..haha..that's good..I can't wait to get my CDS cos it contains the photographs and videos....hehe... I loved yesterday performance Is damn funny till I couldn't stop thinking about it....

wow! lights out were at 1 am...very song, so end up I went to the hall, then become DJ use MP3 Player play the music and put it near the mic.. not only that , JOseph used his HP. Then we listend, sing, scream... then he keep on play Jay chou song, then whenever any guy come in Kenji, joseph, and the others will shout '' zhoou jie lun''... Then I say if got 5 guys is k one,183 club.. Then jasmine say 5566, if 3 guys is Typhoon ( toro currently in that band), if 4 girls is 7f, solo girl- Cyndi wang xing ling or Jolin, 4 guys- energy... JOseph added in say 3 girls then S.H.E... yesterday very hiong then end up hungry.. I finished my showwer, then saw joseph and Kenji they came up with cup noodles then Joesph offer me to eat his cup noodel... he asked me eat half and must left some for him... Then end up he asked me to eat all then he go cooked another packet for himself..haha..thanks joseph.. Drink Coca cola, is from Colin de...colin very ke lian, he got coca cola then other few ppl go drink his coke...

haiz... today, we woked up late....haiz..the floor very hard to sleep some more my sleping bag so thin..then climb up and down take stairs..good! free tkd training for myself... first day of the camp, Kenji say he saw me at TKD grading...haha..he blue belt leh... then whenever he very disturbing, I give him a back trast.. then we pretend to sparring...

Came back I shared cab with Jasmine, Xue Bing and Wei Jie... hmm...really had a great time can't stop thinking about yesterday..I really long for yesterday

2005-12-18T03:25:00.000+08:00

heex..time to talk cos next few days can't update my blog le...as I'll be away for my camp..

Yeah, friday,16th december celebrate 1 month anniversary in advance...heex..then went to the esplandae roof terrace... then down there chat, play, exchange present...haha... then end up, don't know why I sit on his lap then say next time go courts must find a sofa that has a good quality like his leg... then lie on his stomach..haha.... then aiya. must go courts find a better pillow liao... stayed there till about 11pm... He had a great time can le lah...then he very funny say want to see my ring...haiyo....then he pulled out from my finger.. piggy back me for a while...heex... then talked alot of stuffs... can feel some closeness le bah...

all the time keep on tickle each other..heh heh...disturb leh, pinched my cheeks...then when he sent me off to MRT station, he offered me mentos....so cute and sweet of him....haha....first time guy want send me home offer me sweets de...my ex boyfriends leh, never offer me anything loh...a goody will be better...haha...

17th december, celebrate my uncle's birthday at clarke quay ate seafood... then on my way to clark quay my plattforms snapped off... then when I wanna took the second escalaotr, what the fuck?? escalator broke down..end up I took off my footwear and ran up... then ran up liao, I wore back my footwear...haiz...don't know why, when wanna spoil don't spoil then want to spoil at special events...last time i got one gathering to go... I waS about to board the train, then someone stepped on my footwear then the strapped came off...end up must get out of the station and asked the cobbler to mend it....luckily he did a quick job and he charged me quite cheap... I walked so slow then my mum called me and I told her my situation and she brought my aunt's sandals and I wore it....then end up, I went to buy a footwear...haiz..the footwear considered cheap

hmm. shopping centres will close to midnight. so my aunt, cousin my mum and I went to PS...Then went t Suntec....when wanna go home, the taxi stand very crowded... long queue...tried to snatch a cab but can't lah...then first send my aunt and cousin home lastly followed by my mum and me...gosh! the ''mad '' driver drive like what keep on make me bumped on every corner of the back seat...haha...till i seh liao...and very energetic...hahah....

dear, take care ok?? when I not around hor.... miss you... hmm.... ling so how?? 24th dec confirm going out together ar....when u see this msg tag my board and update me ar..if got anything....ya... take care..miss you ppl

2005-12-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

haha back! tomorrow 16th december going out with my dear...heex... will bring him to one part one cty hall( only xin xin know where is that place) planning to give him a surprise.. yeah, missed TKD, hip hop dancing and pilates..haiz.... then Tuesday went for my dental appointment... then next appointment must arrange again next appointment must do x-ray cause i wil be putting on braces real soon.. gosh! that dentist who done polishing for me is rather gentle lah.. but then, he say I must pluck 4 of my teeth( 2 top and 2 bottom)... haiz who asked me have big teeth that end up no space.. so must pluck..don't pluck also can but later it will pop out a little... haiz...don't know lah..hopefully don't pluck lah..

then yesterday, after work, went to TM and CS to buy some stuffs.. bought a blouse, then bought one month anniversary present... heh heh.. the present is couple type de lah... at first I don't dare to aksed the sales girl cos, I kinda shy then the sales girl very smart know I buying the stuff for bf..haha.. Hope when he receive le, will like it..heex..

Then today I send the thing for engraving leh... engraving service is free de lah..heex... I asked the sales girl engrave his name on the item I wanna give him and another one I asked her engrave my name that one with my name is for my own de..haha...

Dear, I miss you leh..haiz...next time go tkd when I not around ok?? don't depend on me too much..I NOT YOUR mummy leh..haha. whatever you not happy or whatever just say out. you'll feel better I know you trust money more than people..hmmm but that is not a right way lah... as you know money is a root of all evil loh ..ya.. ok lah, don't nag le lah, I can see that so far, things between us is much better than last time lah..

2005-12-11T21:27:00.001+08:00

Ok, last week was my week busy enjoying life..thursday went to celebrate charlene's birthday at k box.. stupid k box staff keep on chase us to leave quickly...feel like wanna take one of our gang people da glass and splash at them and tell them to shut up.lolx.. then went to long john to eat and took neoprints with my sisters and tkd buddy suyu..yeah, took some pictures while at k box...

Friday went to the zoo took a bus to woodland then took a cab..not any ordinary cab..is london cab leh.. with my dad and my cousin brought my video cam and digital camera... was busy filming an even took pictures with my videocam as my backup photos... haha gots uploading stuffs to do..

at the zoo can see some of my coolster gang memebers..haha...wx, ostrich, qing tian, giraffe cos his neck is long ma..., ice man penguin, yun mama elephant, ling and charlene piggy.... but never saw the komodo dragon( in chinese) that one is long papa..

yeah, my video at least film for 2hours man..until the stupid battery went dead brought a spare one, end up still no batt.... argh..bloody kuku

after our trip we went to causeway point to eat KFC then went shopping... then took bus 168 back to tampines... hope my cousin had a great time

yesterday very jia lat, cos I have a very bad stomach cramp the whole day plus a headache... haiz... then he know liao like kinda heart break bah... so end up I slept early loh...

today, went to the gym for my hip hop dancing lesson then went to cityhall to meet xin xin...
walked around suntec city and marina square then we went to esplanade the roof terrace and chit chat...hahaha...was talking to her about filming some dramas on this roof terrace...I thought of filming Zi jing zi dian with my coolster gang and probably will get people to be involoved in this drama... our zi jing zi dian is singapore edition cast by most people from ite college east, simei..haha..

then we went to bugis and take neoprint... heex.. yeah, then she and me took the bus back home... I have to walk to sim lim square and take a direct bus home... then at sim lim square bus stop, I bumped into xin xin again...so qiao... had a great time...next week going to camp le...will be back on the 23rd december... next week me and him a month liao... got something to plan.. I suppose I gotta go out with him one day before our one month thingy cos on the day, i going for my camp...haiz,... then 24th gonna meet my sisters again to celebrate christmas...

hehe (hey dear, I miss you like crazy..thanks for your concern. always wanna mei yi tian mei yi fen, mei yi miao with you...)

2005-12-07T12:54:00.000+08:00

ok..now to write on this blog.. gosh! my right shoulder, both of my legs and my back are real pain due to monday stuffs...argh...today cannot train tkd liao lah.. only can go there do nothing..haiz... yeah, got a video cam....haha....then yesterday went to orchard, raffles place, boat quay to film the popular places in singapore...yeah, then yesterday suyu came to return me mr fighting VCD... she went to tampines ITE for TKD training..she got asked me go one....then I told her say I never go...wah...tomorrow 8th december celebrating charlene's birthday then is my pay day some more..wonder how much i'll get..cos, I late don't know how many times late at least 3 times also have ar...

ok lah..let you guys what I did for monday in details

1845hrs-1945hrs Yoga lesson( suppose to be pilates howver there were changes)
1955hrs-2055hrs Hip Hop dancing Multi level
2105hrs-2205hrs Body combat( something like kick boxing)

haiz.... yoga was okay for me lah... then I realised for hip hop multi level is more lively and interesting...the other members in hip hop dancing can move real well, so felxible and relax... haha..

ok lah, past few days till now, things between he and me can say not so bad bah..haha... Yeah, thanks to suyu for her advice...other than thank her, I also want thank the others... Yeah, suyu is right cos we might not know whether in future we will regret bout certain thing...haha... I hope lao tian don't play tricks on me can le lah... ok lah, don't think too much le lah, just let nature take its course.. time will tell everything is not for me to do anything right now as I can't predict what will happen in future

2005-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

BACK! got lotsa stuffs to say..hmm...ya, start from thursday me and Qing Tian went to Great world City for our job interview at Guardian...hehe glad to have a buddy with me then we say hao liao take pay liao...will go eat japanese food..hiaz...this time i break my promise... I got some reason I have to cancelled that job offer of mine..sorry Qing Tian, I really don't mean it....really sorry hope you don't angry with me for life.. Then we took the shuttle bus back to Orchard.Went to had lunch with Carol, 2 of her friends and Qing Tian can called him Da wei cos his name is David so translate in chinese is Da wei loh..haha..ok I shall cut the stuffs bout da wei or Qing tian...

Friday, went to Ling concert..hehe she performed very well... I did not went alone. I went with ahem!( you ppl know who lah hor).. Yeah, then gave him the bottle of cranes I've been busy folding all this while... is not any ordinary cranes there are different kinds of thing written on the pieces of origami paper... examples can be found around my blog.... he liked the cranes can liao lah...so happy he like...don't tell me he gonna unfold them then go read what I've written...

Yesterday went to had my dinner at a Japanese restaurant..heex..had sashimi..then Have been busying sms-ing my colleague then told me what happened. Then she told me about yesterday say Madam came then not happy then say during break time cannot talk to your own team member... what the FUCK???? little bit of things also cannot...argh....then might as well say cannot shit, eat, etc etc.. argh..hear this news make me so FUCKED UP man..

I must say Metro Causeway pint sucks man...hope ar..I superviosr of that store then can kick that current supervisor .... then they got one aunty say ar...cannot work at a place where there is more malay...cos, malay like to bully chinese...don't know is it true anot lah....then down there ar...got one security one is a malay lady some old bitch lah...she look like a pontianak sia when I think of her...aiyo...she bully me sia... slap her ar...that time I even showed attitude to her I don't bother, don't care ar....just ji tao show attitude to her ar.. Then my mother say I should deman to see the manager...

ar..whatever lah..over liao lah...angry also no point ma..haha I' so happy..happy can le la....cant wait for this thur cos I can take my pay and I can celebrate my sister charlene birthday...with other sisters, brothers etc etc.. eh..ya hor, then next friday going to zoological garden with my dad and cousin...hmm....18th decemeber...wah...so fast cos me and him a month liao when we reached this date..heh hehe...ok lah..no more nonsense...

~~~~~~~~^^^^nitex!!!!!!!!~~~~~^^^^^

2005-11-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

TIme to talk again... Yeah, monday went to metro, causeway point to take back my punch card then talked to some of my collegues however my working friend that malaysian guy who want to jio me one not there he went back to malaysia ma... yeah, I asked his collegue to pass him the message say I no longer at Metro liao...cos, I changing to another outlet but don't know where yet. Then went to eat MCdonalds. then shop around I bought Mr fighting VCD. By 5566 Zax Wang and Tony sun, esther and joanne from sweety... heh heh.. then took the bus back to tmapines and went to my dad's place wang zi bian qing wa

argh...what the hell? Metro say don't want me so no choice my company gotta find another outlet for me....haha... nevermind anyway that place also sucks is a dream come true for me to get out of that fucking place but I'll miss the other staffs there... well, if I'm free I can go there..

Yesterday is the best time with my gang; Xin Xin, qing tian, Ling, Suyu, Yun mama. Then they went to my place we watched Mr fighting. After Xin xin and Ling left, WX came. Then we continued to watch mr fighting till my dear came..haha....surprised that I got attach again liao hor...well, actualy Got attached few weeks ago liao lah...haha.. yeah did Yun mama's hair and WX's hair too...haha....Tao yan! this WX copy Gino's old hair style...haha...he go dye the part white like Gino.. Hope they like it very much.

hmm..past few days nothing to do..did some rubbish by making poster adding my favourite idols and another poster is full of ZJZD pictures..... when you see liao tell me which one nicer.. cos I wanna add onto my blog skin

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2005-11-27T17:18:00.000+08:00

haha time to update liao wor...hmm..wonder how is my sisters and brothers...well, still received sms-es from xin xin and ling...hmm...Long papa went to Brunei last friday bah. he'll be back on the 7th just one day before charlene birthday celebration..hehe...Last friday and yesterday didn't work....sian diao..I think I going to find another job again... got multi job liao..hahahaha...

Yesterday went to my mum's cousin's wedding....yeah, then the dinner ended bout 10... hmm....past few days don't know what is wrong with me, think bout him then don't know why I feel so weird etc etc.... then yesterday chatted with him on the phone. After chatting with him, Then zhu dong called me so I called him back then we chatted. Well you know what? I gave him a new name called Qing tian( sunny in mandrin) this is because he is our sunshine among our gang... he always bring laughter, joy to us man....hmm...thanks qing tian..after talking to you and listening to your jokes and stories I really felt ok....

Today went to Califronia fitness club cos at that afternoon around 12 plus I got hip hop dance class..weeehehehe.. yeah see lah I watched too much ZJZD then feel like wanna dance le lah... not bad lah, mangae to follow at first kinda clumsy de... Then after that went to Orcahrd went Heeren to collect my Adidas windbreaker which I have reserved 2 days ago... hehe got my windbreaker liao...the one Gino is waaering..hehe.. so happy...hmm..hurry up 8th december leh..cos I can take pay then can celebrate charlene mei de birthday..hmm..suyu hope u and him wil be ok soon..ya...

2005-11-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

I guess is time I have to say this out... I really don't know what is going on and wanna know what is happening..please don't keep in the dark if you really have something to tell me...whenever I fold the cranes, tears will roll down.. other than folding cranes, aI always take them out counting one by one to see if there are 365 cranes..I folded 365 cranes is because I hope to be by your side every minute, every day, every second till my time is up...think of you, I feel hapy and my heart will ache....I really don't know what to do?? sometimes I think whether to continue like this or to stop it...though my feelings is still there, I have the feeling that this will happen again just like my past... think of you when I'm alone, I tend to cry but I tried my best to hold my tears..whenever I am suppose to cry, I just simply can't cry out and when I'm not suppose to cry out tears eventually flow....I don't want to be like this... someone tell me what to do?? I'm confused, feeling with mixed emotions.... whatever it is....you're constantly marked in my heart and never be forgotten... I rather we still like each other like before and probably don't be together... I just hope I can be your angel till i'm gone and seeing you finding your happiness...

today I go school meet WX, then we went Bugis ate Yoshinoya.. then went to take neoprint.... haha.. then after that, went to GH for his dental appointment..haha then he did his upper teeth brace...haha next time my turn to do brace..my upper teeth the right side crooked.. then must do brace..actually when I was bout 12 or 13 my dad keep on want me to do brace...then dragged until I 15 years old my mum realised my teeth crooked then must go do..aiyah drag until last year and now loh..so this year must confirm do le.....

2005-11-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

Back from my chalet...my gang( kelvin, suyu, ice man, ling, charlene, long papa, yun mama, eddie,xin xin, wei li, david,carol and PTL WX) had a great time..played true or dare..then I kena must do pole dancing....WX is that pole..he tallest among the guys...hai...ke lian de WX, is the others wanted him to be the pole then I be the pole dancer..ar... Haiyoh...that charlend so ke lian..being bugged by her stupid superglue boyfriend that justin.. Before I went to sleep, I ate 2 plates of bee hoon, then around 0420hrs my dad called..kao bei..then I went back to sleep didn't answer the phone...shocked leh..middle of the night suddenly got one head on my pillow..chae..is Wei Li..then asked can share pillow ma..i just nod my head lah...then I kept turning then I think he kept on pat my head and say sleep lah.....

then got up around 7 plus...actually I wanted to wake up around 4 to eat but cannot i told myself wait later got work., must have energy then end up sleep very long. Well, yesterday went to walked with xin xin then I told her bout a idol drama I watched lah..a brief review on that drama... that drama is zi jing zi dian( top on the forbidden city) by k one, 5566 sam, zax and tony

ok story time again... zjzd is actually talking bout dance, the strength, the motivation, it also covers bout kinship, romnace, friendship...

kinship- qing tian( JR) is an orphan since he was young he was abandoned and left at the gates of the temple and was being taken in by master qiu.master qiu had a daughter Xiao ying( joanne from sweety). master qiu taughted them some kind of kung fu called ba jia jiang other than qing tian and xiao ying there are 2 others they are jun dao( smille from typhoon) and yi dong. 20 years later Qing tian knew who was his birth mother his birth mother was Monica a dance teacher of Royal entertainment.

Romance- Xiao Ying got to know a guy named Tian Xie( Gino). Xiao ying got to get the chance to work at royal entertainment and she manage to get close to Tian xie. However Tian Xie had someone he couldn't forget ther person was his ex girlfriend Jessica. Later Xiao ying realised that Qing Tian has fallen for her too.. On her birthday Tian xie brought her out he wanted to tell her how he felt all this while..but is just that, tian xie couldn't express himself he is the type who deosn't REALLY like to talk alot a guy who is alone and isolate himself. he even let people misunderstand him

Romance ( II)- Aki(nancy) and fire( 5566 sam) are from royal... The team Royal is made of 5 people they are hei zi( li yang), Tin( Kido) and An xi( Darren). Aki and fire are the 'king and queen' of royal. Fire is a guy who is rather bad tempered but he is willing to do anything for Aki...At that time, Aki and fire always have lots of misunderstanding between each other. For the first time, she liked tian xie followed by qing tian. It was Qing tian who gave her the courage and strength to live again.

Friendship- qing tian is a big brother of jiang jun tang together with xiao ying, jun dao and yi dong..he is the one who always take charge of responsiblities...even though, he is not suppose to be responsible for certain stuffs, he too, is willing to take the risk and help his brothers and friends

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Freindship (ii)- Aki wanted to look for Xiao ying regarding bout tian xie, however her paln fail and was being harassed by some ''traids '' it was xiao ying who saved her and in the end, they became friends

~~~~~+________End of my summary________+~~~

talking bout today, yeah started work late, then end up had my eyebrows trimmed.. Today busy tlaing cock, gossip with my colleagues bout our boss she told me what has been happening for the past few days she said that the boss from our main office had been monitoring the staffs...and he made alot of noise saying that we never do anything only know how to walk up and down...bloddy hell..I gave him a nickname called
superglue this is because, he likes to come and watch over us stick to us near our counter and bug us... I was rather stunned to hear that....then my colleague say wanna resign and she gonna buy super glue...wahaha..so lame

2005-11-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

Back! to update my blog...heex..today last paper....haha..then my holiday le..woo hoo...can enjoy life le...wahaha....gonna start work almost everyday bah from next week onwards..yesterday meet xin xin at city hall...I reached there early so I walked to City Link mall then stepped into Adidas shop... had a hard time looking for some stuffs I wanted....Then that shuai-ge of the adidas shop asked me whether want to take that jacket or not..he say last piece...argh..too bad..bo money.... I have been looking for jackets, windbreakers and track pants under Adidas de...but damn ex.. got one jacket 69 something....haiz....see lah.....I not adidas fan de...then watch zi jing zi dian those artise wore adidas clothes..buay pai.....quite nice.. Gino in Adidas wind breaker .

Nancy in brown jacket..this one also under adidas. Tried looking for the same type ... after meet xin xin, we went to esplanade with xin xin to study then after studying we went to PS to meet David then walked to orchard saw Yun mama at Giordano then we thought she knock off from work..but no leh..she starting work..haiyo....then Yun mama say, long papa, wei li and some others are still around orchard then david called long papa..then yan ting( yun's girlfriend), wei li, and long's friend plus the 3 of us went to cineleisure then WX called me..he's real fast man..from taka can catch up with us..what to do ?? people got long legs ma...yeah, the guy went to play pool...then yan ting, wx and me went to heeren.

Left early, then went down to my workplace wanted to find some of my working collegues and working friends...hai...diana-jie that manicurlist not there,..she went to J8 bah....haiz....wahaha today after school so bored so went todo some shopping went to hang ten bought 2 pairs of trousers then ended up also join member....haha....wah....haha this saturday gotta run from one place to another..afternoon to late afternoon at metro..then evening time all the way I at New Park hotel....haha....hurry up get money, hurry up buy 6680, creative neeon, hurry up pay bills and whatever...

2005-11-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

Argh... thinking back bout this morning stuff I wanna buay tahan le and can't stop thinking.....This morning went back to my church then they have mini fair..then bumped into many of my youth group friends... then my junior that Jason, chatted with me for a while then suddenly asked me bout me and my ex not Nivel hor...the other guy before Nivel his name is that Derek..argh...I DL ar...when Jason told me what that MF said..... He said bad things bout me..fine, then even insult and say like how he wished he could have take advantage of me( you know lah) in the first place while I was still with him..then say I very Ah Lian, he leh?? people say he Ah beng..Big fuck! he go claimed that he is the one who ditched me..actually I was the one who initiate the break up...Jason say he know that cannot be he break with me de...

Ok lah, let me give you guys a clearer picture and is story time..wahaha.....yeah, it happen like this..that MF ad me were in the same church, then know him for quite some time then we went steady, we were together about 3 months. Then at that time, I was kinda shy cos, I didn't ever let guys hold my hand or touch me mah..then he always KPKB about this loh....tell Jason say, i very what....don't allow him to hold hand etc etc....yeah, so?? can say I'm a little too conservative at that time....Some more, my palms will get sweaty...he cannot understand my situation is it? Then whenever we never talked or call each other, he sometime will asked whether am I seeing another guy... what the fuck?? man, how can he anyhow suspect me..I'm not that type who flirt or what.. his attitude sucks thats why I broke up with him..I can't stand him... then on the day we broked up he kept on tired to call me,msg me and even get his God-brother to talked to him.

The last time I saw him was this year while having some gathering with my church friends..then he said he was sorry for what he had done to me in the past... Then now, stab me at the back....He some more anyhow say things which are not true trying to ruin my reputation.....well, alot of people also don't quite like him. Jason say whenever he talked, he'll always used vulgarities...but heard he now in army then jason say his hair like beng man.... too bad lah derek....can't get what you want..you think Im stupid to let you make use of me?? better watch what you say else I can sue you for slandering....I won't sue you but maybe in future your company will do that...

may I ask, what have I done? why must you do this to me, even how much you hate me you can't say things which are not true you know?? you are ruining my reputation.don't think I don't know what you've done....you ever bribed Li xing and Lionel if they can ever get my number right, fortunately the both of them didn't followed your way. Beware you'll get your retribution..BLP, jerk. WTF?? YOU mf, knn nnb ccb,s on of the bitch, bastard.

NO strength to talk so much le lah....today went out to study with Xin Xin then after study we took neoprint..weee..so kawaii ne....haha

2005-11-11T13:05:00.000+08:00

haha time to update my blog..yeah past few days..hmmm..yeah, tuesday was my twins cousin birthday and my first ex, justin birthday same day......haha At last! our power point and report done finished....like what xin xin say brain juice all used up..wahahaha...ya , crack my brains while doing the report then slept at around 0315hrs, got my pay too altogether got $240.00. Then wedensday, was tkd training...wah lau I asked my junior come for training end up he went there and sleep..haiyo...while was having break thought of want to splash water at him de..but don't want i where got so bad...

haiz yesterday knew bout my IA grades I only can say one word to illustrate.. Sucks...argh..shit my future gone le...can't go higher NITEC can't go poly...argh...this sucks I don't want to end my education here.. I want to further my studies as far as I could..I hope to get a diploma in whatever course I take in poly in future... but i this kind of pattern wait long long ar..I hate myself for being sucks in whatever I do...at work also can screw up, rehersal for dance or whatever also can screw up....argh.... last time if i didn't remember wrongly, i was in some church camp rehersing for my singing performance then I screwed up then got one of the church teacher or whoever say something like this :''IF you don't do better, one more time you go wah lau...then I tried very hard then end up never get kick out ...

Don't know why outside people thought I study poly thought I in secondary school come from the NA stream then I told them I from NT they don't believe thought I pulling their legs....but people say I look very smart look very smart so what?? just only have a pea brain..If next time get PHD, ar.. i must say not that PHD degree indeed is Permanent Head Damage..

say all this no use..must study hard, don't get C at least get a B...I want to prove others wrong..wel, I'm doing this not for others indeed for myself..... I wish whatever I hope will never be a disapppointment.... Past few days hardly fold cranes.. I got another bout 199 more to go..then my mother whenever see me fold cranes she keep on asking then I tell her don't Kpo lah..she say I fold for BF..hello since when I got BF?? well, i got someone in mind already but we haven't go steady ma....consider my bf meh???haiyo..that time got one of my working friend say like me, he zhen me de lah..he say realy like..but too bad, I say I like someone le..and asked him to wait long long for me to fall for him..haha ya loh, i hope when my junior get to come across this, there won't be so much misunderstanding . I just want to tell him ( my junior ) that my feelings haven't fade and will never fade... always by your side and loving you without flatteries..

Aiyoh. say all this..make people hair stand just like that stupid girl her bog make people hair stand...Ok, lah..today never work at the New Park hotel..that job is at new park hotel is my backup job... that means now I have 2 jobs...thanks to long papa and his friend max, for recommending me this job..glad jessica, my secondary school friend like this job...well, that day a new park hotel..altogether we have 7 people 4 are max's friends, then plus me
and jessica..jessica's brother will be joining us..woo hoo... we are team!!

2005-11-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

hmm....yesterday worked at New park hotel..under banquet service...that job recommended by Long papa's friend Max..Then my secondary school friend joined us... glad she liked her job..hahah..i suppose that banquet job is gonna be my backup job...muahahaha...not bad...actually my company called me asked whether can go down to metro, causeway point work anot...but I say can't So I told her today then go back to work...haha...Wah..I realised one thing...That place kinda sucks even though there are lots of popular shops.. I hope to change outlet...Then I today have to split myself into 2..cos, we my company have 2 ocunter one on level one and the other on the second level...actually suppose to have another promoter but that staff on MC...haiz..sian diao..

well, today sales altogether got 124 bucks..not bad bah... today took so long to get customers to buy stuffs....wah lau..I down there nothing to do...go there got free manicure, then walk around, ''xian'' cha boh(girls), da por(guys)..today went to KFC eat la...mouth damn itchy....gosh! my one and onli special tkd junior came...wahahhaa...then acoompany him go food court i down there fold cranes, listen tohis Mp3..wahahah..then around 6 plus my mother called then talked for a while loh....I say I down there xian char boh and da por....haha.. then took the escalotr up and down..cos, I said earlier I need to run to 2 places

wah...got to know one friend there...wah lau today he even go do business miss call me, go makan also call me..he very rich hor....bills not scared expensive...wah lau, he liked ice man leh...eat liao hor must go do business be it PJ, cake s--t, orh s--t, etc etc.... haiz...he mad one.....I on the bus he called I say I folding things...then phone no batt..then say I fold the cranes fold give him.....wah lau...I say ask your Gf fold lah...he say don't have..haiz...don't care him lah..he only trying to zhen wo....

2005-11-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday came back from school...gosh! lots of cockroaches on the courtyard floor. some can be found in the kitchen toilet....other than that.my mum and my bike also have lots of cockroaches...busy killing them, washing the floor, sprating insecticide...argh...who the toot done done this?? argh... fed up..

Then went to Raffles place and meeet my mum then took the bus down to my grandmother house then my mum drove the car and brought my aunt, her cousin and my gran aunt to east coast and have our meal..wah, really full leh....hahaha....

today suppose to start work at robinson, centre point..but last minute changes back to causeway point metro...wah lau.....big****..the sales today really sucks loh....then my mdm say stop work for the time being then say boss will confirm scold her de cos of poor sales..haiz...why I sucks at lots of things de...am I really sucks in whatever I do..haiz..don't know lah..maybe today hari raya ma that's why so quiet...well, even i may going to lost this job got back up plan ma..can find another job.. won't die one...today he came leh..haha...glad he is around..wahaha yesterday he say he got thing want oto asked me..i thought what then i told myself don't think rubbish...well, is some misunderstanding between us ..now everything okay le lah.... hehe...hey u know what? wo bu tong de tao hao wo zhi shi yi ge pei jiao.... wahaha

specially for my sister xin xin

2005-11-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

found this song from k one first album titled peng you de li chang.
this is dedicated to my sister xin xin.

san tian qian ni jian diao le chang tou fa,
shuo shi si le nian shi wei le ta,ni xiao de
heng mian qiang wo zhi dao ni bu neng wang
bu shouo hua ka fei mei he wan tian se yi bu zhi bu
jue bian nan ran hou zou zai zhe shou xi jie dao shang mei ge
chu chuang zai fan lai bei shang wo men nan guo de shi zhong shi bu yi
yang.

*hao xiang jiao ni wang le ta wo zhi neng zhan zai peng you de li chang shuo
shuo hua an wei yi xia shui tong wo de zheng zha deng dai hui you yong ma?
babe hao xiang jiao ni wang le ta ni zhen de shou le shang ye shang le wo heng fu zha.
wo gei ni jian bang rang ni tong ku yi chang ting liu ru ci de duan zhan.

( nan dao bu neng xiang ai ma zai peng you de li chang)

san tian lai ni shou le ba, lei le ba shuo ni xing qing cha shi wei le ta, ni bian le ge mo yang wo zhi dao ni hen jian qiang. Zhe mo shuo zhe mo rang ni tong wei shen mo wo men liang ge ren dou ji mo, zuo wang ni de shi jie na yi ban zhe wo yi chi you yi chi cuo guo zhi ting liu zai yuan di zuo zai ni shen hou..

+ About today+

Today so surprised and happy cos, he came down to lok for me...muahaha...didn't expect him to come down de...at first he sms-ed me....asking whether is my work place near the MRT anot.... I didn't reply then he really came down asked him is it he happen to past by or purposely come down he said he purposely came down..wahahahaha...so good..hey you know what? you're the first guy who purposely came down man.. bloody hell both of my legs still got blisters then while having my break he say want to lend me wear his slippers...don't need lah..is ok, i understand your good intentions..wahahah.. Well, working at metro for a few days I have received 2 compliments from the supervisor..wahahahhaa... glad that sister xin xin is ok le...wahahaha...gosh! just now went his blog, his tag board flooded man...aiyoh...some of his friends down there say him loh...wahahahaha then suddenly mentioned bout me....hai... yeah, thursday, saturday and sunday will be working again

2005-10-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

Back... Yesterday started work at another place,Metro, Causeway point. though is far for me but I have direct bus from my house... The sales was quite good some more my first day at there my sales was 352.40 not bad.. haiz.. Then after work, I took bus 969 go home cos I missed bus 168 some more scared wait I have to wait so long...Wah gosh! yesterday stomach so pain then I rushed to the toilet...No wonder...having ahem!....then my junior sms-ed me....he so free say if i cannot take it want to send me home after work.then when i didn't reply he asked is it I faint already..Yeah, that junior is he loh the one who say liked me de... Well, yesterday he couldn't guess who am I referring to..well, is time I gotta share this out now... recently I realised that I fall for my junior leh. Then he like can't sleep maybe he too happy lah... Don;t mistaken, we never went steady at all...well, i guess we gonna have this liking for each other till next life bah...hoho......i don't know..let nature take its course and let fate decide....

tomorrow, tuesday,thursday I will be working.. then as per normal saturday and sunday too...hehe..hope my sales will be good...if not very sian ..ling, feeling better ma? don't think too much ok, it will be ok as time goes by..ya

2005-10-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

haha good news I got promoted to green tip..su yu and pei wen got double they are now green belt..haha gong xi to the both of you.. well, tuesday my junior came to my place I helped him do his hair colour...he bought his own DIY then he came to my house and do..hope he liked his hair...

Yeah, today my new friend flying off to Aussie...only my gang know who am i referring to....haha...yeah he'll be back in a month time..Hmm... well, what to say ar...yeah, just now my junior came to my place again this time we exchange stuffs VCDS haha...seems taht he really like my house man...he even told me how he wished he can have a mum just like mine..well, we are not fated to choose our parents...is just that god gave us our parents to bring us into the world, take care of us and watch us grow.

Oh yes, that jerk tried to asked money from me on monday...big fuck! then he some more so clever teach me how to use my ATM card and how to transfer money to his account...ok, i purposely asked him what is the next step while transffering money.....Then he thought I transfer money give him...I say I transferring money to my relaive. haiz..just don't understand why some guys are jerks...sorry my gang..not referring to you all..I mean some.... luckily he didn't asked that question that make me feel uneasy whenever he see me will asked whether am I attached anot...I not leh....I forever left on the shelf..what do you want?? u offer yourself to me.I don't want to be attach leh.... your problem is it??? Hmm...then he say he never work cos of his medical problem..don't know if it is true anot..

Sisters, brothers, I think I know the secret and have the key of why I am not available is because I have no confidence to get into another r/s and whoever is with me will be very sad..I don't want to hurt people and hurt myself. I suppose this is the main reason....I will try to stand up on my own feet and gain back the confidence.... Oh yes, tomorrow is Brother Kun's birthday..happy birthday dude... I quite happy all this while with you people beside me....thanks alot....MIss you people always especially Leslie kor, vicent di, brother kun,jeslene mei and some others I've not seen for a long time...

2005-10-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

haha..time to update my blog liao wor..heh heh..yeah, last saturday started working.then sunday don't need to report to work..well, quite like the job hopefully I can hold on to my job for as long as possible...muahahaha...though the pay for now not alot but is ok, when I gained more experience my pay will increase...oh yes, today I did SMS-ed my AM requesting to work on the 31st october, deepavali and hari raya..cos, i only work on weekends....hehe. This week I will not be at Heeren, I will be posted to anohter outlet...when I know where am I posted to, I will let you guys know...deal?? then those nothing better to do can come and find me then can have break time together...heex

Today went to catch a movie titled election( hei se hui) yeah...actually wanted to watch skeleton key but at princess didn't show..sian diao..I nearly fell asleep...today Long papa, iced man, su yu mei mei, ling mei mei, xin hui, david, carol, eddie went to catched that movie..I am the one who pulled WX and my new friend along..hehe... Ya Ling 's friend also called wei hao..I gave him a nick called lao tee ko( old pervert) because he like to look at pretty girls so I called him a lao tee ko(old pervert) then at the stationery shop that xiao jie say he look like one lao tee ko...and that xiao jie called him a monkey..wahahaha...when ling and i said bye to that WH, i purposely say 'bye lao tee ko' then he gave chase....luckily we ran fast then ling complained saying is his fault casing her to run till she is breathless

2005-10-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeee.... good news... I found a job as a sales girl at one of Heeren shop....yeah, went for interview at the main office located at aljunied...I will be starting work tomorrow at 1 pm....gosh! i really have to attend the shop all alone and do the closing all alone..but the boss very nice asked me whether want other staff to help me up on my first day I said ok as I was afarid I will screw up especially on my first day at work..then screw up every time then end up get fired again..I hope I won't screw up and get fired like last time....haiz...nod again 1 hour $4.50 but ifmy performances ok, lady boss will pay me 5 bucks.. wish me luck, well I only work on saturday and sunday..so happy i can finally get a job..... hope I can hold on to my job for don't know how long

2005-10-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalallaa...the pictures of me and my sisters in group some are individuals

shi yun-our da-jie..

xin hui

ME Yeng Ling caRol suyu charlene
sisters always me and xin hui...xin hui look nice if she wear that jacket...

2005-10-16T14:06:00.000+08:00

wednesday 12th oct 2005

''Now having OIT...So I shun bian( at the same time) log in..to update some stuffs..haiz...yesterday slept only for about 4-5 hours only as I was busy packing my stuffs and get ready to wait for my dad to come and pick me up as I'll be staying at his place for quite some time...due to some problems that's why I decided to put up at my dad's place....gosh! the luggage is right inside the storeroom so hard for me to get it out...argh....big f***...then got lotsa bag packs, haversack to bring along....lotsa clothes... etc etc..had a hard time sorting out my stuffs..later i shall tell you guys what is the main reason of me going over to stay....this is not my first time doing that..indeed is my second time...yeah, today break time went to haven cafe to eat...hungry like hell then went for 2 rounds of meals then msut claim free ice-cream...argh..so full..then I asked ice man to helped me eat my ice cream..he shared with eddie, long papa, xin xin and eddie...yeah, thanks for helping me to eat it up...today tkd dismiss early leh....argh...body aching....well.nevermind, i now staying at my dad's place and there is this massage chair..i can use man..''

Btw, that entry above is written on last wednesday....yeah. past few days miss blogging etc...cos, i staying at my dad's place then the com there spoil cannot use....sian diao..so now i at my house IT centre using the com to blog..haha.Past few days, alot of things to share.

Thursday got SSG test...presenting yourself some more...wah...had a hard time walking on that high heels due to leg pain from my TKD training.. my sisters wore the clothes for the whole day..then somebody demanded to see me then i can go home..big f***.... never see girl wear so nice before is it...I just hate this thing to happen leh...ok lah, no point angry...angry do me harm.make me age faster..then that night chatted with him then he told me alot of cock..got one part i asked him to give me 10 reason on why must i go steady or whatever with him..then he say out....got a few of his reason really bhb...haiz...i say one more time, i rather be left on the shelf...then to go steady with someone..haha

Last friday went to sentosa with my TKD friends including joel then later, Xin Xin, Long papa, david, eddie joined us.. palyed till bout 7..then the 6 of us went ot harbour front to have our dinner..but eddie went home. after our dinner, we took a train to orchard to look for su yu and kelvin then at the same time we went to disturb yun mama and iced man... we bumped into WX.he seems quite sian and stress..hope he is ok..

Yesterday went out with Xin Xin to catched a movie, april snow.is a korean movie..then I went to Raffles place went to the gym.. did some workout for about 40-45 mins...then i went to meet my mum we went to chinatown first then to heeren to eat..weeeeeeeeeeeeee....went to Marche wor...wah..big time, wanna eat....big f*** who call me metalbolism high..haha..

mama mia..told to go back to my own home by monday..argh..i never say i wanna go home then my mum asked me to go home she say silent means consent...argh...i don't want to go home with an unwilling heart...Don't know how...got one idea maybe i purposely drag the time limit instead of monday go home i Sunday then go home...wah....then went back to my dad's place then saw the luggage he picked up from somewhere so I called him and he allowed me to use it...gosh..u know what.I went to my dad's place with about 5 bags...if i go back, i'll have 7-8 bags altogether plus one new haversack he bought for me and i used it for my sentosa trip..gosh...can say that i carry so many bags as if i have dismental don't know hoe many person body parts...haha,.no lah...just kidding..the luggage can fit whatever things.. i almost threw in some of my clothes and a few of my bags....don't want to go back so fast...argh..dunno how lah..

today went to starhub.phone got problem again...argh..then now got another spare phone..to use...hope i can quickly get a job, earn money, then buy another phone the nokia 6680....hurry up get money and job...

2005-10-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

Back to update lots of stuffs to talk about...exams over...can lead a carefree life...no stress...heeex....yeah, saturday xin xin came to my place to do her hair.....hope is ok and she like it...she only paid me 15 bucks... then same day, went down to centre point as the manager of giordano( centre point) wanted to see me....hmm..i should be starting work next week..wweeeeeeeee...dying to get money then can buy new stuffs...after went down to centrepoint, went to john little to buy a set of manicure kit...hehe....now having promotions....then wnet to bugis, bought a new wallet.

sunday, my tkd grading, my dad came along....gosh! gotta wait for a long time...sat down there, rot...haiz....thank goodness i didn't screw up....hahaha...hope i can get my pormotion...then sunday night, got church anniversary dinner....did took a few pictures...will upload the pictures later....

the yandaos and chiobus in my youth group at church

monday, didn't went to school as i overslept...then went out to meet my gang..as we are going to su yu's place tow atch the korean movie red shoes....after went to her place took bus 27 all the way to tampines then went to TM starthub to check about my phone...then went around CS to walkand bought my XXL cripspy chicken, i walked throught the CPF buiilding and pass by mcdonalds..guess what?? I bumped into my kor kor Leslie again..hehe...then I reached home, he sms-ed me...

Hmmm.....i guess there is something I wanna share with you guys..is rather stupid...it happened likedc this, i dreamnt that I stayed in a nice big terrace house, and my neighbour is my kor kor...then every morning I'll go over to his place then he'll tongpang me on his bike to school..then one fine day, i was down with a flu and i still went to his place..then i forgot my medicine,so i ran back home to take my medicine.then i went back to look for him..then asked whether am I ok....

then another part, it happened it was raining and i was along the street around my grandmother's place then he was a distance away.looking out for me i suppose..then i ran and tried calling him and tapping him on the shoulder....stupid boy...cabn't feel and hear that i was calling him and tapping him on the shoulder....then we walked together to the car park i think..then i told him to drive in another direction so i will not be seen on the bike with some guys by my grandma...so he agreed..then after he send me home or somewhere.we sms-ed and chatted like before..then suddenly what he told me really gave me a shocked..i shan;t say...you guys go and guess...that's all for now

dArYl, aRiz,Me,NatAlYa and JaSmInE (informal shot)

2005-10-07T19:24:00.000+08:00

back again....after today I can throw away whatever I've learn from my secondary school le....today my final paper at pasir ris sec again...left my home early then when i was about to reach pasir ris sec, i forgot to bring my entry proof...argh...die.....so i quickly hailed for a cab....then i told that uncle to u turn, he go and turn all the way to tampines 400 plus where gongshang primary school is located around there...gosh...what is this...haiz..luckily managed to reached back my home on time...then after i took my entry proof, i quickly ran out to hail for a nother cab..thank god...i wasn't late...hopefuly this time i will do much better.....no more screwing up..i hate screwing up...

after our paper, li ting and I went to Long John silver to eat....actually was supppose to go to the gym at raffles place but in the end I didn't went as I am feeling kinda tired...finished our meal...we stayed on and talk cock... yeah, today leslie kor check out of chalet le..... he checked in on monday....hmm...a few thanks and dedication to a few people.haha....

[su yu, ice man, Long papa]

TKD grading coming.....believe yourself...tell yourself you can do it....at least get a promotion better than nothing...long papa and ice man, I''m glad that you joined our TKD....now have more of my own gang....people in TKD then I won't geel so bored...haha

[Leslie-kor kor]
Nice having you as my kor kor..really surprised that when it was my last day at work...you eventually sms-ed me and cheer me up...Heex...anyway, your bike quite nice too....enjoyed the ride man..haha....don't worry about what my friend say......he always claim that you are my boyfriend..hmm..... you will always be my kor kor....no chemistry between us...i just love having you as my kor...nothing else....when i get my promotion le..i blanja you ok???? don't forget me....haha.

[Brother Kun/ Jeslene Mei]
long time never heard from you 2....see when got time remember to jio each other out hor....brother kun, JC life is tough right???jia you.....study hard wor...A levels next year le leh...jeslene mei, all the best for your O levels worx....you can do it....hope to be able to come out again together like last time.miss ya guys

[Li Ting]
Hey girl, remember what I say ar...when the chance is given..do not miss the cahnce else you gotta wait for don't know how long.....be positive....got anything can tell me....ya, I'm always here and will love to help you if possible...ya...

Yeah, glad that I know how to fold cranes le....I've been folding for the past few days....lots of colours inside my origami box.....even bought new colour paper to make....If I'm not wrong, the Japanese will make a thousand cranes and then they'll make a wish...haha...well, is impossible to do a thousand in one shot..probably it'll take months.....haiz......still looking for job..hope I can work... so i won't have to stay home rot on saturday, sunday..haha....need to eearn more money...to filled up my ATM, pay a little portion of my bills, maybe get new handphone...really wanna get NOkia 6680...that 3G phone..heex....haiz...my Sony Ericsson K 500i send for service now using my cousin's phone.....I should be getting my phone either next tuesday or wednesday...Yeah, really dying to get a job....any recommendation do recommend to me.....ya... This sunday my TkD grading and my church dinner....thought of styling my hair in ... that manner...yeah..the guy Kido from K-one the hair with lots of ''worms''..hehe..then my mum said that if I styled it it will be there forever...then cannot wash hair...eee..don't want...if don't want, can..must cut off my hair....sian diao....hmm.....after today can enjoy le.....gonna find job, no more screwing up in whatever I do.....thanks people for helping me and telling me to grow up....i will do the same..wahahaa

2005-10-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

Now in my campus library again...yeah have been MIA to Mt. Akina for a few days again..heex..Yesterday was my exam in the morning at Pasir Ris Sec.My lesson was suppose to be at 10. but my paper starts at 8am in the morning..got up early man,...ar..felt damn tired...paper was quite ok for me..however there are only about 203 question I don't know how to do...this friday also have another paper.After this friday can enjoy like crazy.... Went back to school then lessons were cancelled...So my gang all went to James place except Su Yu and Kelvin..haha..Stayed there till about 1 plus to 2 then Ling and I left..Firstly, went to TM as Ling wanted to buy her stuffs then I followed her home...Followed her home cos, her friend will be coming to her place to teach make up..haha..make up lesson again..

Then last night didn't study..mind kinda cock up...asked my dad bought me kampong fried chicken for dinner...weeee then my mum saw it down there niam niam niam...ar...sian diao...I realised that chicken really made me kinda grow alot and my hormones even kinda went key siao..lolx...due to steriods lah..cos, chicken are being fed with steriods.. SMS-ed alot of people.. they're Johnny, WX, Ling, my kor,kw, My TKD junior and some others.,.then my kor kor replied..liew... he at chalet.. bo jio..sian diao...then say he won't sleep so early...haha....he this friday then check out.Then asked him want to watch movie not..cos, I after this friday can happy happy liao ma...Then he asked friday go lah...Cos I say saturday go watch bah...then he want friday..wah...he actually this whole week took off cos of his chalet thingy....

Wah, really want to pluck a thin layer of his skin..cos his skin damn thick lah...i say long time never hear from him thought he mati( die) then he replied saying why miss me ar...wah... thick skin leh..then I replied him saying he is thick skin and I his mei mei leh how can miss him..then he say mei then miss ma...ar...whatever...while I was multi task then that pear called...I was talking to WX on the phone and SMS-ing my kor then pear called..i didn't answered...SMS-ed finished and continued talking then Kor kor called very surprising leh...but bloody hell phone went key siao..ar...don't want that to happen again..Tonight won't be going for TKD, going out to study with my sec sch buddy Li ting...she going to the same school as me to take out exams.. she some more sitting behind me leh...not bad..at least don't feel so sian...

2005-10-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

Now is raining...haiz..tomorrow and friday I will be having my exams...this week is no play time for me...after this week, i'm free..haiz....don't know how.....really worried that I might screw up in my exams...anyway, yeah. it is a brand new month...hmm..today after school went to CPF building to collect telephone book..argh..so heavy but I can manage...heex.. yeah on my way back home, saw my kor's bike..is not his bike....is someone's bike is almost exactly the same as my kor..hmm at first I thought is his..but cannot be....because if I'm not wrong the license plate number on his bike doesn't seems to be his... I did took picture of that look alike bike....will upload the picture later

firstly he hsould be at work

secondly he cannot be nearby my place....

sian diao..tomorr0w my papaer at 8 in the morning and fridaymy papaer is at 1430hrs.... rally worried sick bout my exam...

2005-09-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

Now I'm in my campus library..blogging...suppose to be PE lesson..but Charlene, xin xin and me went to the library..wahhaa...haiz..sian diao..yesterday after school went to cafeteria with my gang..Long,yun,Iced man, Eddie bought a birthday cake for Su Yu as it was her birthday yesterday...had a great time..glad she is happy..today is my mei jeslene..is her birthday today...yeah, hmm..i must say there are lots of may, july and september babies..haha...

Yesterday TKD training is not tough...I would like to welcome Long, Joel,Iced man and Xue Ting to our TKD club.they just came and joined in yesterday..so happy to have my own gang and my friends(JOEL and xue ting) to be involve in TKD...wooooooo hoo...in future TKD will not be too sian for me if su yu and eddie is not around....Yeah, yesterday finished quite early..my next grading is on the 9th October..I was suppose to leave earlier but Jason sir wanted me to do my pattern with Jia Yu..so I stayed on..well, my TKD junior Jeff say that like that I can get a double promotion...getting a double promotion there is an advantages and disadvantages.

http://photobucket.com/albums/b318/lin9lin9/caRol%20bIrthDaY%20cEleBraTiOn/7f704bb8.j
Advantages-climb to a much higher level faster than anyone
disadvantages- learning 2 sets of pattern...from a different rank and your current rank.( example if I get green, I gotta learn green tip set of pattern too...) haiz.....sian diao..

Anyway, yeah, next month will be octob er...no no...this saturday will be 1st October a brand new month..On the 9th after my grading had some dinner thingy and bazar thingy organised by my church...heh heh..thought of doing my fringe..silver in colour and last time the green hair i have now turn to gold..haiz.maybe when the event around the corner gonna do le..hehehope mummy allow me to do silver on my fringe just like last time k one member Gino..got that ash/silver strip on his fringe...damn stylo..hahaahaha...

K one member Gino with the strip on his fringe

2005-09-27T15:37:00.000+08:00

I woke up late...today lesson starts at 10 then I woke up at 0956hrs... thanks to Xin Xin's SMS and Carol's call..then I quickly jumped out of my bed...gosh....today my second day of my period...yeah, then got ready and took a cab down to campus I didn't took PE due to my stomach cramp...Argh....pain like hell..
some of the pictures taken at marina bay last friday

Then Yun asked me to eat chocolates...Wah....while WX was around, he asked me not to drink cold drink..then everyone was like...wah..compliment that he is a good PTL..then iced man say from PTL become FUll-time Lao gong..lolx..today talk cock then suddenly talked about guys wanna yang girls...then I down there jokingly say no one want to yang me.....then Ling say Leslie loh...I say wait long long ar...my kor leh..how can make him do that.then after school the rest went to k-box except me and lINg, xin xin and david not sure they going to k-box anot..i wonder did they go..hehe....yeah, yesterday that pear called me thena sked me where is ling, i said she went out with her friends.

Bloody hell! that pear ar...wrote on his blog saying hope me and eddie become an item....what the toot....last time also say hope me and WX together then after WX, he say hope me and David together. then me and Leslie now.....eddie and me...waht the f**k..knn...ggot nothing better to say ar.....if he just shut his mouth no one will say he is a mute loh..haiz...sian diao...what the hell is this..then he say alot of guys after me and there's one way to prevent it from happening which is to disfigure my face...haiz, crazy....then tell me alot of rubbish saying how to make my (ahem! ) big...blooody hell need you to teach me is it..aiyah..he that one BLP lah...su yu say he act cute act like a 5-year-old kid.....i laughed sia...stupid pear.....say this kind of thing one more time you watched out..hhaa

here's something I wanna show you guys on how I soot some one :

iisabell: want more guys a not jeassea i intro to u..yandao one ah beng one also got..

JeAsSeA: no need no need....is ok iisa wan intro hor...my type of guys hor...i dun wan like super glue de...

iisabell: then i give u nivel ai mai...

JeAsSeA: HA..NIVEL ..what?? sorry hor that one my old shoe i take back for what..
.haha.....not worth it lah...is ok..i got lotsa gy friend so not a problem...

iisabell: lol ur old shoes?yah but is old shoes dun want euu even if euu want back as if the old shoes want euu lolx pathetic..

JeAsSeA: HAHA.ah wadever....wan or don't wan not important as if i care.....heh heh....dun tell me u wan wear my old shoe....wear loh..that one cheapskate.....meant for ppl who like cheapskate stuffs ma..hahaa aniwae scared wad...cannot find bf ar....singapore plenty of guys wad....

iisabell: lol ur old shoes? dun0 who dump who lolx..cheapslate? mayb the shoe thinks the owner's leg smelly run away..

JeAsSeA: yaya, wadever.dun wan dun wan loh...i dun gif a damn.....keep yr cheapskate shoes wif u lah...bhb...got so mani ai ai for wad.....act so jian...wor

2005-09-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

Back again to update my blog this time with all my enjoyment and fun for the past few days...Yeah, last firday went to Marina Zhen fa to have steamboat as it is another sister's birthday..this time the birthday girl is Carol...Happy birthday Carol.....hope you like your present...

Had a great time, eating, taking pictures, chatting, taking food of our choices..thanks to su yu for helping me to take lots of pictures and to film a mini video on my digital camera...hahaa.. then Su Yu, Kelvin, Yun,Ah long and eddie left....only left carol , david, carol's 2 friends. wei xiang, ling,ice man and me...we went to the arcade....played a few rounds of games then we left....Woooooo hoooooo reached tampines then my kor kor tongpang me on his motorbike...wooooooooo hoooo...the last time I sat on a motorbike was when i'm still a kid I sat infront and my dad drove..this time, I sat at the back.then kor kor asked me to hold tight.At first don't know how to hop onto the bike..then kor hoped on first, followed by me..hehe..thanks kor for sending me home..

Forward to today, i went out with ling, xin xin, david,ice man, tay wei xiang and Li Jie to orchard cineleisure....actually we wanted to watched the movie ;red shoes in the end, we didin't..so in the end we watched another movie. Lord of the dog town..heh heh.... had a great time..haiz..this li jie ar....keep on disturbing my and ling....irritating...haha...ya, tomorrow is fu de's birthday...hapy birthday fu de, next followed by sister su yu and my mei jeslene.. jes mei, long time never hear from you and never go out with you...hope to go out with you again....miss ya... had a great time for the past few days....about me and eddie, we're still friends lah.....ya....eddie. i don't want to lose a friend glad to have you as one of my good friend. everything seems better........glad about it...wishing everyone a happy time without facing so much problems in life

2005-09-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

hmm..lots of things to say...firstly, is about wednesday.....if you guys get to know about what happened wednesday at my campus library...you'll sure kinda laugh....it happened like this.. we had 3 hours break due to our lessons being cancelled that 's why we end up having 3 hours break,...as usual my group of buddies and sisters went to the library some used the PCs some went there to sleep.I logged in on msn then steven say hi to me...so we chatted then beside me was edie, then the 2 of us were busy shooting, pass nasty remarks..then there's a line that stevena sked me go eat shit say i fierce...then I du lan..I sold...I say something like this.... ''knn, nb,ccb, how dare u ask me to makan tayi(shit in malay)''...bloody hell then he what....stupid pear...the reason why i called him pear iit started when yeng ling said that he's some kind of superglue/something sticky in cantonese..so whenever I forget the word, i'll remember it as pear as the first word sounds like pear...... after that came along Ling, she joined in the businesss of passin nasty remarks.......he keep saying he like ling, won't give up..haiz...buay tahan keep on saying that same sentence.......

ya, recently, i don't know why eddie started to treat me so nice...this remind me of how he treated xin xin in the past.Then that iced man say he want to chase me....NO way....Is impossible.I really don't know what eddie is up to........haiz...how i wish i can know the answer...Sisters, friends....I didn't came up to him..is he auto come and treat me so nice.....How i wish he don't do that...just like wednesday, after school, he followed me home then after tkd, he see me home....He just alighted at the same bus stop as me and I walked all the way home all by myself...Yeah, I told Iced man that I like my kor kor leslie...( ling u knw what is the actual reason right???)...Then yesterday my another friend said that he liked me actually it happend like this while we were busy chatting then it happened like this :

KW: so u now single or double?
Me: Ha....wad BF...Don't have leh,..haha..I long time ago break le..
KW: I see, never tell me cos I thought u available want to ask u de..
Me:but I now single but unavailable leh.....really...why wan to intro boy friend give me ar?? how come must ask me leh???
KW:Not intro boys to you..haha..I intro myself to u..haha..then when u are available tell me, maybe u now exam after exam can?
Me: orh..you want find girl friend ar..so hurry..say early lah....I intro girls give you lah..See how lah....is it you like me..haha
KW : yA LAH, i LIKE u
Me: Oh really, i so good meh..you like me for how long le?? are you kiddingi nobody want de leh.
KW: From the day I know you, find u attractive ma, me not kidding de..but now u need to work hard for your exams
Me:Yaya, I will...cos I now this kind of things I don't wish to bother le..haha..i just hope if possible, I gonna make myself unavailable till I can go to poly..haha
KW: YA,good lor....work hard ar...hehe
Me: But I hope to be with you...

yeah, like that..haiz...I was seriously thinking,,if possible I wish to stay single and UNAVAILABLE till I'm able to go into poly....If I'm able to go in....then see if got people want anot..haha...sorry for being thick skin... then IF can't get into poly probably I'll have the same status single but unavailable..Hope to be unavailable for life..rather be left on the shelf...people might think I'm crazy... but really.i wan tot find the happy me, enjoy life, do well in studies, make my wishes and dreams comme true...guys....can step aside...not important to me already.

you all can say why i'm unavailable....you may think that I'm abnormal probably a lesbian another reason can be eh....lose confidence in guys,this is the 2 main reason people will think why I'm unavailable.....another reason can be.... I'm only available for one particular guy.

Yesterday bumped into that idoit on msn.then the first question was..how u and your boyfriend??? argh..buay tahan....keep thinkin I got boyfriend ...let me say one more time..i'll never never never want to stepped into a r/s for don't know how long so i asked why he want me to have a bf....he say he want people to take care of me. for goodness sake..give me a break... I can take care of myself..don't need a guy to look out for me......then he asked me go and find one bf..wah....what the f***??? think what..ask me go find one must go find one and easy to find is it..I'm not desperate...then he say got one guy for me I don't want....bloody hell he asked me to take him...don't want leh.....Die also don't want ar.. Then today iced man say eddie is available.....pui ar..give me I don't want die die also won't want and won't llike him....so what?? scared cannot find ar..singapore got 2 million guys..so what?? I don't want leh..i admit my expectation high..i chooosy..ya.
so what even he last guy or that idoit last guy on earth die also won't like them

I know cannot be so choosy wait even gu tou mei you de shen ar...haiz...sian diao..don't ever tell me any guys like me, chase me etc etc..i've enough of their lies etc etc..that's why you all see I'm not gentle because of some reason and there is a story behind...please understand.... sorry for being so frustrating...i Just wanna say what I wished to say for quite some time... I don't want to bring whatever I wished to say out for a long time to my grave....

Ok lah.. ok lah I don't angry le...I want to be happy as tonight my another sister carol birthday celebration..must be happy for everyone and for her plus my self..haha....take picture must look good....always get angry, get frustrated,stress, will get old easily see...lah....now my eye the eye bag so big le, that's why i used eye gel and whatever eye product to help my eyes.....haha

2005-09-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

must be wondering what big business am i doing in mount akina....yeah..alright I shall talk about today.About today lesson CDP...we did some group discussin and presentation on what kind of business your group is setting up...my group members are charlene,carol and eddie..unfortunately, charlene and carol are not around...haiz,,sain diao......my group is doing a cyber cafe business for this discussion thingy..for su yu and iced man's group, iced man wanna open a stationery shop selling stationery, toilet papers, snacks..then yong han say that he might as well open a mama shop..lolx..yeah, I guess iced man should consider opening a departmental store..

Yesterday after school went to James 's place with Ling, su yu, shi yun,xin xin, eddie, iced man....so envy james as he stayed in a terrace house..haiz....he's born with a silver spoon in his mouth......( opps! did i say the right idioms???)..I guess I should shoot out what I wanna say alll this while....ok...

firstly, is few days ago my junior said that he liked me... but I guess he had a little puny crush on me, nothing else....

secondly is like this, one of my friend on msn asked me whether do i have friends to intro him..i say i'll ask my freinds if they are willing to know more friends...then suddenly he changed his mind..i find something not right then suddenly he asked something kind of ridiculous asking can he want me?? I didn't get what he meant then I asked him, he refused to tell me properly....how am I suppose to know if he don't tell me waht exactly is going on..how am i going to understand..then he kept on saying nevermind.....etc etc..
this friend whenever see me on msn will asked me a few same questions.. one question is

whether I have money to lend him
Am I attach**
When am I free

I just find that at times I'm really pissed off and fed up with this freidn of mine..sisters/friends/brothers dont worry he didn't took advantage/bully/cheat me ...really....I'm alright..I just don't understand why must he asked me that question the one I marekd with the asteries..

SO what If I'm not attached??so what if i'm left on the shelf ???you want me is it?? sorry..I don't want,,...I rather be what I am now single but unavailable..all you want to asked is money..but thank god I didn't have any to lend it to oyu..I'm not stupid to lend you money...you always say you'll be leaving this worlsd...since you're really sick and tired of life..i shlal wash my hands off you..save my breath from advising you that life is emaningful..alright...if you are still adamant on your decision about death..then go ahead....go and die..now.....sorry friedns for my vicious way of scolding people....i think from now on, i don't wish to contact this chap anymore

I've have enough.....I don't wish to be reminded of some useless people and only want to take advantage of people asking for money.........argh....fed up....

2005-09-17T17:29:00.000+08:00

friday went to chinese garden with Ling, Wei Xiang(her working friend not my part time dear Hoon wei xiang, this one is tay wei xiang..) and Fu De...there is some latern festival thingy going on..the admin fee was $13.00 mon to thur is $9.00...busy touring.taking pictures of the places we past by...The pictures will be publish soon..After touring around, we went to CHua Chu Kang to eat at the food court... Yeah, that steven called Ling while we left CCK shopping centre....Then I asked her friend WX to act as a kidnapper if he were to answer that phone call from steven..But in the end, WX didn't do that haiz....sian diao...not fun... Ling and Wx said that steven might call the plice if she is really kidnapped...I must say that steven think too mcuh already..

Other than this outing,i already bought my new pair of shoes from fude..then I went home, sleep and get ready to go to the gym at raffles place..I'm a member there, same as my mum.I'm having some lesson there at 1730hrs..haiz...there is no body balance class..but on 16th september is pilate specially..meant for friday so I went in and joned the class..Is really interesting..heex...

Reached home at around 2330hrs .Fu De, Ling and me took bus no.67 from choa chu kang.Then steven called me and Ling, I didn't picked up his call...so tired....but I slept at 3am...as I was busy watching some Idol dramas...I watched 2 different idol drams one is a prince who turned into a frog( wang zi bian qing wa) acted by band group 183 club. aand guest star by K one member Gino..heex...

the next drama is top on the forbidden city(zi jing zi dian) acted by band group K-one,guest star 5566 member sam and zax..however,sam is the main guest star for zi jing zi dian...gosh! this drama is about some dance...their dance style is really special,tremendous..yeah...My favourite member in K-one, Li Yang and JR...this 2 have the very young and cheerful face...heex...

cast of zi jing zi dian:

2005-09-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah Monday went to Marina Bay to have seafood and steamboat with
Su yu, Shi Yun, Ling, Xin Xin, David, Wei Li, Wei Xiang, Ice man...WEll, the main purpose of going there to eat is not becuase we are not satisfied with home cook food or food from food courts/coffeshop etc is because it is Ah Long A.K.A Gabriel's birthday he's giving us a treat...so nice of him..haha...yeha, su yu brought the same candles which it will relight by itself again..haha....glad that long enjoyed himself

Pictures taken on monday..still have lots of pictures but i'll upload those I like and look nice..heex..don't worry. you guys can go to my photobucket and take a look at whatever pictures in my album

Other than that, I guess is time I should just shoot out whatever I wanna say. Is better to let my problems and stuffs out else I may explode one day and turn mad...alright this thing happen like this....recently, I realised something a little not right with my mum she's always bugging about all kinds of stuffs one of the things I hated was to be force to do things....she kinda forced me to do 2 things

1) to show her my cheque

2) to show her whatever I bought and kept in my drawer

Yesterday, she snatched my stuffs and wanna take a look at it.....yeah other than that I'm really mad at her for saying me using the computer, not going to school yesterday and treating the school as if it is my father's school,The week before that, I did told her that I have to go down to tampines ITE for TKD training on tuesday...yet while I was on my way home, she called me and said that I 've been going out at night.. ok,besides things that i've done at night like going to marina bay to celebrate ah long's birthday.I did sms-ed her...she said she didn't read it...that's her problem..I've already done my duty

I think she purposely forget that I'll be going for another TKD training and wanna find fault with me...you guys may think she really forget...but I don't think so...I really can't tolerate anymore...actually I was hoping to packed my stuffs after yesterday's issue and wanna leave for my dad's place...not because of yesterday but because of alot of stuffs that really pissed me off

I started to have that problem with her since the day she called me a prostitue..nevermind..i'll bear with her for a while more...if that really exceeds my limit I'm gonna leave.don't think i DON'T DARE TO DO IT..i 'VE DONE IT ONCE.....I wonder why she wanna do ths kind of stupid tings like force me to show her my stuffs etc etc.... then once she wanted me to write down all my friends' contact number...what the hell??

today while I was washing the dishes she asked me to clean the table first..I told her that I'm waashing the dishes then she said I did the wrong thing because I was suppose to wipe the table then wash the dishes...what is the difference even the slightest thing also wanna argue and find fault with me.... then today asked whether did I go to school anot..I said I did she doesn't believe then she asked me where is my uniform..I told her is in the laundry....haiz..so unfair people's mum not like that....sucks man....argh..too angry to write some more...due to today Tkd training...sparring eh.... got bruises on my leg and arm already...sian diao

2005-09-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to East Coast with my sister Xin Xin and one of my hao friend/buddy David..heh heh Xin Xin and me cycled while david roller blade.the place where we rent out bikes and roller blade was at the shop where Wei Li is working at..hmm..long time didn't see wei li already....

YeaH, ReaLlY had a great time with them..thanks for asking me to join you guys.....Never regretted cycling though my body is aching and my ass and legs are still freaking pain....Today just re-dye my hair to dark brown almost to black...I have strips of green under my hair heh heh..but I find that the green is not obvious enough...it reminds me of seaweed..is not obvious because firstly I didn't bleached my hair...then if too striking can be ah lian..haha...haiz...sian diao...

But nevermind.....after my exam then say.....cos wait my hair ar..too striking wait get caught then can't take exam better play safe...woo hoo..tomorrow can bank in my cheque already..... I'm dying must quickly pay for whatever bills and money I owe to my dad...haiz....Money always make people so troubled and stress

2005-09-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Yeah, you guys must be wonderng what on earth am I doing at MOunt Akina..lolx......ok back to business to let you guys know what have I been doing for the past few days..yeah, thursday went to take my pay..while on my way to my work place I bumped into Leslie-kor..haha...he worked at the same place as me...Yeah, after I collected my pay, I went to Starhub customer service to check my GPRS...then went to popular to buy somethig.I bought 5566 3rd album....weeeeeeee...haiz...thursday night my mother down there kpkb bout my pay and insisted on taking a look at my cheque..If I let her take a look at it..I'll be in hot soup cos my pay is only $171.00 some more she thought I worked for the whole month..when she looked at the cheque, she freaked out and say the boss is cheating me...then she wanted to go down adn talk to the boss about it..if I don't want her to go down she'll ask my dad to go down....gosh! I knew I couldn't let any trouble to go on....so I QUICKLY told my mum that I was fired that's why I was paid this amount..She didn't scold or say anything to pissed me off....then she asked where have I been after I got fired...I told her I went out to look for a job....at first she didn't believe then I said that other than going out, I did stayed at home...I didn't want to tell her is because it is not a good thing to tell people that you're being fired..IS really embarassing to happily tell people that you're being fired..yeah one thing I'm quite happy about..no need to pay some bills...wo hooo..

Yesterday went to my mum's workplace the gym...At the gym there were classes for me to attend...my first lesson was body balance is something like yoga/pilates,teaches you how to balance and be flexible...well, my body was aching after my body balance, I got another class to attend.that was when I finished the whole session my body was aching, even my ass is damn pain..haiz..then yesterday I called my workplace to let them know I'm coing down to settle about my cheque as the date was written wrongly instead of writing 8th september, it wrote 12th september..But it was Leslie-kor who picked up the phone....Then while I was still on the train, leslie-kor called me saying that I don't need to come down but to call the workplace so that Madam can explained...So I called the workplace..then my mum talked to her about it..I told my mum to say my name not to sy she's so and so's mother...argh.........fed up..after talking on the phone and reached tampines my mum still want to go down to my workplace..I asked her not to...and yet she kinda insisted to do that..what to do?? can't stop her. when we reached home , she still calculated about my hours and my pay....I was abit fuck up already as she is that kind who can calculated like crazy to give you see....I imagianed If I never tell her and kept the secret what would it be like....

yeah.this morning that steven sms-ed me...sms-edme never mind..I was still sleeping themy house phone rang, I didn't get up to answer the phone then my handphone rang, gosh! it was him..so I rejected his call....knn...I hate to be disturbed in the morning especially when I'm still sleeping...argh....bored to death only can bank in my cheque on the 12th september as it is a cash cheque with no cross angle on the top left hand corner..what the hell???? this few days is really sucks man...first, give my mum settle y working stuffs..she even said that she intend to call my workplace when I was often outside at night....But she didn't called as she was quite busy....thank god....sorry leslie-kor for making you get scolded..

for you and me

happy birthday to me today

+_____ I suppose all those sadness should b gone______+

+____~pictures for you guys to see~_____+

specially for my sister xin xin

+_ I suppose all those sadness should b gone__+

+~pictures for you guys to see~_+