Sunday, September 10, 2006
torn
Saturday, June 03, 2006
haiz.. yesterday learn to key in things like orders etc etc.. I abit neverous then got key wrongly bout once or twice. Then I got my pay for my first day of work, cos end of the month is pay day so I happen to work end of may like that, so I got my pay,the manager said wanna pay me 7 bucks per hour for the time beig but then I didn't expect he paid me 7.50 per hour, cos the manager told me, other staffs get paid 7.50 and I still not experience so he'll pay me 7 per hour, then i didn't expect he pay me 7.50.The first thing I do when I report to wrok, I faster claim my taxi fare.
last night, work till 1am like that but left the palce much later cos still got customers haven't leave yet. hmm.. Glad to get a cab in time. not waiting for so long then got no cab. hmm.. later going out with ice man, ling, cheryl, qing tian , royston. haha.. long itme never get together le, btw, bout another guy liking me besides gabriel the answer is there, you guys can guess who is that person among the 3 shuai ges.. haha.. signing off le.. sayonara
torn
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Stroll finish liao, we went to CS long john silver sat down drink something and talk cock. Talk till around 2 plus like that, then we went to NTUC to buy some sweets to share with our TKD friends. Bought le, we went back to interchange to take bus, I went back home first as I need to call the gas service to deliver a new cylinder of gas, hmm.. at last! done with the gas thingy.
yeap, can get ready for TKd liao, so long never train, due to my operation. Now recover le, so should be ok for me bah, heex. so sad suyu not around heard that she is sick. suyu, you must get well soon, don't get so stress up till you fall sick wor. I went back to TKD then I heard must pay grading fee liao, next grading is July. woo.. so fast, after blue tip is blue belt liao.. wahahaha.. so fast.
Training is kinda tough and very chuan sia.. then got sparring, I went for my first round I sparred with Pei wen, then second time is HuiPing and me sparred with Daphne.. gosh! she very poweful sia, kicked my back, tummy, my leg got bruised then my wrist got hurt too.. argh I keep on use front or side kick, when Jason coach countdown I keep on kick lo, she down there like du lan liao.. ar haha.. finished liao, everybody clapped. lolx.
finished around 2110hrs.. not bad, so I went out with Justin, Pei wen, Daniel,Candy, Royston, Elson and Eddie to bedok Hawker centre to eat.. then chatted about my higher NITEC application,I decided and confirm follow Justin method by talking to MP about my this problem, Justin say his family also go see MP, then his father and brother's stuffs settle in a much better way, his friend went to see MP about going into poly, in the end, his friend got place in the polytechnic, hopefully after go and meet the MP, then I got place in simei ITE bah.
Then tuesday, after work, my mum and me got some problem lo, she say when I knocked off form work le, must msg her tell her I in which taxi plus the taxi license plate number she say just in case I sway sway bump into a bad taxi drvier wait drive me to don't konw where and sell me away. she think too much liao, then because of this like kpkb lo. yeah, I know I don't look like 18, but I know what is going on, she say I not smart enough, maybe bah, she say if I smart I shouldn't be in ITE, knn, INSULT MAN, she not only insult me, but insult those clever ones studying in ITE. Then she say IF i don't msg her after work, then don't work asked me to quit.. Nnb, I'm 18 le pls stop treating me like 14 or 15 year old though I look like one, what to do? cna't help it, Only have to dress up a little bit more mature loh, like style hair in a little bit more mature way, ok back to the study thingy and clever part, she say I clever is rely on tuition and without tuition I won't pass.. I only tuition for maths ma, she say unitl like I in life is act smart like that. what the fuck, I very buay song, the reason why I work night shift or what is proper reason no lame reasons.
1) The rate is fine with me, 7bucks per hour
2) cos at night, I can't sleep so I tend to do other things till very late night and those things I do, is waste of time and useless.
3)Since I don't like to go home, I can't find a proper way to stay out late at night
4) go home also nothing to do, face the stupid 4 walls and one old celling which has so many hair line cracks
5) keep myself busy, don't need to think about so many things, especially facing my mother, her lian se make me fuck up
6) the company very good, say if I take the cab home, must get the receipt then can claim the cab fare money
ARGH.. verys tress stress like don't konw what, me like my buddy xin xin le, she so stress like wad like that never see her like that de only now then know. haiz.. hope evryone will be alright soon, especially suyu.
torn
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Oh ya, tomorrow june le, then this June got a few events coming up for me, 1st and 8th June no piano class for me, cos the school holiday, followed by 10th June I got my sec 4 class BBQ gathering, oh ya guys I forgot to let you know that I am going for an audition, for some contest, the contest is called New Paper new face organised by new paper,so call sponsore is by female magazine. hmm.. then my mum think I can win $10k. She says, IF i win 10k I pay for her trip to Shanghai, haha then like that I shun bian pay for myself too bah.. ahahaha....I not putting so much hopes lah.. win then win, never win nevermind, the most is i become popular only bah.. ahahaha
Btw, my brain not yet rusty cos, on mondays I've been attending this workshop call toastmasters, this word sounds familiar and interesting right? yeap, is about communication skills etc etc, yesterday was my first presentation with the other toastmaster members, I did my speech gotta write on a piece of paper first then roughly summarize them verbally, I cracked my brain on how to write , what to write.. yeap, later going to work liao. hopefully I won't screw up. I must jia you, best thing is tomorrow hopefully can really go back to school to study.
OH ya, those who tend to go bar/pubs or what, can look for me, location, timing, I can let you guys know, I'll be working on tuesday and friday other details I can msg you guys
torn
Saturday, May 27, 2006
hmm. Heaven is still fair to me bah at least got good guys around not alot lah, but at least 1 or 2 only. but the problem is I'm still confused who I like more leh.yeap, Fishy said the right thing bah, cos, I don't wanna go into another r/s that fast, I need a break, if I don't have a long break, I will break down and go crazy. Then for Eddie he tagged my board and told me what to do lo, if I think his point of view is correct. hmm. maybe Im still afarid of my past bah, then my past still somehow haunts me bah not everyday but once in a long while it'll kinda haunt me by putting those irritating stuffs in my dreams lo. whatever it is lah, IF i gave up on someone like that, then I don't in the end blame heaven that I never get those good guys. Is me who is stupid, choosy lo. Is my loss lo..
Then talking back about how those things grow in my body that I gotta go for an operation, hmm.. I named out those things caused.
i) my diet
ii) my own problems like stress, not sharing out anything
iii) technology, environment
Then when touched on the psychological part, me and my mum had a tiff, she said that I feel with hatred for my parents etc etc, I admit last time I hate, I yuan. but now, I don't whatever it is it is already in the past, I learn to let go, learn to forgive and forget. Yet my mum still claim that whatever thing it is is forever there, example when I hate about last time or what, means I hate it last time but now I don't.
SHe insisted about other things, she is wronged about me yet she don't admit.. argh.. then she say maybe I quarrel with friends or what. but I from don't know when until now, never quarrel with my good friends liao leh.. only small misunderstandings then after a while apologise, then talk about what happen then ok le, like that only. The reason why I don't like to share with her my things is because last time,whenever she not in the good mood, or what, then Iwanna open my mouth and tlak she'll say I tlak back. what is this? that's why I don't like to tlak to her till now.
Facing four walls and a celling at home sucks she say that my sentence facing 4 walls and a celling means I bear grudges, full of hatred. WHat for? hate takes alot of energy
Here is a story being told by my school teacher when I was in secondary school, I think it might be familiar with some of you people.
A teacher told her students to gather potatoes, the teacher told the students to bring the potatoes everywhere they go, The next day, the students gather back at school for lessons, some had 1 to2 potatoes and the other students had at least more than 5 potatoes, indeed the students followed their teacher's instructions by carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the students did this for quite a few days, slowly, the potatoes, starting to smell bad, rot.
Those who had at least more than 5 potatoes, started to complained even more, saying that the bag of potatoes they carreid are heavy, while the other students who had less than 5 potatoes started to find it a hassle to carry the potatoes eveywhere they go, it seems inconvenient. SO the students gave those feedback to their teacher, the teacher listened carefully and asked them. " do you know why I asked you guys to gather those potatoes and carry them with you everywhere you go?" the students had no idea why, so the teacher told them " this is beacuse the number of potaotes you had means the number of person you hate, hate takes alot of energy, it is like carrying heavy stuffs you need alot of strength to carry heavy stuffs. Slowly, when you carry those potatoes aorund, slowly, itll smelled bad and start to rot, that is how when you hate someone, you are hating to the core and there will be lots of unhappy things coming in like bitterness, hard hearted and many many more."
The students listened carefully , one of the students voiced out and asked the teacher can they stop carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the teacher told them " you can do it, provided you stop hating someone, by forgivng and forgetting what your enemy has done to you. The students did. Those who had more than 5 potatoes slowly, reduce the number of potaotes they had by throwing it away, it reduce and all the potatoes were gone. This means those students who had hatred for someone, slowly, they forgive and forget.
when the potatoes issued were settled the taeacher asked the students how they feel without the potatoes around, the students answered they feel, more relax, relieve without any trouble with those potatoes they had to bring it around.
Hmm.. am i a good story teller.. haha... k lah, talked about yesterday, I went for interview, actually wanna interviewed a few places de. but then I didn't expect one bar, willing to let me start work immediately which is next week.. haha the workplace very good, asked me which day available then can come down and work.. haha one hour 7 bucks leh.. Don't worry I'm not ppole dancer or what, down there no pole, only got pool table big plasma tv so customers can come in watched football. haha, Just a waitress there. can wear any clothes I like, no uniform, heex.. next time wanna go new place and drink, enjoy life can come my work place, the location is at far east square. The name of the place is Mama Africa.
I went back to my workplace at metro.. I missed the place very much, especially some of those people I got to know there.. heex. I took bus 969 back to tam0pines interchange, while walking to east link mall, I walked past the waiting area for bus 67 I saw some one bei ying very familiar .. Hmm.. I think is Wei x.. HAha. I wanna confirm so I went infront of him, then we chatted.. he just finished work.. i see... hmmm.. he seems much better liao la, but still like very thin leh.. haha..
about Suyu tag board thingy, this reminds me of my tag board being flooded and my gang went to tagged Iisabell's tag board plus xin xin whose tag board was flooded before.. haiz.. idoit, how dare they bully suyu.. hmm.. mouth so smelly, don't tlak so much cock lah, don't know how to zip your mouth, I help you ok? help you freshen your breath, if not one thing, I cut off your tongue see whether you dare to talked so much rubbish anot.. hmm.. bloody hell.. ling followed what I say liao. last time I say ppl puberty abnormal etc etc.. ya loh, quite true, if is a girl she watched out, careful she like me, got lumps in her breast, then the lumps is cancerous then the whole breast gotta be remove, not only that, scarly her womb also got thing then whole womb remove. see whether got ppl want her anot.. freak
hmm. but mine is harmless will not turn to cancerous de.. haha
Then if it is a guy, hope he become eunuch ba.. haha.. ok lah, I don't wanna so bad curse ppl lah, I must go freshen my breath liao.. I like very fierece hor? my mum called me Lady cui
from da chang jin this is because lady cui is fierce and wicked however I'm fierce but not wicked.. haha. but at the later part, lady cui died in a tragic death. ya, wicked people will die in a tragic death.. but not really, good people die in tragic death is beacuse is happen bad luck ma.torn
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Today Gabriel msg me, then he suddenly asked me about my higher NITEC thingy.. hmm.. this Gabriel still the same, sometimes still address me, in a sweet sweet manner, sometimes he'll call me sweetie or babe, haha then one shocking thing he told me was to be mentally prepared as he'll be asking me some question, haha I hit the nail on the head, indeed he asked me to be his gf, that is the question he asked me, I got shocked, was kinda speechless for a while, then he asked me is it he pop that question out too early, I said ya, not only I said ya, I told him I need a long break for r/s, followed by he's now serving his NS, the last sentence I told him was when he finish his NS le, then come and pop that question out ba.
Hopefully, I say this to him, he won't feel what bah. I don't wish to make things worse and get people hurt however telling tons of white lies won't help a lie, is still a lie I suppose, I did told a white lie in the first place le bah, maybe I did, maybe I did not.. argh.. so confused, all I remembered was he stepped into my life at a little later stage, enjoyed the times chatting and poking fun at each other then slowly I realised I liked him bah,to think back, now, I'm in a terrible mess, I liked 2 guys at the same time, how am I suppose to tell him, that I've fallen for someone else too. I know people might think he is a good guy and yet I didn't choose him, yet I gave him up.. haiz..
I just don't understand why I made a mess in life, I hate screwing up in whatever I do.
I'm glad you stepped into my life, we got lots of things in common and can chat alot of stuffs under the sun.
You and I made a shocking discovery, probably is heaven giving you the chance to let your feelings for me in the past came back.
For my past few r/s and those other guys trying to woo me, I asked myself why was heaven so unfair , throwing those rotten guys to me and yet let those sluts outside grab those good guys, where have all the good guys gone to?
I asked myself this question many many times , however you appeared and I told myself
heaven isn't that cruel at least there are still good guys around you are one of those good guys.
I ever told myself if the time comes,I'll rather choose you, this is because we have so many things in common, in the same boat in certain things, and since we have so many things in common,
we can understand each other better, but now, I think I can't bring myself to do it. I rather we be friends, just like how me and one of my soulmate is, though we are not an item, but we are still best friends for life.
I'm sorry for not being frank with you, not being able to tell you that I've liked someone else besides you.Just hope that, you'll find your another half, no matter what, I'm always here for you, whenever you need me, thanks for being so good to me,
I'm touched and happy. really thanks alot for being with me, I never regret knowing you
torn
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Many people left, only left, samuel, Joel, xin xin, Cheryl, Royston and me. Then justin a.k.a Chua hee hee very lame and bo liao, say he very boring want me to continue telling him my whatever story. The 6 of us left at around 6 something.. yeap. that's early and not so crowded. haha went to habour front had our dinner, Cheryl, royston and me went to suntec city courts as Cheryl was looking for the 9.90 speaker, for her mp3 however the promotion starts on saturday which is yesterday. sian diao, still very bored so we went to the esplanade roof terrace, sat down, tell stories and chit chat. Sast downt here till about 9 plus. We walked to boat quay area and took the train , Cheryl and I got down at Eunos to take any bus that pass and goes to tampines safra. Gosh! i GOT A BIT OF SUNBURN.. HEEX. hopefully xin xin is ok, cos her stomach like not feeling well, joel says its appendix. hmm.. that night xin xin msged me say she is sorry for not spending time with me and cheryl then always with Joel if not , she'll keep to herself.. hmm.. xinx in, is ok, cheryl and me won't blame or say you de.. ya? at least you still got talk to us.
Ok, back to yesterday. went to singapore indoor stadium as there is some event and 5566 is there, can say a so call 5566 concert.. woo hoo, taufik came and perform and sang a few songs.. haha. 5566 sang the most songs. wahaha. I downt here screaming like nobody's business, Kym Ng and Gurmit Singh was the host for this event, then when they were talking bout 5566. I was the only one screaming within my seat and one lady infront of me, kinda stared at me, jis lat, the whole event finished le, I went to looked for my cousin, she borugh her friend along for this event and I borught my friend along too.. My dad came to tong pang us, we went to Bedok and ate our dinner or supper whatever you wanna call it, for me is my late dinner. wahahaha. screamed until no voice liao, there is one part Xie zhi say his pants is kinda lose, the fans were asking him to strip, I was there busy singing the song tuo diao. haha. lame right? I seems to be wild, hyperactive, mad, noisy when it comes to pop star concert, that's ME...I very careful cos, wait some people don't like, t will throw their shoes at me or whatever shit lah.. haha..so happy can't stop thinking about yesterday
torn